This is a page I should have done a while ago but I never seemed to get around to it. This page is dedicated to the faith or following that I practice(?) or rather that leads my life, and how I act in a general sort of way. I suppose first of all I should explain a little about myself. I am not a christian and have not been one for a long time, and when I was, it was only at the insistence of my family. I am a cynicalist, as well as an existancilist( spelling is wrong there). My believes are my own, though I am sure others believe in something similiar to mine.
I call my belief kair, and it is called that for a good reason I suppose, though at the time I didnt know what the word meant. Later, a few yrs after I used the work kair, I managed to derive a crude meaning from it. Kair, or rather Ka-Ir, two words of two languages. Ka which can mean either soul, or the way souls are tied together in life, and Ir, which is spanish for to go. so in essence, you have a soul to go, or a going soul, or maybe Tied souls going somewhere,which is the one I prefer, but it depends on how you translate the words and also how you corrupt them. I have found nothing is ever pure, and corruption in some things is just a form of chaos that is conterbalanced by the order in life.
below is some works(poems) I wrote a long time ago, they both date at least 3 yrs back, maybe 4 yrs ago, though I have followed kair for over 8 yrs or so now.
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kair isnt a faith such as a religion, it is more a following or a way of living, everything and everyone is tied to others, and it is this tying that holds life together. There is a pattern, but I dont think anyone or anything can comprehend the vastness of it. I still stumble along finding my way in this life, that is my nature, I feel when some things happen but like most I cant tell what is going on. My beliefs arent as set as some are such as the various religions of the world, but I dont like religion all that much, it imples a dependability on knowing that something it there that is higher(??) that we are, and i dont really think that is it. Likely we are here and other are here, and everything just happens to fit in somewhere.
I think kair is more about trying to keep yourself in touch with what is going on, both in physical existence and in spirituality. I can honestly say that I have a soul, no matter what the religions tell me, and that my soul will move on when this physical body dies. even though now more often than not I am lost as to what I am to do, or what I am going to do, I know that things should work out in the pattern as time goes on. Though that seems little hope compared to many things, it is something and it keeps me going at times.
I dont know how to explain my beliefs and my followings all that much, I keep my honor as much as I can, I suppose that makes me somewhat strange, though my honor is something that is different from the old style concept of honor. but I hold to mine, and I hold to Kair, as I hold onto my soul, and my thoughts, such as they are.