Speaking of being suddenly finally over people, I'm over the infamous one now. Seriously. (Since I'm sure no one really believes me.) OK, I guess I'm not like over her over her, but I've given up on her. I still love the times we had in the past, but I've realized that she'll never not be a bitch again. She's not going to change. When I let go of that, I felt soooo much relief. It was scary. I didn't know she was still holding me back that much. As for why I'm suddenly over her... she decided from out of nowhere that she hated me too much to talk to me again. I erased her number from my phone, and deleted her SNs from my lists.

Now, what I really came on here for was to bitch about something. (Imagine that, eh?) You know what sucks? Being left out. I was sitting at work today, thinking that I'd be hanging out w/ the 15-year old (who just told me last night that I'm one of her two best friends). Turns out she called my cell phone at about 4 to tell me that she had to pack, so she shouldn't do anything tonight. That was disappointing. So, I came home from work, and my brother and Branden are playing The New Tetris. (The blocks own my soul. Still.) After I played like 2 games w/ them, Branden called Shannon and went over to her house. No inviting us or anything. Just left. So here I am feeling rather betrayed by both of them, so I try to call the Penguin Queen (who, by the way, actually managed to rather piss me off Friday) again. No one answered. Then I called the 15-year old to see when I'm supposed to pick her up from the airport. She wasn't there. Her non-stepfather person said that she was at Shannon's. Ouch. So, I call Shannon's cell phone, and she just talks to me for a while, then says "We have to hang out sometime soon..." Well, how about right now? I thought. "...I'll call you after Christmas." "Oh. OK." I said. Bitch. I thought. Yes. So I'm feeling abandoned by all my closest friends at the moment, w/ the exception of Justin.

OK, since I've now talked to too many people for too long, this has been interupted too much, and I think it ends here.

(12-23 23:53)

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