I guess suicide is not giving up on life, it is giving up in all the pain. Whether you are stabbing yourself with a needle, or carving into yourself with a sharp object it is not to give up on life. It is to end the pain, an actual pain one feel in one's heart. With each breath it fells like a needle is piercing your heart and with each breath, your breathing becomes shallow and more painful. You are doing whatever you want to end it as tears fall from your face, but the tears are not form the pain that one might be inflicting on one's self but the pain from each breath one takes that makes it more painful to live. The tears are from all that is inside that can not or will not come out. One watches as they inflict pain on themselves, it hurts but it is not as painful as living with what one's heart is doing. It is not an over exaggeration of pain, or heartache; it is an actual heartache. Like the heart is pumping slower with each beat, and with each beat pain goes threw out the body more pricing and horrible than the first time. One wanting to kill them selves to not giving up on life, or being selfish in leaving other's behind that love them, it is putting a end to what one can no longest handle anymore. I love you and do not worry it is just thoughts, and explanations.
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