Philosophy

Several years ago I was reading a book on chess and following the moves the master had written in the book. Suddenly the master moved one of his pawns on the king side of the board. At that time one of his bishops on the queen side was under attack. The pawn movement totally threw me. Why make an apparently pointless pawn movement when your bishop is being attacked?

I did not know but since I was following the moves in a book written by a master I knew that I would eventually find out. Sure enough, about 5 or 6 moves later the master made a queen movement that not only saved his attacked bishop but also was decisive in the game. But I immediately saw that he would not have been able to make the queen movement had he not moved his pawn several moves earlier.

A similar precept can be found in life. God is the Master and we are the pieces. He often brings about changes in our lives that we do not understand. Such “movements” confuse us and give us anxiety. But only because we cannot see the future as the Master sees it. Indeed, we are lucky if we can see beyond the here and the now! But if we are humble and accept His will in all things then eventually we will see the reasons behind the small details that govern our lives.

So what am I? Who am I? I am nothing but a pawn. I have power over absolutely nothing. I cannot go to the left or to the right without God either allowing it or causing it. Nor can I go back, as I have burned all my bridges behind me. Just as a pawn, I can only go forward.

I am blind. I frequently feel as though I am a small boy lost in a foreboding forest. It is dark and there is only this small patch of light that encircles me. Everything else is in blackness. I cannot see where I am going – where God is taking me.

But more than that, I look into my past and I cannot even see where I have been – where God has already taken me. I look back at some of the things God has asked me to do and I still do not see the reason behind the action. He has asked me to wash a widow woman’s house, visit a paraplegic, take particular courses at college, search the Internet for information and numerous other small mundane tasks.

Nor do I even see where I am now. I am alone. I do not have any political power. I am not rich. I am not famous. I am not important. I am a joe nobody.

Thus, I cannot picture myself as anything but a pawn. If I claim to be anything else then I exalt myself. I picture myself as a pawn and the world today in end game tactics. God has me, His pawn, on the seventh rank and is about to queen me. Only after He queens me will I have any power; only then will I be able to see.

Yes, I picture the world today in end game tactics. But I do not know when the final end will come, as end games can go on and on or they can be decisive in a few quick moves. Thus, the end could be many years away or it could be imminent.

I have thought about it numerous times and each time I come up with a different scenario: Five years, 50 years, 500 years, 5 thousand years. I can picture mankind destroying himself in a nuclear war in the very near future. I can also picture a future mankind living in space cities that rotate around the earth and sun, leaving the earth off-limits to all except a few scientific centers and recreation centers. I just do not know when the end is coming.

Also, there is still hope for the future. This is the main reason why I have felt inspired to post some of my beliefs (philosophy if you will) on my web site about how mankind can make changes to make a better world in which to live – educational changes, business and economic changes, prison reform, etc.

On several of my web pages I give reference to scenes from a movie: Titanic, Cast Away, The Outlaw Josey Wales, Wargames, An American President, A Few Good Men and a movie about the end of mankind, Road Warrior, to name several of them. I use these references to help me understand and explain God, His law, and His world.

I ask myself: Does this have anything to do with my picturing the world today in end game tactics? I truly do not know the answer to this question. I only know that I have thought about the message that I am giving to mankind. I truly believe that it is coming from our Lord, not my own mind.

I truly believe that there is no better analogy for the Roman Catholic Church than an oyster. (I got this in a dream.)

I truly believe that the descriptions of the trinity of God, the mystery of God and of the trinity of one’s soul that I have given in Alpha Omega and in B & D, S & M are accurate. (I also got this in a dream.)

I truly believe that God, through me, is telling each and every individual person that he too can rise from the dead. I believe that He is using me to show them the way to truth and life.

I know of no one who believes that they can rise from the dead. But it seems to me that this is God’s ultimate message, for He came to show us the way, the truth and the life. There are other passages in the scriptures that point to man having the ability to rise form the dead; I will let the theologians of the world point them out. But since at present no one sees this, I believe that God is using me to show mankind what road to follow.

I truly believe as true all that I have written and that this message would not come until mankind was old enough spiritually to accept it, which would be toward the end. Hence, I believe that mankind today is in end game tactics. But as I stated previously, the end could be many years away or it can be imminent, as end game tactics can be long and drawn out, or they can be decisive.

I look back at the panorama of history and I see this message slowly growing in the teachings of His word. This to me is totally logical and that is what chess is all about, logic in time and place. I see our Lord bringing mankind to where he is today. From His blessing of mankind and giving him a soul, to Adam, to Abraham, Isaac and Jacob, to Mary His mother, to Copernicus, to Galileo, Newton and Darwin, I see Him slowly teaching mankind about Himself.

I see Him slowly teaching mankind about what great things he could accomplish if he only believes in truth. Finally, I see Him using me to help Himself bring mankind to his “finest hour.” Man’s time has come. It is all so logical to see this and to believe that His message is that each of us has the power within ourselves to rise from the dead.

Yes, I see this and I know that no one (except Jesus Christ and His Mother Mary) has ever risen from the dead. (There is no difference between our Lord’s Resurrection and Mary’s Assumption.)

But it is totally illogical for me to believe that I, a lousy little pawn, a joe nobody, am going to be the first one to do so. I am not worthy of such a grace. (No one is.) I am not trying to be coy or self-effacing here. I am trying to be honest, for honesty is of God.

Surely, the first person who will rise from the dead is going to have to be a bishop or a knight. Surely, the first person to rise from the dead is going to have to know more about theology or be a member of the cloth or know more about science or about the law or about government or be somebody of importance. It cannot be just a nobody who does not even have any control over his own life.

Thus, I come to the conclusion that I must be a megalomaniac, a fool, a quack who is deluded by his own delusions of grandeur. For to believe that I, a lousy little pawn, a joe nobody, am going to be the first one to rise from the dead has to be a delusion of mega-proportions.

This latter becomes even more apparent to me when I try to get my theories published. Surely, someone other than me can recognize the importance of these theories. Someone other than me can see the magnificence in scientifically proving the exclusive divinity of Jesus Christ. But there is no one. Other than a few close friends, no one will believe me.

I have been told that I cannot mix science and religion. I have been told that there is no room in either the theological community or the scientific community for my fundamentalist views. (Let me repeat right now what I condemned in the preface to Alpha Omega: Fundamentalism is both a scientific and a theological heresy.)

So, for many years I kept quiet about my theories; especially about my belief that I would rise from the dead. (If they don't believe me about Genesis and the exclusive divinity of Jesus Christ, then how can I ever hope to convince them of my beliefs about my resurrection?) Therefore, I told only a very few close friends who could help me discern the truth of my beliefs.

But I am tired of keeping quite. I am tired of watching the wolves-in-sheep’s clothing (in all religions and faiths) distort the word of God. So as of lately (2004) I have been trying to get my third theory published. I have written to a few journals to inquire about publishing my theory about the scientific proof for the exclusive divinity of Jesus Christ.

I have received rejection letters from each one so far. I guess it’s not yet my time and place in the chess game of life. But I will try again. For I know that my theories are true and someday the cloud that presently envelops me will be lifted and then my theories will shine as the dawn of a new day, the eighth day.

Chess & Life