I have emptied my life out pretty much

Right now I am going through a hard time

This transition however will not last forever, then I'll be back.

Happiness isn't mine. I never wanted our love to be put aside.

Still I have to live my own life and go see what's in the world.

He and I might never be friends again. It kills me inside to think that we might never touch or kiss again,

 even worse then the loss of him as a friend. As shallow as that may seem. Still at least I can start to heal now.

But I am wondering if it's really the way I was supposed to go at all.

No wiffle waffling though and no take backs.

Sorry Cody. I love you more then anything but I can't die this slowly for you.

Goodbye,

Missy