The Way It Should Have Been

by Kat



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Summary: An alternate (very spanky!) ending for Jedi Apprentice #5

Timing: Obi-Wan is 13

Disclaimer: Qui-Gon and Obi-Wan belong to George Lucas. All other characters belong to Jude Watson. I don't own any of them, folks, and I'm sure not making any money from this. :)

Note: This story is heavily indebted to Gloriana's 'Impact of Strewn Paper' for its inspiration.

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"How did you blow the deflection towers?" Qui-Gon asked Cerasi and Neild curiously. "You'd have to hit them from the air. But floaters couldn't do that job. You'd need..."

Qui-Gon paused. He turned to look at Obi-Wan. Slowly, Obi-Wan pushed his chair back and stood. He looked nervous, but he met Qui-Gon's gaze squarely.

"So it was you," Qui-Gon said. "You took the starfighter. You took it knowing it was our only way off the planet. You took it knowing it was the only hope for Tahl."

Obi-Wan nodded. "Yes, Master," he said firmly, pleased that his voice did not tremble. He was *not* in the wrong here. He had done what needed to be done.

Qui-Gon's eyes flashed, and he stood. "We will speak in private, Obi-Wan," he said, his voice low and dangerous. "Come with me."

Obi-Wan followed his Master from the room, out into the tunnels. Qui-Gon led him down the tunnels into one of the storage rooms, away from the main gathering and sleeping areas. Once inside, he turned to face the boy, and Obi-Wan winced at the look on his Master's face.

"You disobeyed me, Padawan," he said angrily. "I forbade you to get involved in this. Do you have any idea what damage you could have done?"

"But I helped the Young, Master," Obi-Wan protested. "Now they have a chance--"

"And you completely disregarded our mission," Qui-Gon snapped. "Our mission is to rescue Tahl and get her back to Coruscant. What if the starfighter had been damaged? Then we would have been trapped here, and Tahl might have died."

"But the starfighter is fine! I'm a good pilot, Master, and I was careful."

"Careful? I think not," Qui-Gon said, fixing the boy with a penetrating look. "You were recklessly disobedient, and I will not tolerate it."

Obi-Wan bowed his head in the face of his Master's wrath. He was still glad he had helped the Young, but Qui-Gon was right about his disobedience. He had disobeyed a direct order - a serious infraction for a Jedi Padawan. But he had been so driven by his need to help the Young that he had not thought of the consequences. And seeing the look on Qui-Gon's face now, he knew for certain that there would be consequences - and they would not be pleasant.

"I will have to discipline you for this, Padawan," Qui-Gon said finally. "I cannot allow such disobedience to pass unpunished."

Obi-Wan swallowed hard. He knew that the method of punishment used was entirely up to the Master. He had heard rumours of the kinds of punishments meted out to misbehaving apprentices, all different; their nature depending on the Master giving them. He had wondered what kind of punishment Qui-Gon would choose to give him if he misbehaved - now he was about to find out.

"I have not used physical punishment before," Qui-Gon said thoughtfully. "Neither on my first apprentice nor on Xanatos. However, I was clearly too lenient with Xanatos. I let him get away with far too much. I will not be making that same mistake with you, Obi-Wan."

Obi-Wan looked up at his Master, wide-eyed. "You mean...you mean you'll...*hit* me?" He asked, horrified. Corporal punishment was not uncommon among the Jedi, but Qui-Gon had seemed so...well, so remote, so *detached*, that Obi-Wan had never dreamed that it would be his Master's choice of discipline. Qui-Gon had barely even touched him in all the time they had spent together. Frankly, Obi-Wan couldn't imagine his Master voluntarily getting that close to him.

Qui-Gon looked at him for a long moment. "Were you ever spanked while you were an initiate, Obi-Wan?"

"Y-yes, Master," Obi-Wan stammered, flushing.

"A childish punishment. Your disobedience was a childish act. I think it will be fitting."

Obi-Wan stared at him. "You - you're going to *spank* me? But, Master - you can't! I'm not a child!"

"You have behaved like a child, Padawan. So, I will punish you like a child. Perhaps it will teach you a lesson." He took a seat on one of the benches that littered the storage room. "Come here, Padawan."

Obi-Wan gaped at him. "You mean - *now*?" He was taken completely by surprise. The fact that Qui-Gon would spank him was bad enough, but Obi-Wan had never imagined that he would do it here and now. They were in a *relatively* private spot, he supposed, but they hadn't come that far from the main areas, and sound carried down here.

"Yes, now," Qui-Gon said sharply. "Come here."

"But, Master - please! Please, not now!" All Obi-Wan's composure had deserted him completely.

"Padawan, further disobedience will only add to your punishment. Now *come here*."

There was no way out. Swallowing hard, Obi-Wan slowly took the few steps to his Master's side.

"Take your pants down and bend over my lap."

Obi-Wan felt his cheeks flush scarlet. "Master, please..."

"*Now*, Padawan. Any more disobedience and I will add extra."

Chin quivering, Obi-Wan loosened the tie on his pants and slowly pushed them off over his hips and down to his knees.

"Underwear as well."

Obi-Wan obeyed silently, unable to meet his Master's gaze.

"Over my knee, little Padawan."

Obi-Wan's cheeks burned even hotter at being called 'little', but he obeyed, stepping forward and leaning over Qui-Gon's lap. Qui-Gon took Obi-Wan's hips in his big hands and maneuvered the boy into the perfect position; head down near the floor and backside high in the air, balanced over the Jedi Master's right thigh. He flipped up the long tunic, baring the boy's bottom, and heard Obi-Wan give a little whimper of embarrassment as he was exposed to his Master's gaze.

"Put your hands behind your back, Obi-Wan," Qui-Gon said, intending to hold the boy in place for the punishment. It was going to be severe, and he doubted Obi-Wan would be able to hold still for it.

"No, Master, please!" Obi-Wan gasped. "I'll keep still - I promise!"

Qui-Gon raised an eyebrow. "I doubt that, Padawan, but we will see. You may stay as you are for now, though."

"Th-thank you, Master," Obi-Wan choked out, sounding close to tears.

Qui-Gon laid one large hand across Obi-Wan's backside, feeling the boy start with surprise at the gentle touch. "All right, Padawan, tell me why you are being punished."

He felt a faint ripple of anger through the Force from Obi-Wan at this added humiliation, but the boy stayed stubbornly silent.

"Answer me, Obi-Wan."

Another ripple of anger, stronger this time, but still no response.

Qui-Gon swiftly brought his hand up and then down in a stinging swat on the left cheek, immediately followed by another on the right. He heard Obi-Wan gasp.

"That is not the response I was looking for, Padawan. I would suggest you control that notorious temper and show some repentance, because you are going to be over my knee until you do. Is that understood?" He delivered another pair of hard slaps to Obi-Wan's upturned bottom, eliciting another gasp.

"Oh! Master, please--"

"Is that understood?" Qui-Gon barked, administering two more hard swats to Obi-Wan's backside.

"Yes, Master!" Obi-Wan yelped.

"Good. Now, why are you being punished?"

"B-because I was disobedient," Obi-Wan said softly.

"That is correct." Qui-Gon smacked the boy hard, twice on each reddening cheek. "And hopefully this punishment will teach you that I will not allow disobedience. You took an oath of obedience to me, Padawan. And if you do not honour it, I will make sure you regret it." He slapped Obi-Wan again, this time low down where his buttocks met his thighs. Obi-Wan winced and squirmed.

"Keep still, little Padawan. We're nowhere near done yet."

And with that, he began to spank the boy in a steady rhythm, making sure every swat really stung. Obi-Wan's backside reddened quickly under the assault, and Obi-Wan was biting his lip to keep back the whimpers of pain. His backside felt like it was on fire. He couldn't help squirming, but he kept his hands on the floor and tried as hard as he could to stay silent, only his stifled gasps betraying the pain he was in.

Qui-Gon was impressed by the boy's courage, but he had no intention of letting Obi-Wan get through this with his dignity intact. He spanked harder and harder, covering every inch of Obi-Wan's twitching backside. And when he finally landed a hard swat on the tender skin at the top of Obi-Wan's thigh, the boy could stand it no longer and let out a yelp of pain as his hand flew up, vainly trying to shield the area from further abuse.

Qui-Gon stopped and caught Obi-Wan's hand, securing it at the small of his back. Obi-Wan squirmed and moaned softly as he tried to come to terms with the intense stinging in his backside, and Qui-Gon felt a pang of sympathy. But he had to make it clear that he would not accept disobedience, and he intended to make this first lesson one to be remembered.

"We're not finished yet, Padawan," he said, keeping his tone stern. "And the next part is going to be much worse."

He heard Obi-Wan whimper at this news, and hardened his heart to the boy's distress. Unless this punishment was severe enough to deter Obi-Wan from disobedience, he *would* do it again - and in situations such as these it could easily get him killed.

"It is going to hurt, Padawan, but the point of it is to drive the lesson home. What lesson are you learning here, Obi-Wan?"

Obi-Wan took a deep breath. "Not - not to disobey you, Master," he said tearfully.

"Very good." And with that, Qui-Gon lifted his hand to continue with the spanking. Before, he had delivered his smacks all over Obi-Wan's backside, but now he concentrated on the tender skin just above the boy's thighs, making the blows much harder than they had been before.

Obi-Wan cried out from the first blow and tried to squirm away off Qui-Gon's lap, but Qui-Gon's firm grip kept him in place. He continued to spank the boy, increasing the force of the blows more and more, and Obi-Wan was soon writhing desperately, trying futilely to evade the stinging slaps.

"Master, not so hard - ow! I'm sorry, I'm sorry! Please!" He wriggled frantically on Qui-Gon's lap, trying to climb over it, anything to get his backside out of reach of his Master's firm hand. As the sting increased to unbearable proportions he began to cry in earnest, pleading through his tears for an end to the punishment. Qui-Gon continued to smack his Padawan's scarlet backside, intending to make this spanking a memorable one...especially memorable when the boy sat down for the next few days.

As the rain of slaps continued, Obi-Wan finally broke and began to buck childishly against Qui-Gon's hold on him, sobbing his heart out and begging for the end. "No, please, no more - OW! Oh Master, stop, please stop, I can't take any more!"

The genuine anguish in Obi-Wan's voice made Qui-Gon pause. Perhaps the boy really had had enough. He looked down at his Padawan, who was sobbing miserably, his breath coming in hitching gasps. Obi-Wan's backside was crimson, and Qui-Gon had no doubt that it must be stinging unbearably. All right, that was enough. Just a little more to finish off.

With that thought, he delivered a last flurry of hard swats, ending on a particularly forceful pair of slaps across the tops of the boy's thighs, and then stopped.

Obi-Wan, for his part, had surrendered himself entirely to tears. He gave up all pretense of fighting and simply lay over his Master's lap and bawled. He could not remember ever having been spanked that hard. His entire backside felt like it was going up in flames.

Qui-Gon looked sympathetically at his sobbing Padawan. He let go of Obi-Wan's hand and moved his own hand up to gently rub the boy's back, trying to soothe him. "There now, Padawan, it's all over."

Obi-Wan tried desperately to get himself under control. He managed to choke back his sobs, but the tears continued to fall and he seemed powerless to stop them. He tried to push himself to his feet, and felt Qui-Gon gently assist him, steadying him when he swayed slightly. Obi-Wan pulled his pants back up and refastened them, and stood with his hands clenched at his sides, fighting the urge to rub his burning backside.

Qui-Gon stood up then, and gently pulled Obi-Wan into a hug. He felt the boy tense momentarily, but the offer of comfort was too hard to resist, and Obi-Wan relaxed against him and buried his face in Qui-Gon's tunic, still sniffling.

"Shh, Padawan, it's all over now," Qui-Gon said softly. One big hand began to rub soothingly across Obi-Wan's back, trying to help him calm down.

"It hurts," Obi-Wan mumbled, and was immediately mortified. He sounded about six years old. But the comforting arms around him felt so good - not only a comfort after the painful and humiliating punishment he'd just had, but also after the weeks of loneliness and rejection that had preceded this point. He had felt so unwanted; even, he now realised, after Qui-Gon had accepted him as his Padawan. Qui-Gon had been patient with him when he behaved well, and stern with him when he didn't, but there had been no signs of affection. The contrast between then and now was so great that Obi-Wan could scarcely believe it.

Qui-Gon smiled slightly. "I know it hurts, Obi-Wan. It's supposed to. But you were very brave." He ran a gentle hand over Obi-Wan's spiky hair. "My poor little Padawan," he said, still stroking the boy's back. "I didn't want to have to punish you. But it has taught you a good lesson, hasn't it?"

"Yes, Master," Obi-Wan said softly, still sniffling a little. "Not to disobey you."

"And you will think hard before you disobey me again, won't you?"

"Yes, Master, *very* hard." The wry tone in Obi-Wan's voice told Qui-Gon he was recovering his composure.

"Then the punishment had the desired effect, didn't it?" He pulled Obi-Wan closer to him. "I give orders because I want to protect you, my Padawan," he said. "I must keep you safe, and the only way I can do that is if you obey my instructions. Do you understand?"

"Yes, Master."

"I hope so, because I will not hesitate to repeat this performance if your behaviour warrants it," Qui-Gon said, more sternly.

"Yes, Master, I understand," Obi-Wan said obediently.

"Good," Qui-Gon said, ruffling Obi-Wan's spiky hair. He gave the boy a last hug and then released him. Obi-Wan stepped back and tried to compose himself, rubbing his eyes and wiping his tear-stained face on his sleeve. Qui-Gon calmly pulled a soft cloth from a pocket of his robes and handed it to him, giving Obi-Wan time to collect himself.

"Are you feeling better now, Padawan?" he asked when Obi-Wan had finished.

"Yes, Master," Obi-Wan said, then grinned wryly. "Messy, but better."

Qui-Gon smiled. "Good, because we have work to do."

Obi-Wan looked up curiously. "Master?"

"As much as I did not want to become too involved in the situation on this planet, Padawan, we are now very much involved." Obi-Wan flushed and Qui-Gon put a comforting hand on his shoulder. "You have been punished for your disobedience, Obi-Wan, now put it behind you. Your intentions were good. However, you did involve yourself and we must deal with the situation that has arisen."

"But what about Tahl, Master? Don't we still need to get her back to Coruscant?"

"Yes, Padawan, and we will. However, I think we have a little time left before we *must* leave...and if we can stop this situation from escalating too badly, then perhaps it will still be salvageable when we return."

"When we return - you mean, we're coming back after we take Tahl home?" Obi-Wan asked hopefully.

"Yes, so long as the Council will allow it - and I think they will. And even if they have reservations...well, I am known to be quite good at - ah - persuading them."

Obi-Wan glanced up at his Master just in time to catch the grin Qui-Gon flashed him. He was taken by surprise for a moment - who would have thought that his stern, serious Master could look so mischievous? - but then he grinned in return. "Well, Master, you certainly *persuaded* me that disobeying is a bad idea!"

"I should hope so," Qui-Gon said wryly.

"I hope one day to achieve your skill in persuasion of all types, Master," Obi-Wan shot back, deadpan.

Qui-Gon smiled down at him and ruffled his hair again. "I'm sure you will, Padawan. And now, if you're ready, we have work to do here...and we will both need all our skills in persuasion to do it."

"Yes, Master," Obi-Wan replied, and fell into step behind Qui-Gon as his Master headed back out into the tunnels. Stinging backside or no, he felt better than he had felt in weeks. It would be all right now, he just knew it. He and Qui-Gon were together, and together they would make sure that everything turned out as the Force willed it. And they would help Melida/Daan to find peace, just as they had found peace with each other.

The End

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