Home Truths
by Shirlz
Disclaimer: No not mine -- Big Bad Joss-Boy from the house of Crack owns them all!
Rating: Some use of the F-word
Spoilers: Not too sure...Surprise/Innocence/BtVS 3 & 4 and Angel The Series (maybe more!)
Author’s Notes: This is all set in my world where Joss is not king and I get to play with their lives (evil cackling)! Angel in bold Buffy in normal Doyle in blue Cordy in pink
Riley was pawing me again. Jeez! This guy couldn’t go five seconds without his hands clamping themselves onto various bits of my anatomy. Why had I agreed to this? The first time was to get Willow off my back. Why was I still seeing him? For the same reason. I didn’t love him; in fact it had got to the point where I didn’t even like him. But to keep the peace I wore a mask of happiness. Of course I wasn’t happy. Only one person could make me feel like that. Angel.
A hand gravitating towards my left breast brought me out of my daydream. I had had enough of this!
"Get your fucking hands off me."
Willow looked up in shock. Still Riley didn’t move.
"Which part of ‘get your fucking hands off me’ didn’t you understand?" I pushed him away from me. He landed with a thud on the floor.
"Buffy?" Xander questioned.
"I’ve had it ok! I’ve had it with trying to keep you guys happy. I’ve had it with being pawed by the G I Joe wannabe here. I’m sick of not doing what I want. It’s time I started worrying about me. I want to be happy. I’m suffocating myself trying to please you."
Riley was picking himself up off the floor. "That wasn’t such a bright idea.."
"Bright idea???" I spat. "You wouldn’t know a bright idea if it bit you on the ass! I could wipe the floor with you any day. You want to make an issue of this? You want to take me on? You’re not a man. You’re a pathetic excuse of a creature that uses up precious air. I don’t like you. I ‘loathe’ you. You make my skin crawl. Only one man has earned the right to touch me and I’ m going to him."
"You can’t." Willow gasped.
"Oh, and why can’t I? Because you say so? Because of the hick from Iowa? I can and I damn well am. Riley. Consider yourself dumped."
I picked up my purse and stormed out of the Bronze...
"...and so I cuffed him. You should have seen the look on his face."
"Great. I’m glad your operation was a success."
Kate didn’t seem to notice that I really couldn’t give a damn if she’d arrested the guy or shagged him! My mind was elsewhere. Doyle had had a vision earlier that day. The Powers That Be had decided that I could keep my soul. I was told not to question the decision, just go with it. So that in turn made me think about Buffy. Did this change anything? I still couldn’t take her into the sunlight, couldn’t father her children. All I could offer her was darkness. I loved her so very much. Was that enough?
"Oooh you’re so tense." Kate’s hands were kneading my shoulders. "Isn’t it lucky I’m here to do this for you."
I was about to push her off when the office door opened. Buffy stood there in shock. A tear escaped and traced its way to freedom down her cheek. Not saying a word she shut the door...
...I turned and ran. I couldn’t deal with this. Angel had replaced me. All that forever bullshit! He never loved me. If he could forget me that easily then I couldn’t have meant anything to him. Angelus must have been telling the truth. I had to get away from here. As I bolted through the front door of Angel Investigations I ran into someone.
"Sorry." I tried to push past them.
"Whoa there little lady. What’s wrong?"
"Buffy?" I recognised this voice. I looked up through tear filled eyes.
"Cordelia?.."
...I stood up and shook Kate off.
"Who was that weirdo?"
"That ‘weirdo’ is my girlfriend." My temper was rising.
"Into cradle-snatching are we?"
I turned on her. "Why don’t you just get out before I do you some serious damage!"
"You are joking right? You want me to leave? You’d rather be with some over emotional swoony schoolgirl than me?"
"Let me spell it out to you in a language you’ll understand. Get the fuck out and stay out. Was that plain enough for you???"
"Little Miss Sunshine shows up and all at once I’m history."
I grabbed her by the shoulders and shook her. "To be history you have to have existed in the first place. GET OUT!!."
..."Buffy? What’s wrong?"
"I’m sorry Cordy, I can’t stay here. Stay near ‘him’. Let me go. Please let me go."
"Delia. Take her back to yours."
"What are you going to do Doyle?"
"Have a word with our very own M.I.B."
"Ok. Come on Buffy." She put her arm round me and led me to a black convertible that was parked by the kerb...
.... As I got to Angel’s door Kate came storming out, her face like thunder. I was about to enter the office when Angel bowled into me.
"Where you going big guy?"
"Buffy." He looked distraught.
"She’s with Delia. They’ve taken your car and gone to her apartment."
"I have to.."
I put my hands on his arms and guided him back from whence he came. "You have to sit down, calm down and tell me what happened..."
..."What did he do Buffy?"
"She...she was giving...giving him a...shoulde...shoulder massage."
"Who was?"
"I...I don’t know her. Tall, bl..blonde and beau...beautiful. He doesn’t love me."
"He loves you totally. He hasn’t looked at another woman."
"They were doing more...more than looking."
"Buffy. Calm down and listen to me. You saw Kate. She’s a cop who works with us sometimes. She has a huge crush on Angel and hangs onto him like a limpet. He’s not interested in her and never will be because she isn’t you."
"He wasn’t fighting her off."
"He would have been. He doesn’t love her Buff; he doesn’t even find her remotely attractive. He loves you."
"Yeah!"
"Buffy, I work with the guy. He took me in and then helped me find this place. I’ve got to know him. And the only woman in his heart is you. There’s no room for anyone else..."
..."So you put Kate in her place then? I thought she looked kinda pissed when she left."
"I don’t give a damn about Kate. All that matters is Buffy. I’ve lost her."
"No you haven’t."
I looked up and saw her. Although she had tried to freshen up it was obvious she’d been crying.
"BUFFY!"
In seconds I was round the desk and crushing her to me in a hug. I wasn’t giving her the chance to run away again.
"I’m so sorry. Kate is.."
"A clingy bitch who had better keep her hands off my man if she wants to keep her arms unbroken. Cordy explained. You have nothing to apologise for."
I kissed her. I kissed her with months of pent up love, longing and frustration. She was mine and I was never letting her go...
..."Doyle, let’s go."
"Ok Delia." I took his arm and we left the office. Buffy and Angel didn’t notice...
...I pushed Angel off me.
"What???"
"I need to breathe Babe!" I laughed.
"Oh sorry. Buffy. We need to talk."
"Yeah we do. I’ve dumped Riley."
"YOU HAVE!..I mean, why?"
I laughed again. "Coz he isn’t you. Look, I don’t care about the curse or the kids or the sunlight. All I care about is you."
"There is no curse."
"Huh?"
"Doyle has visions. He had one earlier today. The Powers That Be told him that my soul was now mine unconditionally. I was going to ring you and.."
"Angel?"
"Yes Buffy."
"Do you love me?"
"You know I do."
"Do you want to be with me?"
"Do YOU want to be with ME?"
"You know I do! Angel?"
"Yes Buffy."
"Shut up and kiss me."
The End
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