My Rose
Once I break through and fall asleep in my dark comfort,
You will spend all your days here
Please search all the towns and the countries
Plant this rose in my soft ground and love it as you loved me.
You will not miss me,
Now it's time for you to go back to the sleep and life,
And the beautiful sign of life, my life,
I want the clean soul of the divine in my heart.
Replace me with nothing. I want to be as always,
in the glazed land of eternity and me.
My angel will never exist,
neither will I in the lying human presence.
Never change this life, my friend.
travelling through the tide of unpleasant tears.
You will maybe die on the trip, and so will I,
but as a friend you should fight the light,
and do what I say.
in this world and others,
and never lie down to sleep before you find my rose.
You will find my secretly hidden red rose of my purple legions,
deep in a ravine, beside its mountain brook of thirst.
The most dreaming spirit of days,
the most vulnerable clean soul of life,
all earth's life in the mindless voice of my history.
And deep beneath your land,
I'll escape the desert of Hell and
meet with the gods.
As my thoughts and lives is germinating in the
fine Garden of Death,
My intellectual values will grow higher than airy comfort.
My feelings will sense your deepest fears
and great loves.
I'll be there in the early dawn of morning,
in the empty heights of Day,
the smooth cool evenings,
and close my spring as our Night arrives.
you wanted my death, didn't you?
and as you wake up,
find and take care of my heart in the mountain.
Watch me grow till your days are gone.
will still be standing there with me.
I will shine out to all people and wish them
love and delight,
impossible dreams and faith.
My Kingdom of Hell will always stand there,
in the memory of my life.
I will be loved and cared for the rest of my life
through you,
my Red Rose for my Grave.
14.05.1998
