I Want to Let Go

I want to let go
But I don’t know how
I want to scream, to cry
To let it all out
But it’s trapped inside
Why don’t I know how?
The top of a mountain where none can hear
The bottom of the valley where I can let go
Only then will it be safe
Must be alone
Why?
Howl like a wounded animal
Until there is nothing left inside
What am I so afraid of?
Need to be alone but not
What do I really want?
Not playing.. so confused
One day this, one day that
What will it take?
Waiting for something
For it to be okay
But when?
Why?
Why don’t I understand?
Why is it hidden from me?
I just want to let go