When I was still young and wild
When I still knew who I was
And was still able to smile
I met him
And I fell in love
That was the first time I truly felt unsure
My mother kept me her inocent little girl
He was my first taste of mischeif
It was as if I found the greatest most irrisistable temtation
In the oddest place
It was hard to reach
At times, hopeless
Endless chaos
An ocean of pain I cried for him
But as I said I was young
Infact I was still a child
I wanted all I could possibly grasp
If the stars were within my reach
I would have carried them in my pocket
I didn't realize it was love
I thought there could be something more
My curiosoty soon took over
And I lost what inocence was left of me with someone else
A stranger
I must have overlooked what I had
Or looked to hard
Or maybe not hard enough
How do you explain confusion?
How could I have known?
My intentions were not to hurt him
I suppose it was broadining my horizons
Temporary lack of common sence
I was suddenly unsure of weather he gave me my inspiration
Or stole it
And he left me
And I lost a good friend to cancer
It was hard
I said hello to the sun each morning with a tear
Then my best friend had a baby
Or should I call her a wonder
She dried all those tears I greeted the sun with
RELEIF!
My mind was free and at ease
And I wrote my poetry
About my loss
And this radient blue eyed bare foot pricess we call Jade Byrd
And he returns with chaos as his shadow
Making me remember
Promising me lies
So I let him wear his mask
As I bare my soul and prepare to give up my heart again
Reasuring my doubts with his persuasive ramblings
And I'm back where I started
But I see now the trap I set and the walked into
I'm content not knowing what I wanted to catch
And now I can truly say goodbye
An be on my way
With all the caution that failed to warn my heart before
