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Sept 01, 2004 2:44am 
I think that I've finaly found the person that I want to spend the rest of my life with. Her names Kristi.. I haven't been this happy for a long time. We have everything in common.. so much in common that I couldnt even start to describe it all.. I've found that we have things in common that I never even knew about myself.
We spent all weekend and half of this week together. I've known her for 2 years and shes been intrested in me ever since even b4 we first met through a mutual friend. I only started to have feelings for her 8 or 9 months ago but now that we've been together in a more personal situation where we dont have anybody else bothering us, I've found that I truely do love her.
It'll take some patience and some extra dedication but we're planning on finaly trying to get a place that we can call our own. I cant wait.
Sept 27, 2004 2:33pm
This has been a very entreging month. Kristis moved into my parents house and we've been having "realy good times". I can see myself spending the rest of my life with her and so far things have gone very well. I've been so extremely happy this last month.
Nov 3, 2004 12:47am 
UGHHHHHH!!!
I've been doing the hole game developement thing for a few months now and I realized 2 things, Its hard as HELL to keep up with this shit with out my personal life interfearing with my homework or even making it to class, and second I Am NOT a Leader.....
I submitted a video game concept and the teach chose 7 outta 30 games to be presented as a final project... well guess whos game got picked.....
My game thats who. Fucking Ay' I'm not organized enough to lead a group of people into my thought process... It should be illegal for any one to tell me to lead anyone anywhere....
OK, maybe I'm not THAT bad but it's pritty fucked up and stressful for me. I have to join up with my lil team tomorrow and try to fix all this and try to fill in any blanks, and theres ALOT of blanks.
On top of all this Kristi has to move back to York TOMORROW... Fucking Christ my stress level has gone through the fucking roof... here my one true love the girl I want to spend the rest of my life with is leaving and I have to go and talk with some dudes about a video game. OK, I know that I'm in school to do video game design but DAMN IT I just think that theres more important things then video games that I need in my life.
wow just noticed its been like Over a month since I put in a new entry into this thing... I've been so busy with Kristi and school that I hardly had time with anything else.
Nov 8, 2004 4:35pm 
I've been going nuts for the last 4 or 5 days... Now that Kristis gone I have no motivation to do anything. My mind is soo fucked. I'm filled with empty thoughts and nothingness. I can't sleep, can't concentrate, can't even have fun, I keep blanking out as my mind just decides to stop working on me all the time now (I know I wanted to write something else, but I can't remember).
It just really sucks to be so in love and to know that I can't see her when ever I want to anymore. I'm totaly losing it.
Nov 8, 2004 8:06pm 
Still insane..........
Feel like shit........
Can't think straight..
FUCKING AY'
Last night i ripped two holes in the skin on my finger, and I was SHIT FUCK ASS BITCH AHHH IT BURNS.....
And now its Pleasantly Worse. The ones the size of a penny... and it fricking sucks.
I truely wish that I wasn't so absent-minded right now. I'm starting to think that if i keep this up im going to end up failing my classes for my school.
Saterday Nov 20, 2004 5:52pm 
Home Work Sucks. I have a ton of shit to do right now.
I have Dans Playstation 2 for like another week or so.
Yet I'm Bored as hell.
Shit~Heds been acting alot better lately. He doesn't seem so sad or lazy anymore. For once he wore me out last night.. He just wanted to play and play and play.
I've been feeling better about my school work. For awhile there i didnt think i was doing well at all. I had to write a script for my Script Writing class and have it read in front of the class by some of the other students... I was so surprised when the class started laughing when I didnt even tend something to be funny. by the time they read to the last scene out of the 3, the hole class was laughing so hard. even the dude reading the script was laughing.
That really helped my ego. after the last scene the hole class aploded me and the teacher seemed surprised at my work.
I Miss Kristi...
I've been thinking about her alot lately. that hole script i wrote was about me and her. but some of it was wishful thinking. Like how I wrote it out that me and her lived together. I find my self pausing life every so often and thinking about how happy i was when i was with her.
She trys to call me every day and tell me how much she misses me and that she can't wait to see me agian.. Long distance relationships SUCK. I know that in time we will be together again and we will be happy. But its the wait thats driving me nuts. But i also know that its worth the wait no matter how long if it means that we'll b together again.
Monday Nov 22, 2004 5:56am 
Can't sleep... I guess I have alot on my mind right now or maybe Im just restless...... I dont know...... staring into my computer screen seems alot better then the ceiling.
I'm supposed to be doing my homework right now. Every time I try i just end up vearing off into something that I'm not supposed to be doing.
It really sucks, Dan lent me his PS2 while he's away in fricking rehab and I'm completely bored of video games. I never get the chance to play PS2 anymore, hell I own 3 games and a memory card and yet when I finaly get the chance I don't want anything to do with video games.
I can't stop thinking about Kristi. She's always on my mind. Sometimes it hurts cause I start to think that I'm alone. I don't have anybody here that cares for me and the only person I have that does care is 300 miles away.
Normally I'd be sleeping or trying to sleep right now cause I'd have school today but I ended up withdrawling from it. I totaly picked the wrong day to skip class and ended up not turning in a project that was worth a huge percent of my total grade. The teacher pritty much said that I had little or no chance of passing with a good grade.
Guess I'll try to do some work before I pass out.
Tuesday Nov 30, 2004 4:45pm 
Well Dan finaly gets back from Rehab today. I'm "supposed" to give his PS2 back but God Damn It, I don't want to give it back. I've become accustumed to having it now. Guess I'm gonna have to try to get a PS2 of my own now. Justin came over last night and kicked the shit out of me in Def Jam: Fight for NY. Saddly this is the first time I ever really lost a game to Justin. Guess I'll have to step it up a notch next time I get a chance. I lost cause it was my first time making a Character. I didnt know what styles to use so i fucked up and used the wrong ones. Hopefully after I play through the damn game again I'll end up with something much Better then the Last one I made.
oh if u havent noticed the date and time yet.. I'm supposed to be in school right now. OOPS!!
I decided to take the day off. I felt like shit this morning.. plus i have some shit I'm supposed to be doing right now... shit that i completely forgot about till i just typed that. FuCk FUcK FucK.
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