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MY POEMS:

-first poem- about my one true love	-third poem- about things that makes an action hard to do but not really	-fifth poem- SOUL AND BODY	-seventh poem- about a fallen dream	-ninth poem- I MUST...
-second poem- what i want to do to the person i love	-fourth poem- MY FANTASY	-sixth poem- about hurting and forgetting	-eighth poem- about wanting something so much	-tenth poem- how i wish my love would do so that i will not love him anymore......but i know i can never do that

His was the wonderful lips i wanted to kiss with eyes so bright i looked into to find light I haven't seen it for as much as i have loved but its all i ever wanted and be mine till last His voice sounds like music in my ears no matter what it says are psalms in my heart will stay His heart and soul his being is what I love not caring for his appearance even though we're so far apart He is all I want loved and cared for He is my little Prince charming and I'm his forever more back to the top

No wonder why I think so hard about things happening in my life when I'm alone strangely in the dark and you're the one in my mind You are the only person I've loved so much as I have now trying to absorb and tell myself why the reasons for loving a quiet and unexpressive guy I though you don't love me you tell me you do, but I don't see it I though you're taking me for granted you did tell me you're not...and I believed you You're a star in my eyes a girf I want to unwrap and keep it for myself and for nobody else You're someone I love so much now I understand it's unconditional I've taken you for who you are you're mistakes and your triumphs You are loved. back to the top

Is this so hard?

hugging

kissing

holding hands

but why can't we do it?

Is it so bad?
    to love
    to care
    to share
but why is it forbidden to us?

Is it so hedious?
    to be friends
    to be more than friends but less than lovers
    to be lovers
but why could we not be one of these?

Then you may answer...
'Yes to this, still not the whatever it is.'

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        Fantasy
                    that's what you are to me
                    I think of you every night
                    whenever I close my eyes
                    I see you on my bedside
                    looking at me
                    I could smeel your strong perfume
                    hear the silent way you move around
                    and feel the gentlest kiss on my lips

                    Fantasy
                    that is what you are
                    a cloud that disappears
                    when I awake
                    a vision I will keep on playing
                    on and on and on

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Soul and Body meet someday I know I wait for the time that'll come for me to know you I hear your voice I could feel you near I know I could be with you someday But when it will be someday may be I'll see your face take you as you are and love you like I have planned back to the top

APRIL 29, 1998

    I've never felt so alone in my life
    where I wish I could just hurt myself
    all over again, to feel pain
    which will be more easier
    than to forget about you
    and hate you

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    Fallen from a dream
    Back into reality
    You were not the one I expected to be
    a dream I almost don't want to leave
    So that I could be with you
    blinded with only love
    but wide awake with truth
    that you'll never love me
    as I have loved you

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    I wanted you so much

        to hold you
        to just touch you
        but I was not even given a chance

        to memorize you
        just to gaze on you
        but I was not blessed so

        to speak to you
        just to chat with you
        but you've been so busy
        you have made me wait on you

    I wanted you so bad
    People already thought I was mad
    But reality tells me more
        that I have to stop
        and be awakened from this dreamland

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I must have gone insane

to believe you love me

that you'd wait for me

to try whatever it takes to be with me

I must have been mad

to love you

to care for you

to be blinded by loving just you

I must be a fool

to never have realized sooner

that you're already laughing

that you're taking everything

my life... my love...

I must be insensitive

to never feel you're hurting

to never know you're taking

to have loved but never was loved back

I must have loved you

and wanted you

that you can call me anything

and be anything you want me to be

but I must also learn

that you're not worth my love

and I was wrong to love you at all

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Say the words

that stings so bad

that will cut like a knife

to make me hate you

so I will no longer hurt

as much as I am hurting now

Can't you just stab me

with knives or swords

to kill this love I have for you

and not waste my time

loving someone like you

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