Every night Katti got up and onto the computer talking for hours.
It was very addicting she agreed with AnAngel one night. Perhaps
there was a way to not talk so much, but then what would she do
with her spare time. The computer had almost become a part of her
life. She had met some very good friends on there. In the mist of
all the wondering she still connected and tonight she just sad there.
About an hour later, someone in the main said. "Katti are you
there tonight"

<Katti> My body is but my mind isn't.
<someguy> Katti where might your mind be if not with us.

Katti pondered for a moment and thought she would just
cover her words with a comment of no importance.

<Katti> It's on someguy somewhere at sometime of my life.

A couple of hehe's in the channel then she was left alone.
Within a few minutes. The private message box lit up.
Katti clicked on it.

<someguy> Are you all right Katti?
<Katti> Sure why do you ask?
<someguy> I don't know I just feel you are in pain, and perhaps
I can help you get through it..

Oh wow this guy really is stretching she thought, but be polite
Katti.
<Katti> Thank you, it sometimes shows more than others I guess.
<someguy> Would you like to talk about it?
<Katti> Not hardly.
<someguy> Well would you mind talking to me for a while I could
use the company. :)
Katti took her time to  pause.....!!! do I detect any problems here? hmmm
Katti decided what did she have to loose but a few minutes of time.
<Katti> Sure if your looking for conversation, I guess I'm your girl.
<someguy> :) that's a girl, so tell me Katti something about you.
<Katti> What would you like to know?
<someguy> What ever you want to share. I don't want to be typical and
bore you with the a/s/l questions. :) So just pick something and start
talking. I will join in.
Katti thought for a minute, but it seemed strange all of a sudden. Well what
was she going to chat about. Trying to come up with something it just didn't
happen.
<someguy> Katti are you still there?
<someguy> Hello?
A few minutes later.....nothing upon the screen someguy thought Katti had
left. Running a /whois on her it said she had been idle for 3.8 minutes.
<someguy> Listen Katti sorry I bothered you. I was just trying to get to know
you, but I can see I have interfered on your thoughts. Excuse me, nice meeting
you and cya around. Take care Katti girl.
The window flicked off. Katti stood there still thinking of what on earth did she
have to chat about. And somehow she felt bad. She felt she had been rude.
Reaching for the DCC chat button, Katti typed in the nick someguy and when
it came up and acknowledged. Katti wrote,
<Katti> Listen I am sorry, didn't mean to be rude. It's just besides the a/s/l
I couldn't think of anything to say. I am a female as you can tell by Katti, 25 years
old and living in Chicago.
<someguy> Welcome Back Katti, Chicago as in the USA?
<Katti> Yeah the Windy City, Middle of the US.
<someguy> How long have you been there Katti.
<Katti> I was born here. How about you, where from?
<someguy> I am in Jordan, born and raised here. Working as an engineer
in Electronics.
<Katti> :) Sounds like fun.
<someguy> haha sure it is, it's so fun I am bored to death.
<Katti> Well is there anything else you can do?
<someguy> Yes, probably but as of now it pays the bills and keeps food on
the table.
<Katti> Do you have a family?
<someguy> Doesn't everyone. I have a wife and two small children so the jobs
come far and few in-between. I guess I will keep the one I have. :))
<Katti> Oh how nice, how old are you kids?
<someguy> they are 4 and 6. Do you have a family?
Katti thought for a minute and if she said yes she might be asked a lot of personal
questions that she didn't really want to get into. The pain was raw and she didn't
feel like talking to a stranger.
<Katti> No I don't.
 The time seemed to pass, and the conversation was nice. Weeks passed and Katti
was still talking to someguy. He was friendly and sometimes he made her laugh.
He would talk about his children and sometimes his wife. He would ask her about
the states and where she grew up and her family. Sometimes Katti felt she was
being deceitful to him, she had to avoid the issue of her husband and daughter,
yet so what, he was nothing to her she told herself. They didn't know each other
except on this machine. Six weeks later Katti was still meeting him there every
night and talking. She couldn't understand why but she was being pulled closer
and closer to someguy. When she missed a night of talking to him she found it
hard to sleep. She wanted to know why he didn't show. She would get up every
few minutes jumping on the computer to see if he was around. Nothing. The
following morning she checked her email to see if he wrote her. Nothing. Well
why should there be anything. After all she was just a nick on the computer.
someguy was a married man why would he want to explain anything to her.
Boy was she loosing it or what. Days passed nothing came, no note no message,
and not him, not once. Katti couldn't explain it but she missed him. Not really
knowing where to turn Katti approached AnAngel one evening.
<Katti> Have you seen someguy around lately.   Katti asked trying to act casual.
<AnAngel> No, not in a while. You were stealing him away from the channel.
hehehe, when you showed up he went into private mode and didn't talk to the
rest of us.
<Katti> Really, well we were just friends. You know talking about this and that.
<AnAngel> Yeah, I know :))
Katti crawled into bed that night feeling lost again. The first male friend she had
had in so long and she lost him and didn't even know why. Over a week now and
nothing. It took Katti a long time to fall asleep.