Every once and awhile you have one of those experiences where everything seems to start to click again. After a long time of being at odds with yourself or something, it finally subsides. It's like a weight has been lifted off your shoulders and a new beginning has been granted. I recently took spring break to catch up with old friends and relax from school. I had an interview where it looks like I may be getting a promotional type job where I hadnt thought would be available a few years down the road. This really got the old self-esteem going. As I returned to school, I wanted to put forth a new effort and focus on school, which seemed to be diminishing over the last previous weeks. I don't know if it had to do with the interview, being able to put everything aside for awhile, or just some jump starting my motivation again. Right now the cause is unimportant (Unless there's a re-occurence of the last couple of weeks), but this new energetic feeling has me studying more, opening up new doors, and taking a more proactive approach to things.

Real friendship has a way of enduring all obstacles. I may not speak to any of my closest friends for a week or two at time or even see some of them for months. But regardless of the distance or time between, it has not diminished the ties between us. There is always that call to see "if the phone lines between Troy and Buffalo are working," because one has done so in awhile. There are those late evening IM's to see whats up or discuss possible golf games for the summer. Sometimes I wonder if we stay in contact enough between our busy lives to stand the test of time. Then I realize that if I didn't see or hear from some of them for months on end, the conversation would go over like we shot hoops at Kingsley's the night before. Ragging on each other about the same shit we've been saying for years. It's funny how much more you appreciate things when you don't have them readily avaiable on a day to day basis, but then again their friendship never leaves you. The presence of that person is always there.

The other day I had a chat with a good friend of mine. We were talking about perspectives of situations. The conversation led to relationships, just in general; friendships, love, and the like. Upon talking about things I recalled an email that was sent to me. In the message, it discussed how some people come into your life and are there for the duration. Others come in and fill a need or void that is lacking in your life. When that need has been filled, one way or another, the person or persons move on and ways are parted. After recieving the email, I began to realize some of the answers that I had been searching for over a couple of issues. Like it's been told me a thousand times, "better late than never." But upon coming to this revelation, I began to question others. I finally capped off an end to thoughts that had been plaguing me from a past relationship. Also, as highly as I regard friendship, I have come to the fact that some of my friends that I've known my entire life aren't as close as we used to be and seem to be growing in different directions. For awhile I direct this thought process as something else and came to the conclusion that misdirection wasn't the answer I was looking for. Now I see that this is just how things happen. We all make our own choices and sometimes that causes people to change paths. Those paths may continue along a parallel course and sometimes they spur off in multi-directions. With these spurs, friends grow apart and I've accepted that. Finally, with all the comings and goings of friends throught life, all are treasured for the impact and happiness that have been brought with them.