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Latest update: 12.23.08

Well, still here. and working on a new thing, a true short story that is showing promise enough to maybe become a novel. Stange concept for me, non-fic writing and yet I feel I need to express where I "am" in this life and how I got here, craft-wise at least. I hope to put a synopsis of it up soon, so keep an eye open for that, if you like.

Another sad event, though not so blessed happened for our family on 12.18.08, I my Uncle Dave Rose passed away, one more great loss to our family this year. A good man, an old hippie and a dear friend and Uncle. He was a man of good heart and will be dearly missed. He loved nature as do I and the only thing that meant as much or more to him was family. Fare thee Well, David on your way to the summerland among the stars. I will think of you when I gaze into the face of the stars of the blessed rainbow bridge (milkyway) often and know you are never far from my heart.

A grand event happened on 11.14.08

My daughter Zoya and her wonderful husband blessed me with my first grandbaby girl, Jona Ann Marie, born, 9# 5 oz and 23 inches long, she is an amazing child already and already a winter lover and sleddog lover. I am so proud to welcome Jona Ann Marie Shandelmeier to our world. She is as sweet a babe as her mummy was. The miracle comes yet again.

Something dire happened in my life on June 8th of this year, 2008: My big brother has left this world on his last journey and it has taken me this long to add that here on this most personal of sites. He was an amazing man and brother and will be sorely missed by all who were fortunate enough to know him. So much has changed and will change more now that he is gone. Perhaps my mother and I will find our way back toward the city I love and yet, with all the loving friends we have here, perhaps not. This small town has a charm that is seldom seen in others and it doesn't hurt that it is a resort with a lake that rivals many in this state. We do love it here, though work is hard to come by. I can only hope that the future will be brighter, in time and we can find our path along to a better place whether here or elsewhere. Keep us in your prayers, be they rituals like mine or others. Faith is the key, not which faith, it always is though many forget that when doubt asails them for whatever reason. I say, keep the faith, keep it strong in your heart and your god/gods/godesses will respond as mine always do. Blessed Be all those of strong heart and good soul. Thanks to all my cyber pals and the ones in RL as well, I love you all. ~JA, July 5, 2008

Things have changed for me this year and though some were for the good, now it has turned all better at last. Physical pain is now a memory. So, to say the least, my life has changed and all for the better. No matter what haunts you there is always hope and now, some more deep dark poetry and mybe not so dark as well for you. With more to come, as always.

A Bright Winter Morning
by J. Artemis 01-2008

The silence of snowfall, pure and clean
A day for thinking just where I've been
To walk through the fire yet again and survive
While this time I know I'm glad I'm alive.

The beauty of Winter speaks to me still
As my boots crunch along as I head for a hill,
Where often I've gone and now ever will,
Creating, thinking of a new life's thrill.

The hill is mine refuge for Magick and rhyme
To be beside trees here before my own time
They look to be sleeping, frosted and bright
With the promise of waking in Spring's new delight.

Though Spring is a way off, I see it ahead
No more daily dreaming of me being dead
Before it comes here to greet us this time
This year's biggest promise, I know is all mine.

Dark Wings
Jolene Artemis © 21 Jan 07

Dark wings, blessèd embrace,
A cool caress upon my face
To wipe away the tears of woe
And all the sadness one can know.

A life once lived now ends in bliss
Upon my brow the lightest kiss
Of Death, his wings enfolding me,
Here, at last, to set me free.

I fear Him not this Reaper Grim
As all the world’s lights fade and dim
‘Tis the End of but one path this day
Where the next path lead, I can not say.

But, between the stars, I’ll find my way.


When? in Time
Jolene Artemis © 2007

So long denying freedom’s call
To resist the urge, resist the fall.
I’ve lived for others far too long
Resisting well the siren’s song.

The song of stars who call me home
Where none need ever be alone.
While freedom waits beyond the door
And pain keeps me pinned to the floor.

When all that’s left is hope, release,
That all the pain at last will cease
When I can join the starscape, vast
Escaping mortal pain at last.

It is a dream, I have.

Me and my rosebush of 2006

This is your hostess for this site, proudly posing with her newest friend in the flower bed.

In Loving Memory
King Arthyr: Born March 6, 1995 - Passed June 1, 2006
Now he leaps and runs among the stars.
We shall meet yet again, dearest companion.

Arthyr

Now, come into my world, if you dare..... thanks, ~JA
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To Walk Alone
By ©Jolene Artemis 2000

You say I am beautiful, yet the phone doesn’t ring,
You said you’d call, I haven’t heard a thing…
Others, too, have professed the same truths
And none ever brought what they said they would bring..

To me, thus the loneliness echoes and mourns
Like winter winds singing through blizzard-like storms
Chilling my soul and the emptiness there
Emptiness, loneliness deep as despair.

What is it in truth that I want from you
Or any who tell the same stories you do?
Is it pride that doth make me as vain women are
Or just human and kin to what, deep down, you are?

I ponder the question, “..then why tell me tales?
Why not leave me in peace where my heart seldom quails
Or dwells deep on sadness that loneliness is,
When I’d truly forgotten what love’s hope entails?

Is it cruelty or just your way as a man,
Your way to show woman all that you can
Of power to hurt, power to shame,
Power to make her hope run down the drain?”

You’ve done it again, beast, boy or man
And had enough help from mine own hand
By belief that just once, I’d found the one
And that all of this longing would soon be done.

I know that it’s never as simple as that,
Never was, never can be, never will be like that
The lives that we lead have a purpose their own
And sometimes, to find it we must walk alone.

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Tears of the Dead

Fear
by Jolene Artemis

Desperation born of fear,
I couldn't find me anywhere,
Hidden so long deep within
Have I just ceased to be in here?

A fleeting shadow, I've become
A wandering essence of lives undone
A spirit losing it's grip on flesh
A withering wandering sprite of none.

A calling I hear far off still
A calling haunting me so chill
A tempered whispering in my soul
A tempting for my weakened Will.

What do you want, I want to scream?
What say you that hath no name?
What is your purpose in reminding me
I’m fading faster than memory?

Essence dreaming becomes laughter here
Laughter becoming all I hear
Is it you, the one calling out
Or mine own laughter that I fear?

*an excerpt of a work in progress* ©2000 J.Artemis

Shadow Of Doubt by JArtemis

Will you? By J. Artemis ©2001

Will you hold me 
When the darkness 
Comes

Will you listen
When all others
Are numb

Will you soothe me
When the world grows
Cold

Will you walk 
With me as I grow 
Old

Will you hold my 
Hand for no reason
At all

Will you be there
To catch me when I
Fall

Will you love me 
When none other 
Would

Will you be my love
Longer than the others
Could

Will you share your dreams
And trust in me

Will you honor me with 
No secrecy

Will you always be
Just there 
For me..

To sleep like spoons…eternally?  Will you?

Stunning

What Is
 by JArtemis © 2001

dew drops on rose petals
	rain drops on green grass
and the sunshine bright warms 
	when all is dry there remains, renewal

renewal of nourishment,
	reward of patience
as nature is, so we are
	when we stop to listen

the breath of life, wind
	the song of love, kindness
the joy of faith, trust
	the reward of patience, peace.

Kiss

Visions
by Jolene 9/20/2000

With thoughts of you my spirit flies:
Reflections of me in your eyes
Your arms around me, warm desire,
A glass of wine, we are the fire,

Seductive caresses, raging flame
For this desire that bears no shame
Ling'ring on lips you have kissed
For the green eyes I could not resist.

A man whose scent still lingers true
The memory of those nights with you,
While all too few, they still remain
Impassioned in me all the same.

So always know wherever you are
In my heart you're not so very far,
As that time was most dear to me
I replay it in memories that wish to be

More......

Blue Butterfly Bloom

Who are you?
By J.Artemis

Silence
So loud it hurts my ears
Alone
So long, far beyond tears
Yearning
For something beyond any price
Haunted
By memories, dead many years.

Wishing and dreaming
Thinking too much
Wanting and hoping
For someone to touch.

Needing to be needed
‘Til I ache through and through
Wondering if I’ve time yet
Waiting for you.

I wonder so often, just who you’ll be
I wonder if I’ll know you when you come for me
I wonder if something will touch me and say
"Whatever you do, don’t let him get away."

But time is no friend and it moves faster still
It flies by and seems to take more of my will
And it saps at my strength and my hunger to be
The one who is loved by the one who will be…

Chosen eventually to set my soul free.

Just when I think all my hope has been spent
You’ll wander in and I’ll know by the gods you’ve been sent…

I hope.

Latest news: still currently working on new sci-fi, will likely be working on it for some time yet. I hope to get something worthy up soon. I am now 47, wow, what a rush! Advice? BE YOURSELF and live every day and night to the fullest, as if it's your last. Remember to laugh as often as possible and share it! If that is all you accomplish in a day, no worries, it is enough! Cheers!

More news: I am back home again, in Wisconsin! My writing seems to be stalled lately but I hope that changes soon. I do not live in a world of sad, darkness; that part, as with most normal (?) people, is just a fraction of me that is healed the instant a poem or piece is finished to express it. So, if you please, read the romatic stuff and all the other types, flying poems and so forth, before you think I need to be saved from lack of love and other fun things in my life. I have always been independant and a loner, hence it is hard for me to actually ever really BE lonely. I am and always was.. a tomboyish/lady and though that may sound contradictory it's not, not at all. And, to understand that you'd need to meet me as the answers to why that is does not lie in these pages. What is here is fantasy, fiction, some poems based in short term reality as well as poetry inspired by what others have been through. Sisters as it were have always been under the protection of my namesake, Artemis, though I adopt brothers in need of frienship and love as well. So, please don't think I am some manic depressive; hardly. I believe in living life with a permenent smile from ear to ear, in fact, I am famous for it throughout the midwest. So, that said, read on and enjoy, feel all you can, that's what poetry is for; to stir the emotions the pen must express them just so. But there are surprises to be seen even here, as my daughter would say, 'Bloom where you are planted... and if that fails, Mush on!' See her highly acclaimed dogsled tour and race site from Alaska (she is now an accomplished musher as well as making a splash by winning with a team, known all over Alaska as the "Rescue Team" as they are dogs rescued from pounds once other famed mushers have given up on them. She and her husband have proven that the right training and love can make the difference in a sled dog's performance. They are indeed becoming quite famed for this and not just in Alaska.www.dogsleddenali.com
More news: I have added this very special link. please check it out:
Frank's Site
For all of you out there who wish to learn about Hindu Ways and learn direct from a professional, a former Hindu Priest, no less, and always, my good friend,Dr. Frank Morales. Vist his site and you will be amazed!

Attn: New pics--as requested--on "about me" Link. 12.21.2004 I can't say when more will be up, I hate cameras if the subject is myself, sorry people, I am extremely average and I am NOT as photogenic as my daughter.

Dexter and Me

This is me with Dexter, my brother's rambunctious furball!

"Status"
a Vampire Poem (and much more)
by J. Artemis ©November 1999

From the ashes
Rise
Heart of stone

Clear as crystal
Strong
Alone.

Deadly as poison
Beware
The night.......

That's where
I'll be
'Neath pale Moonlight.

The Vampyre Tale has not been updated since chapter 4 was added (Nov. 9th 2000) Enjoy!! I am trying to make time for fiction but it just ain't happnin' as they say. However, I am also trying to spare time soon to work on the sci-fi too, promise. So, I beg you to be patient a bit longer, please? See the partial Sc-fi story that has been added by clicking said link on the left.

(Page look ordinary, font-wise? I have a fonts page and a midi page)
The main fonts used here are: Nosferatu, Morpheus, Abaddon, Diamond Gothic, 66 and Percival. Download them free, now, to get the best view of this site. You will also need the full screen width of your browser. Also, you may notice a file of 315k, the music of this link, as well as one not as large, my voice to greet you all personally. I appreciate your patience. Depending on the power of the system you use, you may have to refresh after it boots to hear the greeting without breakups in the sound.

Welcome, friends and feinds, I am glad that you have arrived safely. The way has become treacherous of late; I fear the old castle is in a bit of dis-repair, my apololgies. Now, if it please you, I'd like to present my assistant, Basil Rainbone. He will be pleased to be your guide through this labyrinth I call home. The newest additions of my work will be added mainly in the Intro section, and of course, where it says New. I have been known to slip a new piece among the old in the Dark Poetry, as well, so a return trip through those may be informative and sometimes even a bit shocking. I do hope you enjoy them. Some of my work has been published (follow the little airplane to find those). I have been fortunate and well paid for their use. I will be happy to discuss how to get your work published if you are interested in doing so. Just E-mail me with a good time to meet for a chat on Yahoo Messenger or just send your questions by E if you'd rather. Now, off to see the sights with Basil?

Basil RainboneOr, you may wish to use the navigation bar on your left, my assistant has been known to...ah... lose people. Also, I won't be adding the MP3 link thanks to the wonders of free download music programs.

I am so sorry to announce here that due to a spammer trying to promote online pharmecuticals... of all the crap, I had to delete the guest book entirely. I hope to have one I can keep at a later time. I don't know what kind of bent person does such a thing.. I can't understand why anyone would or could concieve of making something on my site behave so badly. But, I guess there are those who have nothing better to do than be a pain the decent people who only wish to be kind to others. I also wish to thank all the good people who previously signed in and kept there posts honest and real. It is for that reason alone I will try to keep it up for viewing so that others may see those posts.

Member of Dark Net


Created by Robert Velkym, (IS found again!) known for his Golden Scull Award and his Forbidden Library Website! This is a must see site for anyone who is interested in reading good fiction or in writing there own fiction and/or poetry. A must for writers. Yes! Get your work posted! He has also informed me that he has chosen me as the Author of the month for March! I am so excited! To read my short story that did not end up there(apparently, he likes my poetry better) click Here Enjoy the Darkness!

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Thanks, Raven *smile*
I know this link is dead, I am waiting for Raven to come out of hiding, hopefully soon?

Before I launch you into my own world, I want to thank some special friends, a local Blues Band who adopted myself and my family, making the deep south a far more fun place to be. Meet the Mutt Brothers Blues Band, Click on the banner to see their site, download full versions of a few of their tunes than return to email them here to order the full CDs. See the band as I did recently on my friends link, 'about me' is where you will find me and my good friends.

The Mutt Bros Blues Band

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©J.Artemis 1988 through 2008
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