In Your Eyes

by Catharine Clemens


 DISCLAIMERS: Song is Peter Gabriel's
          Characters belong to TPTB.
           Story is mine.



          "I'm not using you , but how can I prove it ?
           What can I say ? "
            
           Nick grasped Natalies' shoulders as he said
           "Tell me what to say" desperately.
          
           She replied in a dead hopeless voice
           "Maybe there isn't anything left to say"

        She pulled away from him & he turned away from her
        trying not to see the goodbye in her eyes.

             Love I get so lost sometimes
             Days past & this emptiness fills my heart.

       He had to get out of there fast, so he got into the Caddy
       & just started driving.  No particular destination, he
       just wanted to leave the pain behind.

             When I want to runaway
             I drive off in my car
             but whichever way I go
             I come back to the place you are......


       He'd been driving for about an hour, when he realized
       he was out in the country.He was driving on a deeply rutted
       road which shook him out of his revery.  He stopped the
       car when he came to a clearing which was filled with flowers.
       He was surrounded with flowers he had never seen before.

                    They were star shaped & were in varying shades
       of yellow,purple & blue. Their scent was a combination of
       lemon,musk & cinnamon.  Natalie's scent...    

                    He had given Natalie flowers before when he had
       forgotten her birthday.  He had signed the card "with affection"
       If he had done that to Jannette, he would have been staked &
       left for the sun.
                    All Natalie had tried to do was help him.  She had 
       experimented with various cures.  She was supportive when he needed
      it & when he needed a swift kick in the pants,she gave him that too.
      She had even helped him find his faith again.

                     In your eyes
                     the light,the heat
                     in your eyes I am complete
                     In your eyes
                     I see the doorway to a thousand churches
                     In your eyes
                     I see the resolution of all my fruitless searches          

                    On Valentine's Day everything had changed.  She had
      given him the gift of her love & he had returned it with his own
      vow of to love her always.  But Lacroix had come between them  &
      he had been forced to take the memory from her.  He had since real-
      ized he had been wrong to do so, even if it was to protect her.
                    Since then things had gone from bad to worse between
     them. He had distanced himself from her to the point that when Schanke 
     & Cohen had died, he had almost left town. It was her anger that
     stopped him,convinced him that he couldn't keep running away if
     he wanted to lead a normal life, as a vampire or a mortal. So he had
     stayed & once again he had angered her.
         
                     Love,I don't like to see so much pain,
                     so much wasted & this moment keeps slipping away...

                    He moved to carress the flowers in front of him.  He 
     moved too suddenly & the flower was broken off it's stalk. Before he
     had a chance to brood about his destructive nature,another flower had
     bloomed in it's place. At first he couldn't believe what he had seen,
     but he held the evidence of the broken blossom in his hands.
                    He stood up straight & noticed how peaceful it was
     here.  Maybe it was an illusion created by the brightness of the flo-
     wers, but it seemed almost as light as when the sun was out. He would
     have to bring Natalie here sometime......
                    And then at last he knew what he had to do.


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                     I get so tired of working so hard 
                     for our survival.
                     I look to the time with you to keep
                     me awake & alive.

                    Natalie sighed as she tried to focus on the file in
        front of her. Yet another failed attempt at a cure. Some part of
        her was hurting. She had thought by keeping away from him the
        ache inside her would ease but now it was worse. That was when the
        flowers had arrived. She knew that she had never seensuch flowers
        before & yet their scent was hauntingly familiar.....
                   She opened the card that came with the flowers &
        read these words:

             Natalie,
                   These flowers are like my love for you ; Neverending
             You have my heart & soul forever.
                                 Nicholas de Brabant 

        On a separate line were these words:

            I love you , I've always loved you & I will always love you.
   
        Such beautiful words that reminded her of a recurring dream she'd
        started having right after Valentine's Day......
                    Twenty minutes later they were watching Tracy's ap-
        pearance on the Jerry Show together. As Nick turned away from the
        TV to look at her, she said "The new improved Jerry Show , huh ?"
        His eyes burned into hers as he said "For some people it takes a
        major crisis to turn them around." He turned the television & 
        stood up to stretch. She stood up to follow him to the kitchen.
                    "Nick the flowers were beautiful & the card....."
                        "I had to get you here somehow!"
                    "It worked! You know you could have made something
                    up"
                        "When ?"
                    "That day in the precinct,you just stood there not
                     knowing what to say. I saw more than you thought I
                     did. I guess I just needed the words."
                    
                He carressed her cheek as he said " I don't think you'll
       ever understand how much I care."
       They bent forward to meet in a kiss & in that kiss he returned the
       memory of his avowal of love. She now realized it wasn't a dream.
                When the kiss ended she looked into his eyes & said 
       "You have my heart & soul forever too..If the time comes for you to
       leave I want to be with you. Now I know that you don't want to 
       bring me across, but I don't want to be without you.This past week
       I thought if I could stay away from you the hurting would stop.
       instead it just got worse.I trust you completely. If you can trust
       me & trust yourself, we can make this work."
               "I do trust you Natalie but I don't know about trusting
       myself.Everytime I'm near you I want to make love to you, as a
       man would. But then the vampire awakens to......"
                "Nick maybe they shouldn't be separated..." 
           It was obvious from his expression that he had never thought
      of this before.
                    Their lips met in another kiss & this time when the
     kiss became heated , he didn't pull away.His fangs descended & he
     gently pierced her lower lip.A few small drops of blood fell onto
     his tongue.He felt such a tangle of love faith & desire from her
     blood that the vampire's bloodlust was quenched.
                    She looked into his eyes as they changed back from
    gold to blue.At that moment they knew they could have what they both
    wanted.She took his hand & guided him upstairs to his bedroom......

               And all my instincts,they return
               and the grand fascade,so soon will burn.
               Without a noise, without my pride
               I reach out from the inside.

               In your eyes
               the light,the heat
               In your eyes
               I am complete
       
               In your eyes
               I see the doorway to a thousand churches
               In your eyes
               the resolution of all my fruitless searches

               In your eyes
               I see the light and the heat
               Oh I want to be that complete
               I want to touch the light,
               the heat I see in your eyes
               in your eyes in your eyes
               in your eyes in your eyes
               in your eyes in your eyes
   
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