Goodbye Denial
Goodbye denial my old friend
For a time you served me well
You protected me when I could not
And helped me not to dwell
Upon those things I could not face
For fear I’d not survive
Could not erase the horror of
These sights from my own mind
I needed to invent a life
One that’s sweet and calm and kind
And then the horror I recalled
Was naught but in my mind
Goodbye denial my old friend
You gave me time to grow
For that I’m very grateful
More than you’ll ever know
I’ll not forget the time we spent
You served me well and good
It helped me get
Beyond those years
When I could not survive
You helped me reach maturity
At least as far as years
Goodbye denial my old friend
It’s time for us to part
I know it’s hard
I feel the pull
I fear I’ll miss your warmth
There was a safety that I knew
From your sure company
But you’ve become
A hindrance now
The one who holds me back
I cannot grow
The way I want
With you here by my side
I get confused
Between those lives
And wonder what to choose
It’s time to face reality
And see for what it was
It will be hard
I’ll miss you much
Mostly when it hurts
In those times
I’m sure I’ll wish
You were here once again
But if I call
Please don’t respond
It’s time for me to grow
3-22-01
(jml)
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