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1970.A.D. The blue Nova was cold; the airport misty. The plane arose- I closed my eyes as we pierced the clouds. I awoke. So, this is where Greece is: 100 miles in the sky, on floating rock by the heavens. Black-wrapped grandmother...ghostly white house...cat scratch by the well...blood on the ruin... 6.15.83 I realize how multifaceted my taxi-driving uncle is...the long drive south taps reality deep, both convo & convoy...I'm hooked. The world is beautiful..gardens & laughter of Kalamazoo are severed by the deadbolt & the alarm. A's hugs melt unspoken pain... 8.21.86 "You don't know me very well" she said."You don't know me very well" I said. Night flight: 6.6 l Trans Am to Mount Royal, powers alight: within & without. "Baffle me..." 5.30.90 Awake, shower, shave, etc. McDonald's is great here, play snooker w/ J (he's good!) classy place, check out, last visit to Amsterdam coffee shop (Grasshopper) Say adios amigos to everyone & split on train to Breda...meet J in Sweden maybe. On train, meet M, a sweet girl & her brother. Addresses exchanged, she talks of her father- who just happens to walk in. Friendly guy, he talks of Dutch history & the girl is smiling away. "Please write me..." Am now in Breda, a modern looking town, a little disappointing, since I expected a tiny village. Sitting around outside the station, I meet a 78 y old man who sits next to me & is very friendly. We remain anonymous strangers. 6.9.90 I completely lose my ability to talk. I sleep on & off 4-5x when everyone is sleeping. I couldn't swallow; I was becoming delirious. I had a really strange series of dreams where there was 4 of me & I was a doctor. No logic allowed. Vagabonds were my students...through a series of long & thorough lectures I won everyone over...then the fourth dream: ? 6.10.90 My head hurt. I remember staring at the chair last night & being amazed at how 3D it was. I thought of all the sad goodbyes & was becoming tired of it. It's either all or nothing.A German saying: if it happens once, it's like it never happened at all. Bullshit. 5.14.93 M, P & I walk pedestrian walk. Go to Tivoli, a pleasant wonderland. Take train to her friend O, pilotman for SAS, flew Rod Stewart. Bessy the dog one ugly mother. Baby P. They speak Danish, I relate to baby & dog. I understand open empty hungry eyes & pantomime: powerful primal language 9:30pm I retire to Babylon sleep, perchance to dream. I miss K. 7.4.93 Rented a bike, 150 Yamaha & met a very nice couple, he Gk. & she German. I get it for 2000 drachs + gas (1000). Saw beautiful mountains, small villages, goats, sheep, horses, cows, eagles, vultures. Saw ancient ruins & met an old goat herder, deaf & very friendly. He gives me flowers, says they are magic- they will give me a wife. On way home met young girl braiding bracelets. She looked so anxious, heartbroken., I felt sorry for her.
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