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Notes: Trying something a bit different.  Little stream of consciousness, little poetic.  
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The Nod
By: Cousin Mary


	It hit her like a ton of bricks, finding out Nick was a vampire had been almost 
a physical blow.  And it happened at the Raven, in front of everyone.  So many 
vampires had seen it.  Some had laughed, actually laughed out loud.  Others, like 
the bartender, like Urs, had looked like they felt sorry for her.

	It hadn't been that dramatic, what had made her finally step back and see.  
Nick had hauled her into the Raven to talk to someone about their case, nothing too 
unusual, they'd been there before.  Now, looking back, she knew she should have 
realized before that Nick at least knew about them…

	Them, he was one of them.  

	When she knew, it was just a second from when she had absolutely no clue.  
Then, like a light switch flipping on, all was illuminated.  

	Nick looked at Vachon and nodded.

	Just nodded, vague little mean-nothing greeting.

	And then she knew.  Nick was a vampire.

	She'd been following him to the back, walking across the club, past the bar to 
the back.  You had to walk the entire length of the bar to get to the back office.  

	They'd been halfway down when it happened.

	The nod.

	The house lights could have turned on, the music off, the fire sprinklers could 
have poured down, nothing could have stopped her as cold as that.

	Cold.  That's how it felt, like getting a block of ice shoved at her, catching her 
in the gut and taking her down.  

	Nick kept walking, didn't even notice she wasn't following anymore.  She just 
stood there, staring at his back as he disappeared into the office.

	Deep breath.

	Vachon had walked away, hadn't seen.

	The others, they, must have been watching her, waiting for this to happen.  

	It'd been inevitable she'd find out eventually.

	Absently, numbly, she wondered if there had been like an office pool.  She 
stood there, breathing in and out.  Her head felt light, the music seemed muted.  

	She could feel their eyes on her, some smiling.  Most smiling actually, either 
mocking or sympathetic.  So many.

	One of the waitresses led her to a bar stool and the bartender put a shot 
glass in front of her.  She watched him fill it with something and she downed it 
without question.

	Urs was rubbing her back, slow circles.  No one had said anything, but what 
was there to say?

	The bartender, his name tag read 'Miklos,' made some motion, maybe 
asking her if she wanted another drink.  She shook her head, it wouldn't help.  She 
shouldn't have drank the first one.

	Nick had been gone awhile, though she supposed it'd barely been five 
minutes.  He might be in there an hour, a lifetime.  Time had stopped anyway.

	The waitress, she didn't have a nametag but she had an upturned nose and 
long blonde hair with bangs, she was recognizable.  Tracy'd seen her before.  She'd 
led her to the stool, she sat beside her and offered her a cigarette.  

	Urs sat on the other side, Miklos stood before her.  Her little circle of 
sympathy in a sea of sneers.  

	Eventually the extra eyes left her.  The mumbling, the whispers that hadn't 
really registered until they stopped, faded away.

	Miklos went to answer an order, the waitress moved away.

	Urs sat with her until Nick came back.  

	No one ever said anything.

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