December 2002

Here I am. About to end my 5th semster at UB. In about a year and a half I should be graduating. I look back on all the experiences that I've been through over the course of high school and college. It all seems a far cry from when I wanted to be a fighter pilot and go to the aerospace engineer. Now I'm a junior psychology major and planning an internship for the spring semster. I remember a point in my life when I thought all of my friends would always be there and our friendships would last the test of time and distance. Well that seems to be a wishful thought. Everything is a far cry from my original plans. I've looked at everything I've done as a learning process, although most times it sure didn't seem like it at the time. I once told my dad that I wanted to go through the rest of my life having no regrets. Some people would say that this is impossible, not me. Sure there are those things that you might have done different, but that would change the person that you are today. It took me a long time to come to that realization, which is no surprise to the people who no me. It all seems to be a progressive movement now. I've accepted alot of the things that I have/had no power over and let go of some memories that were holding me back. Some of those memories I thought were ingrained into my frontal lobe and were going to pose the "what if's" and "why's" till the end of time. Now that I see what a positive attitude that accompaneis with it, the process gets easier and easier. I most admit thou, there are a few momments of regression and a memory or two pops up, but now its a pleasent memory of how became the person that I am today.

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