Mother.


the overpowering golden tentacles of the sun faded into
the night as the pearl arms of the moon embraced the
night and i was left with a sense of longing for you. i remember
our nights together so clearly, but do you?

do you remember those pearl arms my love? do you remember
that night being rocked gently to sleep in the moon's pearl arms?
do you remember the promises we whispered? those promises to
the moon's glacial heart, and the sun's radiant soul? i remember your
dithyrambic caresses so well and wonder, do you share those with
another now? or do you keep them under lock and key, buried beneath the
blinding brillance that scorched your heart? you told me that as the
days, weeks, months, and seasons change so do people and so
does love evolve and fade from one to only curse another. and just as i
couldn't imagine bearing my life without you; just as i continued to
dream of you and dream of living together in complete bliss, i couldn't
stand hearing you tell me that someday my dreams of being with you
would fade just as those fiery tentacles. do you know my love, after
these passing years, i still turn in bed night after night for you? the
image of your luminous visage torments and yet all the while comforts me,
letting me know that with every twisting and cruel heartbeat there still
remains love deep within my damned pitiful heart that i cursed and
stabbed so long ago, harming myself and any who dared come
near me. you my dear promised me that my love for you would
die as flowers wither come autumn. you warned me you'd
leave me someday but i refused to listen. i thought i could prevent
flowers from wilting. i believed i could stop your love from fading.

04 March 1998



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