It is so cool when you feel the razor-sharp claws sliding out of your
delicate-looking pink pads.
"Rachel, take a pill, girl, it's just Tobias,"
Cassie said soothingly. "Tobias? I think maybe you'd better stay away, " she
called up to the sky.
"Cats are genetically programmed to be afraid of large birds."
She was right. The shadow of Tobias scared me pretty good. It was strange,
because it was a fear I shared with the shrew.
But it was a different type of fear than the shrew's. This was more like I was
angry, too. Only that wasn't quite it, either. I guess it wasn't a real emotion
at all. Basically, when I'd hissed I was
just trying to communicate. And the message I was trying to communicate was,
"Don't mess with me. You may be bigger than me, you may scare me, you may make me
run away, but if I have to I am ready to fight."
That was my whole cat message to the world: Don't mess with me. Don't get in my
way, don't try to touch me if I don't want to be touched, don't try to keep me
from getting what I want.
I was self-contained. I was complete. I didn't need anything but myself. It
seemed lonely to my human self, but at the same time, it was all very calm
somehow.
<I'm okay,> I said. <I think I'm pretty much in control.>
"What's it like?" Cassie asked.
<It's like...You know those old cowboy movies with Clint Eastwood? He's a
gunslinger and he walks into the saloon and everyone kind
of gets out of his way? And how he's not really looking for trouble, but you'd
better not make him mad? That's what it's like. It's like I'm Clint
Eastwood.>
"Can you do this, do you think?" Jake asked me.
<Oh, yeah. I can do anything.>
"Don't let the cat's arrogance get you in trouble, " Marco advised. "Keep a
little of your good old human fear." He paused. "Oh, I forgot, mighty Rachel
doesn't have any good old human fear. So here's what you do: Borrow some of my
good old human fear. I have plenty to spare."
"He's right, Rachel," Cassie agreed. "Keep focused. Between your own natural
attitude and the cat's 'tude, you could get cocky."
I cast a glance back toward the mouse. He had broken into the nut at last. I
could kill him. I was sure of that. He was a plump little mouse, and I would
catch him easily. But I wasn't hungry. So he'd get to live a while longer.
<No problem,> I said.
"We're here if you get into a mess," Cassie reassured me.
<I'll meow if I need help. Don't worry. I'm in control now. it'll be
fine.>
But the truth is, I was lying, just a little. See, I wasn't completely in control
of the cat. For some reason I didn't want to completely control the cat. I kind
of liked his arrogance. It made me feel more sure of myself. And despite what the
others thought about me, I needed all the confidence I could get.
"The morph clock is ticking," Cassie said.
"It's quarter of eight. Remember that."
I headed at an easy trot down the sidewalk toward the Chapman home. As soon as I
started moving I thought, Oh, man, if I could just keep some of this for my
next gymnastics class.
It was like grace beyond any grace you can imagine as a human. I passed a wooden
fence. There was a railing up high, maybe three feet up.
I looked up at it and then, before I could even think about it, I leaped. My
powerful hind legs coiled up and released.
I sailed through the air. Three feet straight up, and I was an animal that stood
only about twelve or thirteen inches tall. It was the same as a human being just
leaping to the top of a two-story building.
And it was totally nothing. It was just automatic. I wanted to jump, so I did. I
wanted to stick the landing on a narrow two-inch-wide rail, and of course, no
problem.
Compared to a cat, the best gymnast who ever lived is like a big staggering cow
or something.
"Um, Rachel, what exactly are you doing?" Jake asked.
They were all standing there looking at me. I had totally forgotten they were
still around.
<Just practicing,> I said. I jumped back down to the grass. Okay, get the
job done first, I ordered myself sternly. You can worry about the
Kitty Olympics later.
I started again toward the house, but this
time something forced me to stop. It was a telephone pole. The smell that
emanated from it was overpowering. I went over to it. I sniffed it again and
again in short snorts of air. The air was trapped in a series of chambers above
my palette. It would be held there even while I went on breathing. That way I
could get every possible bit of information from that smell.
It was definitely a tom's scent. A tomcat had marked this pole by peeing on it.
He was a dominant cat. Very dominant. His smell made me nervous. Not afraid, just
a little less arrogant than I had been. If this cat appeared, I would have to
submit. I would have to make myself smaller and less threatening and accept
his dominance.
Or I could fight him and get my butt kicked.
It was just the way things were. It was all there in the smell of his urine,
where any cat could read it.
I resumed trotting toward the Chapman home.
<Rachel, are you sure you're in control?> Tobias's voice was in my head.
<Why did you stop to sniff that pole?>
<I figured I should look like a real cat,> I said. <I Was just playing
the part.>
<If you say so,> he said doubtfully. <Just remember: It's fun being an
animal for awhile. Not so fun when it's permanent. The two-hour clock is ticking.
Tick tock.>
That got my attention. It was like a dash of cold water in my face. I focused my
human mind and took greater control over the cat's mind. But it wasn't easy. The
cat's mind did not even understand the notion of obeying.
So I used something the cat would respond to. I conjured up the memory of the big
tom's smell. That triggered the cat's submissiveness. I felt my part of the
collective mind grow larger.
<You're almost there,> Tobias said. <This is the right yard.>
<Yes, I know. My scent is everywhere. This whole area smells of me. This is
home. This is all mine.>
<Rachel, this is all Chapman's. And Chapman belongs to Visser Three. Don't
forget that.>
I trotted to the cat door. Chapman. Visser Three. Big deal. I was a combination
of Rachel and Fluffer. What did I care about Chapman and Visser Three?
The light inside the house was bright. My eyes adjusted instantly. My nose picked
up the smell of cat food, too dry and old to interest me. I also smelled the
humans: Melissa, Mr. Chapman, and Ms. Chapman. Don't ask me how I knew that what
I smelled were those three people. I just knew.
I spotted a cockroach in the dust balls in the dark beneath the refrigerator. No
interest to me. Roaches made interesting scritchy noises sometimes, and they were
fun to watch run. But they smelled wrong. They were not prey.
Swift movements!
Feet. Human feet. I didn't bother looking up.
It was Ms. Chapman.
High-pitched sounds coming from the motor of the refrigerator. They were
annoying. There were also the sounds of birds outside. They had a nest up under
the eaves.
Then the sound of Melissa's voice.
Where was she? I didn't see her anywhere. The sound was muffled.
I tried to focus. My ears moved to point toward the sound. It came from above me.
Above and far away.
She was in her bedroom, that's where. I couldn't hear the words clearly, but I
knew that she was muttering to herself.
I trotted across the kitchen floor. I knew - as Rachel - I knew I
should be afraid. But I couldn't be afraid. Everything here smelled like
me. My scent glands had left their marks all over - on that door, on that
cupboard, on that chair. It reassured me.
The big dominant tomcat's smell was not in here. No, there were no other cats in
here at all. Only human smells, and those were not very important.
I left the kitchen and paused at the corner between the hallway and the family
room. Chapman was there, in the living room. I could smell him. He was just
sitting on the couch. I glanced at him and walked on.
But then I stopped. My human brain sensed something wrong with the picture.
Chapman was just sitting on the couch. No TV. No music. He wasn't reading a book
or a newspaper. Just sitting.
I turned back to the kitchen. I looked up at Ms. Chapman. She was doing something
at the sink. Maybe washing dishes. No, she was cutting vegetables. But again, no
TV. No music. She wasn't humming to herself. She wasn't talking to herself the
way my mom does when she's working in the kitchen.
Not right. Something was not right with either of the Chapmans.
I went back to the hallway. There were stairs leading up to the bedrooms. From
the hallway I could hear Melissa more clearly. I concentrated, trying to ignore
the fascinating sounds of the birds under the eaves. I focused on the human
sounds of Melissa's voice.
"...divided by the square root...no, wait. No, square root times...Is that
right?"
She was doing her homework. Her math homework, obviously.
Like I should be doing, I thought. I had a pang of guilt. Instead of doing my
homework, I was creeping around my friend's house spying on her and her
parents.
I tried to find a clock. I had to watch the time. At nine forty-five my two hours
would be up. I wanted to be out of morph and back in my normal body long before
then. Hopefully, I could still get home and do my math homework and at least do
some of the reading for social studies class.
I spotted a clock. It was over the mantel, between pictures of the Chapmans and
Melissa. The clock said three minutes until eight. I had plenty of time.
Sudden movement!
Oh, just Chapman standing up.
The cat part of me wasn't interested in Chapman one way or the other. But I
forced myself to pay attention. It was important to watch him.
That was why I was here.
Is he prey? The cat brain seemed to be asking.
Yes. Yes, I told the cat brain.
Chapman is our prey.