When The Sorceress gathered her friends about her for this
circle, she asked each of us if we would like a page on her site to explain
ourselves and our paths. I had to think long and hard as to how I wanted
to introduce myself to the world. When new friends learn that I am a pagan
and a practicing Wiccan I receive many reactions. From those who are unlearned
as to the ways of the Ancient Religion, sometimes it is shock and they
are uncomfortable. For the intellectually curious it is the opportunity
to learn. For those secure in their own faith, it is the opportunity to
understand another's seeking of the Divine. For those who know me well,
they are not surprised. For those who do not know me, it is intriguing,
as their image of a "witch" is almost always not the reality.
Who am I spiritually? I am someone who is in tune with the
natural cycle of the Earth. I celebrate the seasons, in my day-to-day life
and through the holy days of my religion. I identify with the aspects of
the four quarters and the elements associated with each. I celebrate the
holiness of human life, from birth through mid-life and onto death and
rebirth. Those aspects of divine humanity are embodied in my belief in
the Goddess and the God. They are the manifestation of Divine duality and
balance. My way of conceiving of the human aspects of the greater Holiness.
The life source from which we all came and will return when our learning
is complete.
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Who am I physically? I am a married, middle-aged lady. I
am a career woman. I could be your mother, your sister, your wife, your
friend. You stand in line next to me at the grocery store. We chat over
the fences in our backyard. I am your secretary, or perhaps your boss.
We might have taken a class together at the local university. You definitely
met me at your last women's rally. You saw me at the Food Bank, the Little
League Game and wandering about the shopping mall. Oh, you probably didn't
know that I was a Wiccan lady … but then I didn't know you were Jewish
or Christian or Muslim either. Most of us don't wear our religion in public,
do we? But for all who are devout and devoted to their faith, it is so
much a part of us. Physically invisible, but shaping our very souls. It
is what we are, to the very depths of our being. My Goddess lives within me. She is my spirit, and she is
also my physical body. She has taught me that I am at the same time unique
amongst and bound in commonality to all that is, was and will be. I walk
the Earth in her form. It is a joy. It is a wonder. It is an honor.
Would you like to share a cup of tea and a chat? You are
welcome, friend. After all, Anni is The Witch Next Door. Just a short hop
over the fence or walk up the street, and I'm right there. Clear the books
off of the chair and blow the dog hair off of the table … and settle down
for a nice long visit. Perhaps a crescent-shaped cookie with your chamomile
tea? Sugar or lemon?
Ahneke Greystone, MidSummer 1998
Ahneke's Goddess
This is another one (here we go again
The Divine Toddler - I don't think you'll find this in a book :-) I
kind of "invented" it. But it is the stage in the Lady when I see
her as a small child. In traditional Wiccan thought we don't ever
see her as such. We see the God as a toddler or a very young
man (I see Him as such at Imbolc). But the Lady seems to spring
forth as a Maiden fully formed :-) For me the Divine Toddler is the
child within. When we are able to see the world through the eyes
of wonder. We have a total lack of "self" and our world is what we
can touch and see. It is what we are in the innocence of infancy.
We can only hope to keep some of the Toddler with us forever. But
it becomes more and more difficult as we mature and facts and figures
begin to fill our brains. The trick is to stay in touch with the Divine
Toddler. The Divine Toddler is the essence of Wonder.
Maiden - The Maiden to me is someone who has become totally
aware of Her Self. She is inwardly focused. By that I mean that
she is the product of her own creation. She doesn't need others
to validate her. She has a vibrant independence and doesn't feel
the need to be connected to others. I meditate on the aspect
of the Maiden when I need to center and focus. When I have
a direct goal to attain and don't want to be distracted. Sometimes
it might seem she is a bit Self-centered. If she is, then it is the
best of Self-centeredness. Self-celebration. The Maiden is the
essence of Confidence.
Mother - I see this aspect of the Lady as being in the time of her
life when she does see herself more through the eyes of others.
A well-balanced Mother has not lost touch with the Maiden
within her. It is a time of reaching out. Perhaps in the biological
sense, as she nurtures the next generation. But also in the
sense of accomplishments. It is a time for Big Plans and giving
birth to more than physical life. Also of intellectual and spiritual
life. In the communal sense, the Mother stands outside of herself
often, and puts the needs of others first. Not diminishing herself
in doing so, but reaching a state of fulfillment and vitality through
outreach and creation. And her life is more of an outreach than
and inward reaching. The Mother is the essence of Accomplishment.
Crone - To me, the Crone is a fascinating combination of Maiden
and Mother. She has learned to stand alone, but at the same time
remains the nurturer. The Wise Woman who counsels, who
makes herself available to others while also focusing very much
on her inward path. She is so at ease within herself that she
has much to give to those around her. It is a time of "giving back"
that which has come to her over the years. In fact, I see a
responsibility of the Crone to be aware that she owes back to
the community and that her wisdom must be shared. She is
often required to put the good of others before herself, but she
sees this as her inheritance and she can give of herself without
compromising herself (often the Mother finds herself drained
from the giving; the Crone has learned to preserve her core
while opening to others). The Crone is the essence of Wisdom.
Grandmother - This comes from my Native American studies.
I needed an archetype of the elderly woman. Having been
physically and legally the guardian of my grandparents as
they aged, became ill and passed, I saw this as a powerful
time of life. It is a time when the Lady "relaxes" -- there is
no need to give anymore. Perhaps one is intellectually
diminished or physical limitations have changed one's
abilities. It is a time for one to rest in the arms of the
community. To be honored for one's achievements while
being cared for as though one were once again the Divine
Toddler. It is a time of dependency ... and I believe the
title Grandmother entitles one to be treated with a certain
respect and honor. I also needed this archetype to help me
deal with the passing of some of my elderly loved ones. As it's
reconnection to the Divine Toddler who has reactions based
on the small world around it and it's body (all of my grandparents
experienced dementia for several years before their deaths),
I see the Crone/Toddler combination as completing the cycle.
The traditional view of the three aspects was too linear for me;
I needed to feel more connected to the human cycle as a
continuing thing. The Grandmother is the essence of Reflection.
I don't think we progress through these stages necessarily
linearly (except for all starting and usually ending much as
the Divine Toddler). Some of us will not experience all aspects
in our life. I personally have moved from Maiden to Mother. But
I sense more of a returning to the Maiden than a progression to
the Crone at this point in my life. Perhaps after I have revisited
the Maiden for some years I will be moving on to Crone. But I
do see many older women as more the Maiden than the Crone.
Crones are special and few and far between in my experience.
One last thought. I see all of these aspects of the God, too. And
see every stage within the men in my life. I truly don't see too many
men who are successful Mothers and Crones. But when they are,
as my dearly beloved grandfather was, it is a marvelous thing to
behold and those around them are blessed for the knowing.