~ Small Thoughts ~

Haha, I'm Knight!

13.10.02 [Sun] 02.43am

:: how jedi are you? ::

It was nice & sweet

29.09.02 [Sun] 03.49pm

Thank you for the wonderful CD, the songs are great and I love
listening to every single one of them.

An angel glided into my life,
without my knowing.

To Each His Own

16.09.02 [Mon] 3.07am

When did you realise you've grown up? I was always resisting the idea of growing up. Just didn't want to I guess. Why grow up? I don't want to be an adult, to learn the ways of the world, to become materialistic, to trample or be trampled on in the stampede or climb up the social ladder, to lose my friends, to lose myself. Whatever for?
Say I'm idealistic, naive, whatever.
Where have the days of innocous human relations gone? Where's the you, the me, just children playing and getting along fine without motives, when life seemed so free of worries and when we didn't have to be wary of each other?
It's inevitable, is it?
   Yeah, for survival.
I think I can survive well without those evils the adult world has to offer me.
   I wish life were a fairy tale.

Aaron's Bon-bon

08.09.02 [Sun] 9.15pm

Went for Aaron Kwok's concert last Friday night. Nope I'm not and never was his fan. Yawn. Yup, thats the only one word to describe it. No vigorous shaking of bon-bons, no powerful vocals, no familiar ballads or chart-topper, no glitzy costumes, heck! even the dancers are so-so!!
Hmm, well the fans were not the F4 or WeWe type-- wild, hormones-raging, screaming teenage girl-fans, but people my age, in our mid-20s, working and more receptive to social perceptions (and more sensible, I think).
Most of the time his voice was drowned out by the heavy thumping base, which i suspect was a deliberate attempt to hide his frequent off-tune singing.

Well, a commendable effort would be Aaron's glib tongue that refuse to bow down to the awkwardness of the cooling atmosphere. One thing he does know, is how to tell silly jokes to up the mood and flirt outrageously during song intervals:

Whoo. But it failed to get to me yeah.

04.09.02 [wed] 3.43pm

I want to get fat!!! I've had it! People keep coming up to me and saying "omigod! You're so thin!" I'm tired of this. I'll love to hear them say "you're slim and just nice" for once. So recently I got into the habit of taking bottled bird's nest, chicken essence, vitamin Cs, and having supper every night.
Er, hope the fat deposits itself in the right places, haha...
Wish me luck man!!

The past, the past... It can really plague and suck the sanity out of one's mind. We shouldn't think about it though at times you long to travel back through time.
I believe a much brighter future lies ahead, if only you pick yourself up to receive it.
Let it be.

Weblogs. What are these for? A form of expression?
*shakes head*
Looked through the *Blogs people post and whoa. Isn't it out of pure loneliness that they spent hours online designing websites and weblogs through which they can reach out to others on the net?
I'd think it's very much so. Why don't they try going out into the real world to do some real interactions?
I think I know why-- afterall, I'm also one of these people sitting in front of the monitor and complaining incessantly about my life by typing rows and rows of words on the keyboard.
The real world's too full of people vying for power. And they'd use any means just to win in this power struggle. I'm probably too sheltered so I don't mind excusing myself voluntarily from it all. I'm not very competitive, am I? Heh.
Our world's changed so much, from the innocent kampong days of scooter-rides, tree-climbing and "go-li" matches to the modern affluence of coloured TV sets, shopping malls springing up all over the island, major technological inventions like the cable and personal computers. No wonder alienation of the individual is a must in our generation. Like me, I don't feel connected with other people anymore. How to, when i get so wary of back-stabbers, gossip-mongers, and other evil-doers?
Connection. Sense of belonging. Maybe these are what the Internet offers. A refuge from the real world and real people who can hurt you anytime.

03.09.02 [Tues] 4.05pm

If you have a friend who too materialistic and egocentric, what will you do? That is, assuming you and your friend hold different viewpoints on that subject. And when the friend is too concerned about himself to ask about you and the problems you face, what can you do?
Tolerate. Yeah.
when it gets too much you just stop communicating altogether. The friendship doesn't seem to matter much to that friend of mine, in my perspective. So, I don't bother either.

*FunkyGrad
Try this for a nice, clean forum free from idiots who post dumb things.

02.09.02 [Mon] 5.35pm

There came a strange SMS from someone who'd drifted away from me since weeks ago. I didn't reply. Had to fight the momentary urge to. I'm fine now. Haven't been thinking about it. Life's not as hard as I thought it would be, it's just what I want to make out of it. I'm enjoying now -- partying, dance classes, movies, catching up with old friends and making new ones! Life is exciting! :)