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columbus day...in 1492 columbus sailed the ocean blue. Hmm..i bet the water turned an ugly polluted colour soon after. this world is sooo polluted and messed up. but maybe i shouldnt be talking, i eat out of styrofoam plates and cups. so im just as bad as everyone else..*sigh* i went to katy mills mall this sunday, it sure was huge, and very colourful. I HATE THIS COLD WEATHER!!!!!!! you have noooo idea how easily i get cold, its crazy! my family thinks its insane how i get cold so easily, they refuse to put the heater on. How evil...im grounded for about a month now. why? because i hung out for 8hrs the other day with my boyfriend. is that such a bad thing?? No. they gave me permission to go out, and then they turn right back and say that 8hrs is too long. Ha! If it were up to me, i would never come home. dont get me wrong, i appreciate all my family does for me, and i know that their crazy way of protecting me is showing that they love me...but maybe i'd be better off on my own. im sure then i'd probably actually get off my ass and do stuff. but for now..im just being the failure that they expect me to be. nobody's life goes the way they want it to though...i still have to come to grips with that. why is it that before when i had no problems and not a lot of stress,i thought life was going my way??? i was blind. i am blind. and i'll continue to be blind till i figure out exactly what it is im doing. If someone gives you a direction in order to make your life easier, i think i might take it. It sure does beat taking a detour and then ending up in the same spot you were in the beginning. Right? Then again, i could be wrong, and along the detour you learn a lesson. Blue eyes are gorgeous! I just thought i'd say that. :) Hee hee. Dunno what else to say.except that my friends rawk, and i hate school. word. ^_^ im such a dork!!
Like a rolling stone...La dee dah dee dah! This world if so full of technology..they should invent something that could make me shut up. Hee hee. Sometimes i talk too much, and most of my friends know this. I keep my promises and dont tell secrets that people have confided in me, thats something people shouldnt worry about. But the things that go on with me *laughs* I am just so stupid. :) Im Bacon Slut!! This face of mine...it might look innocent, but ya know. Im no mother theresa. No siree...Good luck to anyone taking the SAT this saturday!!! Im sure ya'll will do fine! And oh yeah, i've been kinda addicted to playing this computer game called RollerCoaster Tycoon, Its awesome! Gives me control and power!! Muahahahahahahahahahahahaha! OH my mother fuching!! My sister just informed me of some shocking news. She is taking some confirmation classes at church, and ya know what?? They actually gave her homework! When i was taking the class we did have homework, but not like the kind she just told me!! ITS crazy!! They have to write a paper on a saint, and then the head of the department said it is MANDITORY to dress up as a saint on halloween! thats a load of BS! manditory my ass!! you know what i told her?? I said "just show up w/one glove and say youre the king of pop micheal jackson!" hee hee. Hell, i sure as heck wouldnt do that crap. That has ABSOLUTELY NOTHING to do with confirmation!! OKay. Im pissed....i should calm down. collect myself..and try and act ghetto! I'd like to make a shoutout to all my peeps out there! Hee hee Just kidding! ^_^ I should just stop here. since im not sure what the hell i'll say next. im sure it wont be pretty...
i've got a headache, i was in my room trying on some wacky/tacky type clothing. its dress up week at school next week. i never dressed up all the past 3yrs, but i figured what the heck. its about time i have an excuse to look stupid..er. my parents and i had a talk about a lot of things, for almost 2hrs. i guess it helped out alot, we understand each other a lot more. but now my mom is making me clean up the house a looooot. just so i can go to fall jam. *sigh* i have a big mouth. seriously, im just going to shut up, and not say anything anymore. fucccccccccccccck! im getting this weird pain in my right arm. im stopping.
Hmm..it seems one of my friends might be missing, i havent heard from her in a long time. Im sure she'll turn up sometime..i guess she just needs some time. Well, it seems page builder got some nifty new things added to it. Hence the floating words, etc etc..No. If you thought for a second that im some sort of Web Masta, you are mistaken. *laughs* It just takes some practice, and messing up a lot to learn how to work this stuff. My friend Dee made my hair look cute today. I wish i knew how to do more stuff to my stupid hair. I think that's why im going to cut it a bit short, just up to my shoulders i think. Whew! I just tried on these 2 pretty dresses that used to belong to my neighbor. *laughs* My parents were like "wow! you look sexxy!" hee hee, whats that suppose to mean?!! =O Noooo!! hee hee. they are pretty dresses though...i wonder if there will ever be a chance to wear them...la dee dah dee dah. T.V isnt as great as i used to think it was....odd. Halloween is coming up !! Yay! CAndy!! ^_^ What else...urr..this is homecoming week. tomorrow im staying after school to finish up an art assignment, then see if i can help the art society decorate the hallway, and then help out a bit with the senior class mural. *sighs* so much! Lucky for me i dont have to hurry up and read the book 1984, our test was changed to next week!! Yessss! :) I wish i was eating lasanga now....*grin* Do i hear thunder outside??? Good lord! If its gonna be a raining..then thats just strange. Urr. OH MY GOD! THAT WAS THUNDER!! hee hee. That's awesome!! ^_^ Maybe i'll stop workin on the page, in case the power goes out. I Love you all!! And i'd just like to say that RADIOHEAD rawked on SNL this weekend!! :) I LOVE EM I LOVE EM I LOVE EM I LOVE EM!!!!!!!!!!!!!
My 18th b-day is exactly one month from today!!!!!!!! yay! Ahem *coughs* Anyways, back to normal ramblings..I was talking to my friend Jen on the phone today, and i just remembered about the cat that we used to have. It was a black cat [from hell!!] called Blacky. I didnt like it because it was evil...now all you animal lovers dont look at me all weird, i do like animals, just not this one. So i used to punt her, which i know didnt hurt like at all, b/c i did it a lot and sometimes she would come back to me and let me do it again. :) BUT what i rememebered about her was that she was a slutty cat, she slept with probably all the guy cats on the block! And how do i know you ask???? Simple. She was fucking loud when she was getting it on!! GAwd, it was soooo annoying! I would sometimes go to the backyard and scream at her to shut up. All would get really quiet, and the cats would scramble off. Then i'd close the door and walk back in and next thing i know "MEEEEOOOOOWWWW!!!" Arg! I like dogs more then cats i think...yeah. Its all due to Blacky. [no offense to cat lovers] Today i stayed after school to matt this painting that i had weaved. After that i tried helping out with the Senior class mural, but i couldnt stay that long b/c my brother was going to pick me up. So far the mural looks like it could be pretty good. Tomorrow i'll stay after to help on it even more. It seems this weekend i might be going to a wedding in Mexico. Some 2nd cousin of mine is getting married, and my parents really want to go. Some of my cousins are going, so it'd be pretty nifty to hang out with them en mexico! Hee hee. I do wanna go..and then i dont. If i go i think i might even have to miss the homecoming game, and i wanted to go to that to take pics of the partners kids. *sigh* Well, whatever happens I'll be sure to write about it. *Huge grin* As always my chickadees! Hee hee. Im such a goof! Love ya! Mmmmmwa!
ps. CHEESECAKE ROX!!!
What a day what a day...actually the day is still going on. *grin* it's around 1:56pm, and im sitting here working on my site a bit. My mommy went to mexico to see a cousin of ours get married. My sister and i didnt have to end up going afterall. Yesterday was a very interesting and enlightning evening. It was our homecoming football game, and my friend Ashley and i went to it. The halftime show was hilarious!! The other school we were playing against had the lamest show! Ours rawked! :) hee hee. There were TOOOOO many people at the game i swear! And all those heifers with their mums and cowbells! Damn! Whats up with that tradition???? Its nuts i say. I hadnt hung out w/ashley in a long time, its great. We made Ramen soup at her house and called up my boyfriend and acted really stupid. Hee hee. ashley you are da bomb!! ;) Oh si, today is my 3 month anniversary w/my boyfriend thomas. Yay! He is too sweet i swear. Well, this weekend since my mom is away i'll just be cleaning, reading all of 1984, and try to work on my gvt. project. *gags* Gvt sucks dude. Hmm...Dunno what else to add. How am i doing right now in my life?? Lets see..i think im doing alright. Everyone else around me isnt doing so well, i know too many people that are feeling really crappy in their lives right now, and that makes me sad. :( but aside from that, im doing okay. I feel like i can use a nap though....Maybe i'll go take one.
Ah, a holy holy day. "Remember the Sabbath day" And did i today? Well, i remembered that it was a holy day, but i did not go to church. Am i going to burn in hell?? hee hee. I like banana pudding. Yep yep yep. Its yum. Our senior class is doing a fundraiser, we have to sell like pens and office type stuff. It's all very nice looking. Of course i have no money so i cant buy crap of it. Im a horrible sells person, my plan is to be slutty. Hee hee. that should bring in some sales right? least i hope so. *grin* My mom went to mexico, and she got back today. she said all my relatives were asking about me and stuff, how nice. Im watching a commercial, darn. I hate making mashpotatoes from real potatoes. Having to peel them, then mash them and mash them and mash them. GAWD!!! its so annoying and frustrating...I love my friends. i really do. I love em to bits, so please excuse me if im not trying hard enough to be SuperWomen all the time. I think its better to help myself out before i try and take on other peoples problems. I know someone who doesnt understand that yet....*ahem!* And i've got proof to back that up, Oprah says so! Hee hee. ^_^ She rox!! Ah yes, once again i'd like to state [unless i havent yet..weird] that my 18th b-day is Nov. 17th!! All i want for my b-day is to know that i am loved. And lucky me..i already know i am. Not sure what else to write. Hopefully this week will be a good one...for everyone.
why am i typing in small print? i'll tell you why. because i love it. and if it bothers you, then tooo bad. well, today my stomach hurt a lot. but thats okay, i kinda solved that problem. i just ate a lot of sugar. hee hee. 2 pixie stick straws!! i love those things!! they make the world go round and round. *grins* lets see what i did today....i went to school..ate sugar...flashed a friend....read a book...took a small nap...then came home. thats bout all i did today. what i do at home isnt really of any importance, its the same bs everyday. earlier today my mom was talking to me about the wedding in mexico, she said a lot of relatives were asking about me and stuff. i hope she didnt say anything embarassing or dumb. i mostly go to weddings for one thing. the food. *laughs* stupid huh? im not a dancer, i dont know how to, nor do i really plan on ever learning how. i can slow dance, thats about it, and thats all i should really know how to do. Oooooooookay, there are some VERY fucked up people in this world. i just thought i'd say that. and half of them are probably online. yep yep yep. I think that i should shutup now. not only do i have nothing left to say, but i also am feeling hot and wanna take a nice cold shower. yes siree. love ya lots!! mwa!
I knew that today was Tuesday, but i have this strong feeling that tomorrow is also tuesday...how can that be?? *shrugs* oh well, maybe im too messed up from so much fun. *smiles* i went over to my friend ashley's house to study the book 1984. i did read some of the book, but then we just made ramen soup and watched movies. hee hee. like the girls we are. *laughs* my parents are having our hallway bathroom all like..redecorated or something like that. putting in new tiles, etc etc...its taking too damn long i say!!! am i repetitive in my ramblings?? honestly. please do tell me, that is if you've ever read most of them. cause if you dont, then i dont give a crap what you say. hee hee. ^_^ this week is busy busy busy for me! i hope i can keep my head on my shoulders...BLAH!!!!!!! okay okay okay okay! let me try and calm down right now...i need to concentrate on what is going on now. and what i need to accomplish now...talktoyoualllater...
::little to do list for this week::
1. sign up for SATs
2. study for 1984 test on wednesday
3. study to test out of speech class
4. set up for Fall Festival party on Friday
5. try and start doing my goverment project
6. pray to god that my parents will let me go to the Fall Jam concert
[at this time i would like to encourage each and every one of you to pray along with me. or at least send out good vibes. thanks! love you!]
i hung out with some really funny people today, they made my day much better then it was going. then i got home, and it went all downhill again. and then i talked it out with my mom, and it went back to the middle. im doing much better now again. :) strange. i feel somewhat like a tv show. my problems got fixed in the span of one day. well...........not really. i still have problems. the chances of me going to Fall Jam are higher now, and that makes me happy. very. Im watching tv...that movie about the jackson family. good movie. the jacksons are coo yo! hee hee. i need to kick the habit of saying "yo" lemme answer a few questions..
[favorite season] i think maybe fall..its not too hot, and not too cold. also my allergies dont really start up till the end of fall
[favorite holiday] duh! thanksgiving, hello! i love to eat, and so i love this holiday. even though i have to help with the cooking, and thats torture, because i want to eat it the minute i finish making it...and yet i cant! ugh!
[name some phobias] sharks. just look at their evil eyes! pure black = EVIL!, being in a very cramped place where i can hardly breath, flying, confrontation, people throwing things at me really quickly,
[bad habits] biting my nails, fluttering my eyelashes a lot when ppl are talking to me, rambling on for too long, being tooo quiet, biting my lip, giving away my change, going into a depression for stupid reasons, overexaggerating, over dramatizing...repeating myself
[Other] cupcakes. i love them. but. i do not like chocolate cupcakes too much, why? because they make me want to drink milk REALLY badly. and sometimes the icing doesnt go with the taste of chocolate. i love cupcakes with frosting, if it doesnt have frosting, it is not a cupcake!!! it is a muffin!! i love them with sprinkles, candy, whipcream, a cute lil candle to blow out. but please. none of those hard silver ball sprinkles, those suck. and no peanut butter, or dark chocolate crap. i hate that! i think i should write a "how to make a cupcake perfect" and "how to eat a cupcake perfectly" :) hee hee. that'd be awesome....*grins* goodnight. im tired. *yawns*