January 2003

Well another year has come and gone. I sit back and look at how many things have changed. How many things that haven't. The other day I was talking with a friend of mine about relationships and lost loves. He asked me if there was one that I ever think about. I had to admit that there was one girl who crosses my mind at least once or twice a day. As our conversation continued, I thought about how often and why I did. I feel like I have moved on and doing pretty well in my life. I believe that alot of it has to do with that fact that this girl was the first love (and so far only one) of my life. There is still a part of me that still loves her, but that love that you have when you need to be with that person is gone. Now I see things that that time was a high point in my life. I learned alot, made alot of mistakes, and grew as a person as a result of that relationship. The only thing that I regret is that I even though I often told her I loved her, I never let myself express the depth of that. So that was probably the greatest lesson I learned. "Don't hold back because you never know if you get the chance tomorrow." As I look back on this year and the years before with everything that has happened to me, I'm glad that I've been able to come out with at least learning something, even though it may have taken awhile for me to realize it. It has helped me become the person that I am now and I thank everyone who has been apart of it.

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