Hi there folks! This is my writing, well some of my poetry anyway. I'd like to get serious with writing some day, any feedback will boost my confidence hehehe...let me know what you think!
Why do I hang on like I do?
I know it’s not healthy
I try to forget every day
And move on
My thoughts still drift back somehow
When I least expect them to
I push them away
Far in the back of my mind
And heart
I’ve got to get over this
If I only knew how you truly felt
Inside
Maybe someday I’ll wake up and realize
That the possibility isn’t there
Even though I wish and hope that it is
Maybe we just didn’t have the closure
That we deserved
For now I’ll just keep pretending
Pretending that these feelings don’t exist
And try my best not to tell you
Just how much I still care.
(added August 27th 2006) Yes it has been a very long time since I have added a poem to this page..I thought it could use a new one..I still don't think my writing is that good haha but maybe you all might think different. It's not titled yet. Enjoy.
Life is a series of events
Events that happen for a reason
No one knows the outcome for the reason
Until it happens
How can we prevent this?
I don’t think there is a way
Just go with the flow everyone says
How long must we wait for our answer
It seems like forever
Maybe we just need to open our eyes
The answer is already there
I’ve had a lot of events over the past year
And I have yet to figure out why they have happened
Ups and downs come every day
It’s how we deal with them that keep us strong
I like to think that I am a very strong person
But sometimes even the strong get beaten down
One day we will all look back over all our events
And say “You know what? It’s okay”
“I’m Ok.”
(added August 23rd 1999)*This poem I wrote when I was feeling down about having so many bills, many of you can probably relate..hehe*
what's the point of money?
to make people happy
or to make life better
i don't know
but it seems that no one is ever happy
unless they have a lot of it
if there isnt a supply
there are arguments
and fights
all over paper
but that paper
is what you need to live these days
everything revolves around it
it's just green paper
but it runs your life
i dont think i like the paper anymore
it makes my life too hard
if i had more of it i may be happier
but i'm not sure of that
i just want to be comfortable
with no fights
or issues
regarding the paper
I guess I'll have to wait for it
to get bigger
the paper supply
the pretty green paper
that runs your life.
(added July 8th 1999)*This poem is inspired by all of those that get their heart broken..I havent had my heart broken recently but have known some people who have, and it made me write this poem..enjoy.*
Your eyes are like fire
They want to burn my skin
I didnt mean to do what I did,
I didnt want to hurt you this bad
But I can see the heat in your eyes
And I regret that it was me who did this,
You didnt ask for it,
You couldnt have known,
It was just something that happened
I am sure you already have heard,
This message has been said too many times,
To too many people,
For much too long.
I leave you with this knowledge,
Hoping it'll help you to heal,
The great big wound I left you with.
(added May 20th 1999)*This poem is dedicated to all of those people out there that have had a relationship with someone over the internet, whatever relationship it might be....in this case a love-relationship.*
The screen is telling me what you say
But I can not hear your voice
Are you real?
Part of me wonders if you are
Because you seem to be a vision
Almost of my imagination
We confess our love
And our plans to be together in the future
Not knowing if it'll happen
Or when
Will we grow old together?
Will we have children?
Will we ever get off the screen?
Those questions we can't yet answer
Because we aren't really close
For now we just type our love
Hoping one day to be together
And hoping that our love will be true
I believe it will
Do you?
You raised me to be on my own,
And I'm doing the best that I can,
Just like you tought me so well.
I hear you say,
"Just be yourself, just be Dori"
And I try to be the best Dori I can be.
I moved away,
To get away,
As fast as I could.
But I sit here,
2500 miles away,
And I miss you more than I ever thought.
Why do I miss you so? I ask,
I wish I knew the answer,
But I dont.
The only answer that I have,
Is that it's because I love you,
And I realized that I'll never love anyone,
As much as I'll love you, Daddy.
(added April 21, 1999)
I listen to the radio,
I'm reminded of you,
I remember the way we'd laugh,
The crazy things we did.
I loved you,
I still do,
Even though we cant be together,
I know we will again someday.
A part of me is missing,
Without you,
We spent our days together,
Now we spend them apart.
We always went to each other for advice,
Or just to bitch about everything,
I trusted you so,
And I still do.