What's the difference between being open and honest and using discretion? I've been thinking a lot about my life lately... you know, the things I want, and especially the things I have wanted in the past. Many of the things I have wanted have just kind of faded away. One thing that I remember having always wanted, has been denied to me based on gender.

That's not the big thing for tonight, though. I can deal with having secrets. I feel that as long as I am honest with myself about things, I don't need to be honest with any others. There would be using discretion... controlling what people, especially my loved ones, know about me. But is that truly being open and honest? Or rather, can I truly be open and honest if there are things I keep private?

If I really want to be able to do the things that I want to do, I have to be open. I have to be alright with people seeing parts of my self that I don't particularly want to share. The question I have is, do I have to give it all away? Do I have to share everything?

Thought maybe I'd provide an update on the drawing... it goes. It's not great... I think I'm trying to move too fast. So, I think I'm going to lock away all the markers, and work with my pencils. I suppose I've produced some stuff that's ok... but I want to get better all around.

Oh well. It's just an issue of time. Something to work at, I guess. I'll put more pictures up later.