| ::my ramblings:: |
| 11/5/00 Sunday I keep thinking that today is Saturday..but it is Sunday...right..I saw Charlies Angels today, it was pretty cool. :) The chicks were hot in it! I liked Cameron Diaz the best, her character was like really ditzy...reminded me a lot of how i am sometimes. *goofy grin* There are a lot of movies coming out on my b-day *coughs* ;) which is coming up soon...hee hee. Nahh, im not gift greedy. Like i've said..all i want is a cupcake and some lovin. Hee hee. Oh yeah! i dont know if i failed to mention that i do not consider "chocolate cupcakes" to be cupcakes. Oooo, i was just remembering about the pizza from new york city. Yes. I actually got to eat a slice of pizza in nyc, made in nyc!! It was big! yum yum yum. I want to eat one right now! mmmmmpizza....*drools* hee hee. :) Dang. I really dont wanna go to skewl tomorrow... school is so boring and routine. *Sigh* Cute. I love that word. Cute. OTHER WORDS/PHRASES I LIKE: weird/ stupid/ dumbass/ dork/ sucks ass/ retard/ pretty/ cute/ no/ maybe/ like/ uhmm/ right/ yep Dats about all that i can remember, i'll be adding more later. :) Yep yep yep. Alright, i'll just finish up here and carry on with my life and stuff...*laughs* like i have one! hee hee |
| 11/6/00 Monday Some friends of mine and i went to go visit 2 friends today. it was cool, when we left both houses we were all given parting gifts! isnt that just so cute and awesome? Hee hee. Im really pretty tired..*yawns* It is about 11:31pm, and i havent gotten much sleep lately. *yawns again* Maybe its because im too weird, and stay online even though there is no real point to it...hee hee. *listens to Rape Me by Nirvana* Great song. :) *yawns again*....Okay. that is it. I am going to bed! I'm not keeping my sorry ass up late at night to wait for more people to talk to! Okay?! Okay! Blah! Love you all though! I really really do! ^_^ Hee hee. |
| 11/7/00 Tuesday Im sooo excited!! Because i learned how to make a survey thingy on my site!! It'll be up soon. I kinda stole most of the questions from this other chicks site..hee hee ^_^ Shhh!! didnt hear that from me..Eee!! I have to write 2 speeches tonight. i work best at night. *grin* I know im going to screw it allll up! *Laughs* Isnt that great? And all of you will get to hear about it!! Or maybe even see me go nuts and spiral into a deep depression at school!! Woohoo!! I think this is exciting. *laughs again* :) Uhm..what else...i wish i werent broke. I figure, maybe 18 is a good age to start changing things around. Get up off my ass and move around..but im not too sure. I could do it now if i wanted, but...eh. =\ Why cant i have a cute lil puppy? I think if i had a cute lil puppy of my own in my own apartment, i'd have more control of my life. I'd get a job to pay the bills, and for the doggy and such. I wouldnt be online as much either. Which is good, because it absorbs all my time!! Im not kidding. Im probably addicted to this thing..if you see me online all the time, you know what i mean. Im probably speaking from my butt right now. Im not too sure what i am saying. Gawd am i hungry!! Maybe i'll get off..go eat...then try and actually do my school work! If i did that..would you be proud of me? |
| 11/8/00 Wednesday yesterday was election day, and today they have yet to announce who won the most electoral votes...hence. no new president for our freakin USA yet. so far it looks like al gore is winning. blah blah blah. im kinda glad this is going on, because i had this huge goverment project due about the election. and we cant finish it until we know who the winner is! *laughs* so its just great news for me. ahh yes. oooh, another good thing. my speech test is tomorrow, not today. so i got an extra day to write my speeches. and i really really will. just not now. hee hee. my mommy is making chicken in the kitchen, and my birthday is next week. things are looking a bit more up today..just got some song called "el arabi" by Khaled. its pretty cool. :) hee hee. thanks muna!! what else...this weekend i aint really got nothing planned. im going to a football game on friday with my friend thomas, but thats about it for now. maybe i'll get to work on my goverment project, and maybe some college stuff too. yep yep yep. that sounds good to me. blah. i should get off soon. i'll start trying to get off earlier. i think it'll be good for me...[course that doesnt mean i can get back on later on at night! ;-)] *smooches!* |
| 11/9/00 Thursday *sigh* today i took that speech test..i failed it. Hee hee. go figure. at least i dont have to waste my time writing 2 pointless speeches [bang bang!!] ;) *huge grin* i guess things happen for a reason, if i was meant to pass it, then i would have gotten the nerves to study more, and actually write the speeches..right? yes. i am right. because i am god. *laughs* im so full of it sometimes. its great! hee hee. urr..what else. i didnt get to eat any meat at lunch today!! noooooooo, i love meat. ;) hehe. all i ate was some crackers, chips, and a zinger. *laughs* sounds funny..zinger. anyhoo, that stupid florida, all dem old people and mickey mouse!! i blame THEM!! for this stupid presidential crap thats going on. i say that if they dont announce the winner due to stupid ballots..that they make both leading candidates take it out on a wrestling floor! yeah!! last man standing wins!! woohoo!! there is a friend of the families here at the house right now, they are in the living room singing and playing on the keyboard *laughs* he is a priest, we call him Paco Taco. :) He is coo. Yoink! I love that noise sometimes. Yep. I reallllly want to eat chinese take out...damn! why cant i now!?! *SIGH* maybe later... |
| 11/10/00 Friday Why does today suck? Yeah it does. All of my plans have been changed over and over again. Arg! Not fair man. *sigh* I guess I'll get by though.....just wish it'd get better. Damn it!! I had to memorize that stupid Hamlet sililoqouy...To be, or not to be, that is the question; whether tis nobler in the mind to suffer the slings and arrows of outrageous fortune...etc etc etc. Blah blah blah. I'm sure Hamlet could have simply put it as "my life sucks. i suck. should i keep on sucking? maybe. maybe not." gotta go. food here. |
| 11/12/00 Sunday If you havent noticed by my first page..im not in the best of moods. Dont blame radiohead. Although their music is very depressing sounding..i like hearing it. Everyone, everything. We are all depressed. We all lead a "good" life. Some better then others. The ones whose life usually seem the best, the ones with the cars, the money, all the great friends...It's getting harder and harder for them to hide how they really feel behind those jokes, laughs, smiles...I'm like that. I make jokes, i act cute, say ditzy things, smile, laugh..Only some people really notice when im really quiet and just staring...staring at other people. Trying to get by undetected. Dorky People. They rawk. Im sure they've got problems too, but not as many as others. Cause most of them dont try to fit into a certain category, hence leaving them to be in the dorky one. Hmm..i need to get out of the house. Its not good for me to stay locked up in here doing nothing, and feeling more and more depressed. I need to hangout with some friends. And not the ones that are making me think too much about whats going on in my brain...*sigh* Like the bunnie. I too must try to hop along. ::many hrs have passed and im writing again:: im having a hard time communicating with my parents. im sure all of you can understand. both sides are stubborn as hell, as am i. i have to go to church with them, they are practically making me. they said i dont have to go, but if i dont, i know they will blackmail me. not let me go out later on with friends or something. another thing. im looking at myself in the mirror. i've gotten way too thin, my hair is starting to fall out. either im A) dying. B) have some sort of disease or C) am stressing too much. I think it is C. i want to get out of the house tonight, just so i wont have to really think about it. and so i can spend some time with a friend. will they let me?? we are debating that now. i doubt they will, but im not going to go down with out a fight. i told my mom to schedule me an appointment w/the doctor to check out about my health. and she says no. that its not necessary. and i said "mom, im getting way thin, and my hair" and she just said "no, its not really necessary, that can be solved" wow. how helpful . its all stress stress stress stress stress stress stress stress. im going to drive myself crazy!!! |
| 11/15/00 Wednesday Yo! I went to that poetry experience thingy today, it was much cooler then last time. We got to share a lot more poetry, and eat pizza! Hee hee, i had a blast. :) Even though last night i only had uhm..3 hours of sleep!!! I was up late working on my government project. Im such a procrastinator i swear! Its horrible..*grin* Ah yes, the last time i worked on my page was sunday, the day of misery and depression. I have somewhat moved on from that. i figure why dwell again on such matters? Just live life and breath. [by the way, that stupid presidential election is still going on. they should just dump them both in a well!!] Blah. Well tomorrow is thursday, and that'll make it 1 day till my b-day!! Wow! i cant believe i'll be 18...such a wonderful age to be. i can now..buy cigarettes [i dont smoke], buy porn [no comment], go clubbing [never really been my scene], vote [ha!], be considered an adult [tell that to my parents!], hire a stripper!! [woohoo! ;)] *huge grin* Im sure whatever it is i end up doing on my b-day i'll be happy. Even if i just end up coming home and taking a nap. .....although that would kind of suck. I wanna write a poem now. [dont steal it!!] its cold outside and im cold in here as well i cant stop all this itching on the walls everyones on away and im stuck here alone shouldnt this be a time for conversing about sex, life, or both? why isnt there someone here to hold? bah! it's moments like these that make feel me old i'll end up withered and tired from laughing so much im only 17 going on 18 and soon i'll turn into mold like the mold on the donuts my mom served me for lunch ...eww =P |
| 11/16/00 Thursday I know i have this quiz tomorrow in english over some acts in Hamlet...i havent even read act one in hamlet. hee hee. im screwed. ^_^ oh well....tomorrow is my 18th b-day and i feel fine. today was...well weird. hee hee. i kind of ruined anybody's plans of throwing me a surprise b-day party, that really sucked. but everyone says not to feel bad about it...im trying not to. its pretty hard. *sigh* Lemme see what else..i was going to see our schools production of Taming of the Shrew..but plans were scratched. And now tomorrow im having this lil shin-dig at mi casa. a few people will come over, and we will eat food, watch movies, have conversations..maybe put on some music and dance like dorks. hee hee. Im sure it'll be great, hopefully everyone will get along. *grin* Me so sleepy...*yawns* I think i'll go to bed in awhile..yep..nice bed mmmmm. yay! my friend ashley is sleeping over tomorrow!! for joy! she's awesome! ^_^ this one line of a song keeps going through my head...i forgot the name of the song, but its by radiohead. "yesterday i woke up sucking a lemon, yesterday i woke up sucking a lemon, yesterday i woke up sucking a lemon, yesterday i woke up sucking a leeeemoooon" Yeah. =| |