Absent Adoration So dependant, so addicted I've become. Your blood runs through my veins, you keep me alive. Your soul holding mine, safe forever in your embrace. I see your eyes in mine, I read your mind. My thoughts of nothing else, only this passion for someone so special to me. I feel your pain, we heal eachother. My heart beats only for you. How do I go on living without you? How do I survive, when my own soul has died? A link broken, eternity ending so abruptly. Where did forever go, when I was to always have your love? It hurts so bad, so deep. Giving my soul to darkness, without you I am nothing. A survival without you is short lived, and I want to die. I don't want to experience joy, or happiness. I don't want to feel love again. Your absence is the absence of my heart, it fades the longer you're gone. I have become a ghost to this world, frail to pain. Picked apart by the hate I suffer, the hate you used to protect me from. Yet even in all my despair, my search for you does not end. The hope that your love for me hasn't died, keeps me alive. I can dream about you, freezing your memory in time. And I can pray for the day that once again, I can gaze into your loving eyes. Visions of Love Restless, lying in my bed, visions of you tempt my lonely heart. Under the night stars, I imagine you're with me. Reaching out, feeling, almost tasting your presence. I'd give up my soul, to be with you for just one night. Just to hold you, kiss you, tell you how I feel. I toss and turn, thrusting my body up towards the night sky. Thoughts of you teasing my mind. I lick my lips, caress my skin, crying out for your love. I wish and pray every night for you, my dream come true. Bringing such pleasure to my dreams, you will continue. Until the wonderful night comes that you are mine, I'll love you always in my mind. No Other Love My love calls to me in the night, controlling my body, my thoughts. Capturing my heart, dominating my dreams. My mind consumed with love too strong to break. My eyes see no other, I breathe for no other reason but this love. Surviving not a day alone, staying by my side. Protecting me from these harsh realities I fear. Erasing my mind of hate, filling me with your love. Keeping my nights warm and safe. Knowing me all too well, soothing the fearfull thoughts I hold in the night. Loving me, like no other. With this love, I want no other. Eternally Loved Cold and empty, inside my body cries for your love. Desperate for your touch, your kiss. Just one sweet embrace lasting a lifetime. Longing to explore the depths of your eyes, seeing straight into your heart. Longing to explore the depths of your pleasure, loving your body to all its limits. Pain comes with your love, pain comes without. Yet you heal me, and keep me safe. This need to show my love for you is everlasting. Holding you in my passions for all eternity. Wanting to feel you always with me, inside me. Always together, on dark nights and long days. Filling me, with too much love to express. Love like no other, this feeling burns within me for eternity. Desired Taste Under a full moon, the night becomes chaotic. Emotions stronger, thoughts running deeper. Desires cannot be controlled. As if under a spell I no longer fear what you'll say, whispering softly in your ear the evil deeds I desire to be done. Luring you into a tangled web of lust and deep passion. You are mine. Sweet, tender flesh exposed slowly, kisses sealing our love. Every touch bitter sweet torture, aching for your carress, consuming the attention you give every curve. Your fingertips dancing over my body, weak to your touch. Drawing you closer, melting into you. So vulnerable to your every move, succumbing to your every need, I am your slave. With me you do what you like, until I cry out for this lovely torture to end. You've wanted to know me so well, you come inside me. Driving it into me what I mean to you, my pleasure lets me understand. Our souls are one, no secrets kept, when you let me inside I see everything clearly. You've let me know who you are, you've become my heart. Dieing to have you, dieing without you. My ecstasy released, my soul at rest. My only one desire is you, wanting desperately for you to belong to me. Your taste stays on my lips, filling deeply my body, heart, and soul. The only taste I'll ever have, is of my love. New Acceptance When did my very presence become a gift? When did the ground I walk on become blessed? When did my heart become sacred? I never thought it to be true, feeling the harsh curse that was my life settle upon me like a dark cloud. I resented myself, my life. Hating my heart, hating my soul. Becoming a forgotten cause. But a love I had so doubted became strong, guided my way, showing my life to me. Loving me in so many ways, valuing parts of me I had yet to find. Suddenly I was special, a being capable of being loved. A survival seemed in my grasp, with your warmth supporting it. Alone I am only a shadow, you give me life. Dependency can be a burden, not always right. But in this world I am nothing, without you I would die.