Bastard. And I don't mean that in the BOFH way either. I used to think this guy was actually nice...for a sabbat member.

He keeps trying to get me to go sabbat. As if. Mostly our conversations start of with Just to get this out of the way. I'm not going sabbat. I'd rather die than go sabbat.

We used to have odd theological discussions. He never believes me when I tell him there is no god. He keeps trying to bring up some guy called Cain as proof. Some how Lilith got thrown into the whole mix. Told me that the sabbat were there to save us all from something called Gehenna. That the cammies wouldn't acknowledge the fact that it's coming. He seems to think that were all damned to hell, and he seems baffled by the fact that I'm not afraid to die. I keep trying to tell him that god devil heaven and hell were just made up to explain the fact that some people in this world could do things that others couldn't. If he would just believe me I think he'd leave the sabbat. Ah well. Wonder if he knows I'm anarch. Don't think that makes a difference to him or not.

As I said earlier I used to think he was a nice guy. He was nice right after I became a vampire. things changed when I spoke to him after my er..forced vacation. I came out of that one with no voice. He offered to teach me how to commune with my mind. In return I only had to give him my soul, body, and freedom. I declined. Of course he told me that he had been in town he would have looked at my body naked *shudder* and bound me to him. I got a lil pissy about that. You know I'm half afraid to tell Kayta what he said, mostly because I don't think I could reign Kayta in.

That's just the beginning of it. Dagger now takes every opertunity to try and seduce me over to the sabbat. He tried getting me to barter my voice for Poly's promise. I wouldn't do that. He got pissy. Though I did get my voice back.

I did keep Poly from killing Dagger once. That was my response to his giving me my voice back. I will not have a debt held over my head. Not by the likes of him. However. I am beginning to think I made a grave mistake. Yes I paid for it. By watching him run the only other person I considered my dad out of town. Killing my bodyguard and my friends. Running my brother out of town, and running myself, and my beloved out of town. Make no mistake I feel he will eventually kill me. He can only offer so many times. And I will never accept.

I wonder if I should warn him that when I get back. I'm going to be very pissed off.

I.Want.My.City.Back.
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