For long years I have walked these sacred halls known as Life.
I have witnessed thousands of lifetimes, millions of people, and countless
ages and places. I have never lived and cannot tell what that feels
like. I am just the keeper of the ages. I am a tired old man.
I have seen the mightiest of empires rise and then crumble to less than
dust with the roll of time. I have seen a single person shatter entire
ways of life. I have seen and recorded.
I'm the coward. I'm the one you've never read
about. I'm the soul that was afraid to live. I never left these
halls of agelessness. All my fellows have left, but in gaining the
knowledge of what it is like to live, they cannot stay within these old
walls. Even if they did remember this place while they lived and longed
for nothing more, all were changed in some secret place that is their own.
None came back the same.
I have had countless chances to go and join this
world that they have, but I know that I would miss this place. I
know I would regret something I had not done before I left. It is
my way. I am the keeper of this ancient place. I may look from
here into any place, any time, and any person. I may look because
I transcend all of them. I knew all of them before they left this
place.
Some call here the Well of Souls, The Castle of
Doors, or The Temple of All, or any of dozens of names, but they all miss
the full meaning of this place. I am the Keeper of All. I know
that this temple has been built out of its own will. By there being
the absence of anything before here, it made itself so that more could
follow. I know that this is the circle's beginning and that there
have been dozens of circles before. I must wonder what will happen
when it decides that another circle is needed.
Who will give it life? Who would give themselves
over to being the souls of the inhabitants? Who would be Knowledge
and Wisdom? Who would be the Evil to balance the scales and make
a true circle? Where would I be? I am the keeper of forgotten
ways, not the harbinger of the new realms. I have never known
what it is to be outside these now empty halls. I still remember
the children laughing and playing in the courtyard. I remember the
games of skill and chance over matters of intellect. I remember a
time before I was alone and I long for those days. But now, I am
the only one left.
The old soldier was the last to go. He found
a person, thing, or idea that he knew nobody else could help. He
left to do what he could for it. Maybe save them, maybe stop them.
I don't know. I am jealous though, he found his purpose. I
have not. Perhaps I'm the one slowing everything down. Perhaps
I'm the one who needs to leave so that this place can start again.
I noticed it back when all of my friends started to leave.
This Keep was beautiful once. There was rose
gardens along the walls, a clear blue lake in the yard before the gate,
there was children laughing and playing and carrying on inside these cold,
silent halls. There were nightly fires in the great hall where tapestries
hung portraying scenes of suitors and their prospective brides, of contests
of might and skill, of the battles fought. Some of us would tell
stories, about heroes and heroines, about tragedy and comedy, triumph and
failure.
To this day, I do not know if any of these stories
are true. That was the magic about them. Not everyone was allowed
entrance to all parts of the keep. Only when the rest started to
leave was I allowed access to all parts of this Sacred Place. To the Room
of Choices, where you made your decision on where to go if you wanted to
leave, to the Room of Mirrors, where you may face your guilt and pain and
vanquish it entirely, to the Room of Glass, where you can peer through
the window of time and see what goes on. There are hundreds of rooms
now. The most disturbing thing is that I saw a person that could
use my help. I'm afraid to leave, but he will not be able to do what
he must if I stay here in these halls. I don't know how I may help,
if I come to him directly he wouldn't believe me, if I become one with
him he'll know too much. I see no solution. The time to act
has come and I have wrote this for those who may come after me.
I spent all my life here. I have found a single
idea that is worth risking all for. If you find one for you: take
it. It will never come again and all you can end up is to be like me, a
miser of knowledge too afraid to leave and experience anything.
Goodbye,
Keeper of Ages