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Your Friend
11-5-07

You've made me feel like so much less
Even though we're both just friends.
And every time I hear her name
It makes me wanna cringe.
My life's not worth it.
This pain wont end.
Want a way out
Love always,
Your friend



Hanging On
9-14-07

Hanging on to broken love
     using just to feel your heat
Icy cold the heart can't mend
     but still i can't admit defeat
Shattered reality bends so low
     touching the sky of my hell below
          losing my grasp,
               Hating myself,
                    wishing for death,
                         The tears finally fall
                              with my broken last breath


The Seed
7-17-06

You've carried me away
On the wings of doubt
And pinned me to the sky
Then left me hanging
On your cloud of hope
Wishing that I would die
And when my wings
Came ripping out
The pain I did not feel
Because the love
That you had sown
In my heart was real


The Fool
7-13-06

When the night came tumbling down
And all was said and done
And all that's left was sorrowed frowns
Once hidden from the sun
I shed a tear and watched you go
And prayed you'd come again
But knowing how the seasons turn
I doubt you ever did
The days flew by like turning leaves
And memories of you paled
But still I wondered now and then
Just how our love had failed
The wedding bells that rang that night
They weren't the happy kind
They echoed laughter and torrid lies
All hidden in your deceitful eyes
I shared your bed
I held your heart
But being your wife
Was not my part
The fool was I
The mistress bound
The lonely love
Who in sadness
Drowned


The Desert
7-10-06

Have I really changed so much
Do my eyes not sparkle as they use to
Are my lips not as soft as our first kiss
Or is it just the passing of time
That has blinded you
From the memories of our love
Can the river of hope and dreams
Wash the sands of time from your eyes
And refill the well of memories
That I have cherished for so long
Or will our love be forever buried
In the desert of forgotten lives...


Snip
7-10-06

So long you've been part of my life
Yet here I am, letting you slip away
Losing that last string that kept us so attached
Me sitting here with scissors in hand
Knowing that one final snip may unravel
Years of dreams and laughs
Will all we've worked so hard at
Stay sewn together in our patchwork quilt
Or will it only remain as scraps and rags
Only time will tell I suppose...

Snip...

Only time will tell...


Rain
6-26-06

The cold rain
dripping  down
my face
meant to cool
Only heats my desire
me standing there in my bare feet
in that Wal-mart parking lot
watching you
wanting you
needing you
the icy wind echoing my breath
uncatchable
I tilt my head back
open my mouth slightly
to catch the innocence
to quench my desire
the wind whips my hair
against my neck
biting it as you do
and I am again
lost in a moment
in a single
drop
of
rain


The Sigh
6-26-06

On dark moonless nights
When the wind howls your name
And the thought of you lingers
Like the candles bright flame
Your name I do whisper
As your face haunts my dreams
And your soft lips brush mine
Like the kiss of a stream
And when in the morn
I wake all alone
A soft sigh escapes
As I reach for my phone...


Broken Angel
5-24-06

A broken angel
gathering dust
sits all alone
no one to trust
her blood red tears
fall to the ground
shed for a love
not lost but bound
her tattered wing
of purest white
now spattered with blood
as dark as night
the other wing
lay in the sand
ripped from her back
by her own hand
her tortured soul
screams loud and clear
screams to her love
but no one hears
so all alone
she sits and cries
those blood red tears
from sky blue eyes


Untethered Wings
5-24-06

From my heart
There comes a sound
Of beating wings
Not tethered down
Set free again
From gilded cage
They rise to soar
On life's sweet stage
And with each beat
An old tear falls
Shed for the dream
That never calls
Shed for the past
That cannot be
Shed for the future
New hopes set free


Dark Wings
5-22-06

When beneath dark wings I fall
Protected from deaths mournful call
Will I still feel my tortured soul
Will I at last be truly whole
     the numbness calls
     that haunting sound
     where angels wings
     cannot be found
And still these wings that cradle me
That whisper lies I cannot see
There blackness comforts, hiding me
From all the dreams that cannot be


The Doll
4-02-06

Do you know
How much I wanna hate you
Do you know
How you made me feel inside
How you tore my heart
Out of my chest
And threw it on the floor
Left for all the rats to feast
On our memories of times before
And when there done
I'm all thats left,
This hollow lifeless doll
Left for you to toss around
Or just leave me where I fall


Haunted
4-02-06

If you really would've loved me
You'd still be here today
You never would've left my side
You'd never go away

So much I wanted to believe
So hard I tried to see
I tried to push the pain away
I prayed you'd love just me

But all along I knew the truth
I wasn't the one you wanted
So all alone I'll walk this earth
With a mind that's always haunted


Two Souls Entwined
3-31-06

Did I do something wrong?
Have I lost your trust?
Is all that we had
Nothing more than dust?

Is it really all over?
Was it all so wrong?
Did it all have to end
Like the words of that song?

So long I've loved you
So long I've tried
So long I've waited,
But I'm dying inside.

You told me you loved me
I believed it was true
But it couldn't compare
To the way I loved you

I would've gave you heaven
I would've followed you through hell
But you just couldn't trust
How hard this broken angel fell.

And now my eyes are darkening
Their sparkle's fading out
And now my lips are cold and pale
Not even the faintest pout

My soul alone weeps for its loss
So much we could've shared
Two souls entwined in a sweet embrace
If only you still cared.


Catch Me
3-21-06

Catch me while you can
I'm floating high above the ground
You left me lost and so confused
You helped me see what could be found

When you left you forced my hand
But held it still with eyes sealed tight
And when you cried my soul was torn
I held you close yet out of sight

Now the time is rolling by
And I'm still here and your still there
But thing have worked out even better
And I know that you still care

And if the sun should never set
And you are gone forever still
I'll know you loved me forever once
And you'll know I"ll love you forever still


Sweet Dreams
3-01-06

Tomorrow's never gonna come
And someday was just a dream
And now we know that everything
Was always as it seemed

But yesterday was all we had
Now just a fleeting memory
Of all things we left behind
Things never meant to be

So much I wanted to hear those words
To be your cherished wife
But now to hear them said to me
Cuts worse than any knife

I can't have you, I never could
Sweet dreams never come true
But still I'm glad I took the chance
And fell in love with you


Denied

So many times I've gone wrong
So many times I've cried
I've wasted oh so many days
Wishing you were by my side
But all along I had the answer
Just afraid to see
That all along I was the key
Just waiting to be set free
So many times I chose the path
That I thought would set things right
But all it did was change my ways
Of getting through the night
Never willing to finally let you go
Afraid of losing you
I kept you ever in my sight
I hoped you did that too
So why this unrelenting fear
This inability to decide
I guess deep in my mind I knew
Love just can't be denied