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9/02/01 Friday 9:42pm ##Ducks Rock & Hoola Hoop Queen##
today was pretty awesome people. after school i went over to my friend hayley's house and we decided we'd go visit a teacher from elementary school. it was great walking into the old place, i felt so much bigger and smarter. everything, all these memories of being there, i could almost see myself walking down the hallway with my friends, or standing on the stage performing... we didnt end up finding the teacher, so we went back and phoned a friend. he came to pick us up, went to Wal-Mart, and played around with toys and hoola hoops. it was fun. we found these coo duckie toys. were you push them along the floor, and they quack, so we dragged them all around the store. tomorrow i have the ACT test to take at school, i hope i score at least a 22 on that thing...thats my goal. 22. if i do worse then a 21, i'll have to jump off of an icecream truck or something..
11:13pm ##Riding shot gun##
alright, my parents got retarded and just made me find a ride for the ACT tomorrow. they said that they'd take me or some crap like that. theeen, at freakin 11pm at night they say "oh find your own ride" what kinda crap is that?!!! crappy crap. thats what. anyways..luckily i found a ride, my wonderful fabulous great great friend ashley is taking me. yay her!! lets all hope and pray that i do well on it...send out your good auora and thoughts people!! just do it!!! by da way. i made an aol homepage profiler thingy. just cause. me go nite nite now.

10/02/01 Saturday 2:20pm ##Nippy weather##
i took my ACT test this morning, and i hope i did well. there were some parts where i was just sooooooo sleepy. luckily i didnt dooze off, then afterwards my buddy muna gave me a ride home. we went to jack in the crack first though [[jack in the box]], and ate some kids meals. it'd be neet to go to da movies and see Snatch and HAnnibal. both of them i've heard are good, so yay!! im freeeezing cold right now. my mom turned the heater on, but its not helping me any. some lady at school once said that maybe im anemic. and that i should eat steak and drink wine. how gay. i think she was kinda weird...hahaha!! just saw a funny commercial..again. its like a preppy version of that "wuzzap!!?!!" commercial. its white dudes saying "what are YOU doing?!" how cute!! i want to have a puppy or a cute lil kittie cat, and a cool fish if i move into an apartment. give me something to do and take care of when im alone or something. i think i'd make a pretty groovy roomate. im not always hyper and talkative and yapping my head off. im actually pretty sane and calm at home. i'd bake tons of stuff, and make sure i clean up after myself. i wouldnt stink up the place either, and im tons of fun!!! =)
6:13pm ##Alvin, Simon, Theador!!##
sometimes remakes of tv shows or movies sucks. it upsets me that they often taint what used to be a great show. like..saved by the bell. great show, but come on!! do you haaave to keep on bringing in younger people? saved by the bell the new class..dear lord. how gay. ah well. im hungry like a mofo. did i mention that the other day my mommy became a US citizen? yep yep, she surely did. im happy for her and stuff, i told her to recite the pledge of allegiance to me. heehee. she refused and called me a mean name. lol. what a mommy i have. i always wonder if i missed out on having a more artistic kinda life. my parents never enrolled me in piano lessons, or art lessons. nothing, not even sports. mostly because we hardly had money...but i wonder if i'd be more of a "team player" or have more "school spirit" if i had those kinda things in my life...ahh yes. at least i grew up bilingual. :) que bueno!!
9:40pm ##I'm a dork, youre a dork, everyones a dork dork##
once in elementary school my mom forgot to give me lunch money. and i had this cute lil pink box full of pennies. i got my lunch, and when i went to pay, i was like "here's my money". she made me stand on the side and count out all the money. i hardly knew how to add at the time.. theres some family people here. i mean, my moms cousin and his wife and daugther and grandchildren. one of the little boys is sooo cute!! i was following him around and stuff, and he dropped his lollipop, i was gonna get it to wash it off, but he grabbed it first and put it back in his mouth. ha ha. how cute!!! iiiii wanna rock and roll alll night!! and party every day. okay. now. here goes a little story. there was once a boy who got mad because he felt everyone was mad at him for calling wolf. but everyone else knew that he never even called it. yet he was still upset cause he felt everytime he would try and call wolf, everyone would yell at him. if you want to call wolf , then fucking call it. dont give a shit what everyone else is goin to say in response to it. comprende??

11/02/01 Sunday 4:29pm ##Octopus Dreams##
yay me! i got to sleep in late today, i even went to bed earlier then usual. i went down around 11:30pm, i had been watching the Dixie Chicks on PBS, i think it was Austin Live or something like that...anyways, they were good. it was a rerun, cause i've seen it like 3 times already, but i like those gals a lot. anyhoo, then today i woke up talked to my cousin from Austin, and rescheduled my visit up there, it'll be great to see the campus and stuff. after talkin to her i ate some breakfast, then washed the dishes and cleaned up my room a bit. later on i'll probably wash some laundry, and i need to make..or buy valentines cards. i think it'd be fun to make them though, i just need to make sure and make enough for everyone. valentines day is so interesting...very. hallmark holiday most say. and yeah, it probably is. i like the fact that i get chocolate though. hee hee, and those awesome red heart lollipops, i love em!! yep yep yep.
6:09pm ##The Birds and the Bees##
My dad decided to have a "sex" talk with me. Hee Hee. I was sitting there with him in the kitchen eating fajitas and watching the Micheal Jackson movie, and he just pops out with "Jessica, your mother and i both know that you are a growing woman, and you have needs. Your mother is worried that you will have sex before marriage. Now, i am a bit more understanding then that, i think that it is okay for you to have sex before marriage, i wish you didnt though. But if you do, i want you to do it for love okay?" *i stare at him blankly for awhile* "dont worry dad, im still a virgin, and i have my own standards in life. i dont want to cheapen myself by having sex just to get it done and over with. i am goin to do it for love. i know i have some cousins and friends that are pregnant and such before marriage, or graduating, and i dont really want to turn out like that. so dont worry" hee hee. i should have freaked him out and said "dad im pregnant" but nahh, im sure he would have slapped me across the head for that one. :) later on tonight he said he'd take me out driving, cause i need the practice. i want to be able to drive my friends and i downtown for the concert, and since i've never driven in the dark, or in the rain...i might as well get some practice!! lets hope i dont crash the car or anything...i love you guys!!!
8:40pm ##Nervous & Paranoid Driver on Board##
okay, now tonight reminded me of why i dislike driving so much. I LOVE looking out and about in a car, and when you drive you totally have to pay attention to the road, lights, signs, other cars, etc etc. I knew all of that already, but i hate doing that. i hate it hate it hate it!!! anyhoo, i drove with my daddy in the van. the stupid shift thingy is the problem. the shift works fine, but on the car thingy..damn im great at explaining things arent i?? anyhoo, when you change shift, it doesnt show it on the car screen thing. it stays on P all the time. so you have to know when you change shifts, which one youre on, or else youre screwed. my dad only yelled at me 2 times, and for the same thing. i got too close to the curb on his side, and hey!! its not my fault!! this was my first time driving in OVER 9 MONTHS, and the VERY FIRST TIME DRIVING IN THE DARK!! the dark people!!! im not the best driver in the world. my mind works slowly when driving, im like "shit..i have to make a complete stop. okay. is this long enough? is it too quick? damn! turn turn turn!! nooo!!! that was too wide!! push gas!! you turned too slowly, damnit jessica! think think think!! I HATE DRIVING!!!!" as much as i need to know how to drive..i hate it. im going to avoid having to drive regulary as long as possible. its much nicer having people drive for me...hee hee. one thing that made driving tonight tolerable was that i had the radio on. i was singing to nirvana and some other cool groups. [thank you Buzz!!] and no. dont say "of course you had a hard time concentrating on the road jessica, you were singing to the radio the whole time" cause you know what idiot??!! i didnt even pay attention to the radio half the time. the only time i noticed what was playin was when i was driving straight in small neighborhoods. so there!! =P i wont have to drive my friends and i to the concert it seems. so thats GREAT!! cause i didnt want to be held responsible for killing everyone. hee hee. dont fret folks, im not going to give up on the practice of driving. i'll keep that up till im sure i'm comfortable enough on the road. next time im gonna attempt getting on the highway!! OoOo! [ yes i have my license and have had it for a few yrs now] So Stay Tuned To : The Driving Chronicles of Bacon :)
9:59pm ##Something in the way...##
i like updating. if you havent noticed by now. update update update!! i recommend that you people listen or download "paranoid" by black sabbath, and "something in the way" by nirvana. both very good songs. i think my dad asked to use the computer about an hour ago..hee hee, i havent gotten off though. ha ha ha. thats what he gets for yelling at me in the car!! i'm goin to bring crackers to school tomorrow..unless i forget. cause i always get hungry. notice how i start more then half my sentences with "i" ?? i'm too self absorbed...j/k. but i could be, and i am sometimes. okay. now you shall all have to get "about a girl" by nirvana too [[yes, im listening to my winamp.]] i remember when i was like 7 or 8 we went to Krogers, and i had a babysmurf doll that had a rattle. we were waiting for my dad to park the car or something like that, and i got bored. there were some drain pipes on the side of the wall, so i thought i'd put the baby rattle in there. when i tried to get it out it went even further back, so i layed on the floor to try and get a better grip of it. but it went further back and back and back and back till i couldnt even touch it with my pinkie. *sigh* I miss that rattle...

12/02/01 Monday 10:02am ##School House Rock##
im in school!! listening to ColdPlay..and everyone elses stupid crappy music is playing in the background as well. stupid people. blah. i hear napsta might be closing down...again. whats up with that?!! stupid coperate assholes. i likes me my free music!!! i never bought cds in the first place, so whats the freakin point?! hee hee. i brought crackers to school today so i could snack on them. yummy! haha, i brought my brothers copy of the coldplay cd.how funny. :) today im also wearing my free sparknotes.com t-shirt. yay me!! gots to represent ;) oh crap! i just remembered i gotta work a bit on my english project. c-you all laters mwa!
3:42pm ##Sleepy sleep##
*yawns* i am sleeeeeepy. i think i wanna go take a nap...im thirsty too. my damn house hardly has anything to drink. darn it people.
8pm ##Valentines Day...Brought to you by Hallmark�##
hiya folk! i did end up taking a nap, then a quick shower afterwards. i feel refreshed and good. i think if i was given 1 milliion dollars i'd do a hemroids commercial. totally!!! sign me up!! gimme a piece of that money!! ka-ching!! $$ hee hee. i like watching those Hallmark commercials that make you cry..awww....lemme go eat now. yay me!!
8:59pm ##dissapointed people##
alright, i just finished eating some yummy yum food. people are not batteries. you cant pop us in whenever you need us, and then throw us away when we've run out. and you cant just put us in a rechargeable machine and try to get us to work again. at one point on your life you must have had a stuffed animal or favorite something to calm you down and cry to when you were sad or upset. i think everyone should have one growing up, it doesnt have to be a stuffed animal, it could be a favorite couch, or book, or shirt. just something that you can go to regain your self composure again. without just a lil bit of stability in our lives, we go kaput. i never get most of my work done....if i wasnt online i wouldnt be doing it either. cause i'd just find other things to take up my time. [[ btw, MUNA!! you totally rock!! she is being so kind as to give me and my lil sis a ride home on wednesday so we wont have to suffer going to a prep-rally, thanks!!!]] urr...what else could i ramble about...maybe hospital waiting rooms. i've got a mix feeling about those places. sometimes they can be a bit interesting, if they have cable, and there are good people to talk to. or thing to do, but other then that...they suck. they have that same smell, and just waiting in there for anyone who is sick and injured is scary. when my uncle was in the coma for all those months about 2yrs back, all of our families spent a lot of time in waiting rooms. we would kinda camp out at those places. of course we were respectful of other people and families there. whenever we'd have lots of food there to eat we would share with other people. and we'd bring games and books too. in a way it brought all of our families closer together...*sigh* well, lemme talk about something else. how about me being perfectly fine with being single at this time in my life. i have the capability to get myself a guy, and not remain single, but i choose not to take that route just yet. sometimes i think.."oh yeah...i can get a boyfriend...i wont lose myself..it wont be like giving in..." but i know thats a lie. because when i go out with someone, i dont really want it to be a waste of time. maybe i ask for too much..but its not like asking the guy to be superman or my savior or future husband. ugh. stupid guys. i hate stupid dorky guys. well..hate is a strong word. lets just say they get on my nerves sometimes. i dont want to waste any of my precious time and energy on them. Oookay. Wrestling WWF WCW FAGS DUM all that other stuff that i've forgotten. [[wow, on some channel you can buy a 100 dollar coin for guess how much?? $999.98!! where is the fuckin sense in that?!]] anyways, that wrestling stuff....stupid. i used to be into it when it wasnt so hyped up, and had all that glimmery big tittied girls. now it seems much more ridiculous then i thought it was when i watched it. and people pay lots of money to go watch that stuff!! nuts. i'd rather go to a strip show. hee hee. ugh crap. tomorrow is tuesday..my dad and mom forgot to buy valentines cards from the store!! like i told them to do over the cellphone while they were in the store!! gee gad. some people need to have a gadget built into their head that reminds them of what their kids tell them over the phone. i need 3extra hours in this day...just cause.
10:22pm ##updates rock!!##
theres such a sad episode of "all in the family" on tv right now :o( okay anyhoo!! if i havent mentioned it before, my very spectacular friend Dee gave me 5..4...3 yes 3 t-shirts today!! hee hee. ;) they are awesome!! i loves em, and my mom likes them too, hee hee. now everytime i wear them, i'll think of Dee, cause she rocks. she's super nice to me, and i dont know why. but im glad she is. ooh! on Nick At Night in March they are going to show old 80's shows for 6 nights!! like Silver Spoons and Alf!! Awesome deal huh?? :) I should be going to sleep in awhile..im getting tired. and its getting late..and i didnt get anything done cause i took a nap, and stuff....yeah. i love you.

13/02/01 Tuesday 5:32pm ##all my dreams lost at sea..##
im a very understanding person. yeah, it looks like i let people walk over me, and maybe i do. but i k now that if i got upset easily i'd really hope that my friend would be so kind as to try and reason with me, or give me a second chance. second chances are hard to come by, and i dont want to keep on giving them out like coupons. "Walk Over Jessica Coupon". i have more friends then enemies, and maybe thats because my method has been workin well for me the past 18 years. i love all of you guys. i wont want to lose touch with ya'll, i'll find out where you live if i ever move, and give you my phone number and address. and go visit you whenever im able to. yep yep yep. but i really doubt that i'll be moving out of houston..blah, i wish i was. cause i'd like to try out new places.
11:35pm ##frustration can kill##
okay, im in my room updating real quick. went to wal-mart to get some candy for my friends. it was like a zoo there!! tons of people, saw a few guys from school, and gals too. i kept on telling my aunt "we need to leave, cause i have to finish my project" what does she do? take her long ass time, then say "lets go to taco bell, you hungry?" "No, not really" "okay, lets go" she says. so we go and order and i come home after 10, and she's like "take all the food, i dont want any i bought it for you" wtf?! i didnt ask for any of it, she is the one who ordered almost allll the food anyways. blah! so now im at home trying to do the rest of my stupid english prjoect, which im sure i'll do bad at, and fail the class with a D or F or some shit like that. gotta go . by the way, i love dee! hee hee

14/02/01 Wednesday 4:13pm ##tummy ache##
today felt like any other regular day, except there was way more candy and lots more hugs and people saying "i love you" valentines day is a trip i swear. had 3hrs sleep, stupid project...missed the bus. had an overall okay day. im very tired. i dont want to type any ramblings. im too busy talkin online to buddies. must spread the bacon love. ha ha ha. how funny.
7:28pm ##naps are good##
okie, woke up from my loong nap. i feel a bit mushy still...i hate how i wake up from my naps kinda cranky and not all here for awhile. totally unlike me. sigh. alright, im not ashamed to admit it, i watch dawsons creek people. and im watching it right now. good show. =P i was looking at some neet sites awhile ago...coool. i durno what else to say. so i should go. by tha way. radiohead rocks. dee rocks.
9:24pm ##ramen makes things better##
i made myself some ramen soup. it was chicken. not beef. beef is my favorite. i started feeling bored. very very bored. you know, that bored where you wonder "what the fuck am i doing online? i want to get off line...shit. theres nothing to do. i cant go out. shit shit shit!!!" yeah..i was going through that. the ramen soup calmed me down a bit. i started working on my economics study guide. i've got a test in there tomorrow which im sure i'll do badly at. im letting that stupid "senioritis" get to me. no. no im not. its just me. i cant use that as an excuse. im especially lagging in doing scholarship and college things too. i go into these slumps, i let myself get into them because my life becomes too redudant. too redundant to the point where everything that goes on feels and seems the same. i stopped working on my study guide. and started thinking about the people that are out and about tonight hanging out. that goes on every night. but tonight theres even more people, cause they want to take one month out of the year to prove that even though they are pretty shitty on every other day, they can make up for it somehow tonight. by just making it a magical night...then they can slowly go back into their normal selves. people. dont go around thinking im being all depressed because it is valentines day and im single, if you think that, then go fuck yourself.

15/02/01 Thursday 4:40pm ## i will remember you the way you are when no one is watching ##
hey people. today nothing happened...again. nothing hardly ever happens to me. ah well. as long as i remain interesting like someone said. im listening to the song "i will remember you" by sarah mclachlan. its so pretty, and its making me think about graduation..im sure towards the end of my school year thats all you'll see me type about. but hey, its a huge step in my life. today my cousin nana sent me a small package of stuff to get the feel for Austin and her college. hopefully i'll be accepted to the same college, that would be awesome, if not, some other school better take me in!! okie..anyhoo. i love all of my friends. no matter how bitchy, sad, weird, eccentric, outrageous they may seem to be.... they arent always that way at all. its just a front people put up. hell, im not always cute and sunshines and dandelions folks...i can be a bitch. hee hee. aight. im going to keep in touch with each fucking one of you okay??? im not promising that it will last forever, cause you never know what the hell will go on in our lives. but at least im making the attempt to still be friends. :) mwa!! it'd be neat if we all got promise rings for each other..you know to always remember and promise that no matter what we will always be friends. even if we lose contact for 10 yrs, if we see each other again, we will still have the rings and remember. :) ...im getting mushy arent i?? hee hee. okay, i'll stop. .
5:41pm ## the I list ##
i got one shoe on
i have to go do my taxes today
i feel much cooler then before
i updated my page
i love my friends
i am listening to rage against the machine "killing in the name"
i am occasionally turnin to the tv, Boy Meets World is on
i am feeling fine
9:51pm ## relief ##
i found out a friend of mine who was missing for a few days is doing alright now. thank god, i was so very worried about him. i love that boy so much, if anything had happened to him..goodlord. lemme change the subject before i get all emotional on you folk. uh earlier i went to get my income tax thingy, or whatever the hell you call it, done. right now i have 0 dollars. but in 6-8weeks i will have 93 dollars. yay me!! about 60 of that is going to be spent on paying people back, but 40 of that is for school things. so dont freak and think that i borrow a lot of money okay? *sigh* okay...so very glad he is back...

16/02/01 Friday 4:12pm ##shopping##
gonna be going ot the mall in a few minutes with my fave buddy, she's neat-o. uh..what else. stupid america and england attacked iraq, i dont want wars people!!! im too young to die right now!!! damn president bush....okay, aint got much to say. love you all, sorry that this rambling sucked ass. mwa!
10:35pm ## cold garages ##
went to da mall with my buddy, had a great time. tried on some clothes, like this cute school girl skirt, and a pretty shirt. i looked hot ;) hee hee. i saw this guy from church there too for a sec, he just came up to me to give me a hug, and said he had to be at work. so i let him on his way to AMC. i think that thongs would be so uncomfortable to wear, i swear to god i aint gonna ever wanna wear one of those things. if my boyfriend ever said "sweetie why dont you wear some thongs for me?" i'd say "you better be fucking kidding me. i'll do that once you stick a bat up your dick". yep. thats how i feel about that... after the mall we went to go visit a good friend, it was very nice seeing him again. i love that boy, he is great a guy. even though he has a fucked up life sometimes, and he makes bad choices, i still care about him deeply. im hoping things only get better for him. theeen, after that we went to some cold garage and were waiting for my ex-bf waldo to come so that him and my other ex-bf thomas could practice. yes. they are regular unleaded. so we waited for maybe an hour..he never came, and i froze my ass off. finally we made it back home, and overall it was a great night, i love that girl!!! i love you!!! ohh yeah, i missed wesley willis , he was in town tonight playing :( darnit!!