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>>march 6 tuesday 8:06pm * Rape My Mind *
today started off like every other day... and seems to be ending up like all the others as well. just kidding. i kinda felt like making this sound like a story. i bet you folk are sick and tired of having me make page after page after page of ramblings... or maybe not if youre still interested in reading up on me. why is it that sometimes i hate being referred to as "completely innocent" and shit like that? im like "well im not completely innocent" and i wont go out of my way to prove it or anything... strange. tomorrow morning at around 2am i will be awoken by rachel cause she's gonna be going to seattle. she's been here for like a week i think.. its been interesting having her around. so many life stories i've heard and shared.. its neat. i havent been trying to remember most of my dreams lately, something which i used to really value and crap. maybe i'll try doing that later on this week. i like the black look on my page. its not that im really morbid or anything, or unhappy.. cause im not really either of the two.
9:26pm * Hello, I love you Wont You Tell me Your Name *
the doors rock ass. did anyone hear the rumor , or who knows it could be truth, about Lil Bow Wow. this rapper whose like 10 or something like that, apparently he was buttraped by his bodyguard! :-O shocking!! i couldnt help but laugh at it, im sorry people, but as horrible a thing it is..i couldnt help but see some humor in it. thats what makes the world go round sometimes, seein the humor in bad situations.

>>march 7 wednesday 3:29pm * Dumb and Jaded *
alright, i just ate some pizza and im stuffed. i need to be losing weight for prom... which is in maybe 2 months or 3, not quite sure. either way as long as i lose 5-8lbs i'll be fine. not that im fat or anything, its just that the dress needs to fit me, and im wearing the one my cousin wore to her prom last year. its very pretty. ...the cosby show rocks people... uh today started off pretty cool, i was just too tired to really appreciate it even more i think. im not sure whats going on with me... someone said that maybe im coming down with the cold, but im not sure. i have been having a stuffed nosed for awhile, and i get cold even more easily then i usually do. so rachel woke me up at 2am this morning, she jumped into my bed and started sayinG "hey jess!! wake up!! im leaving!!" i gave her a big hug and told her i'd miss her, etc etc..all that other goodbye shit. then she left. she said it'd take her 2 days to get to seattle by bus, i hope she's alright right now. im thinkin maybe i should add more pics to paul's page, cause he showed me some more, and they are spiffy! i've gots to go now...
4:49pm * :-( *
right now im feeling a lot of guilt and like a complete fuck.
6:43pm * All Better Now *
im feeling much more better now, i talked things out with my friend, and then i had some surprise visitors come over!! they really cheered me up a whole lot. i was so thankful that i started just giving them a lot of stuff from my room "here take this and that and this and that" hee hee.
9:45pm * Updating Frenzy *
woah folks, ive updated too much today. but they arent too lengthy though... lemme see whats going down. so many emotions in the span of a few 7 or 8hrs... i tell ya, i have cried, laughed, yelled, smiled, frowned... eh, all that other emotional stuff. believe me... its no picnic. but things have calmed down now somewhat, not as much tension or frustration or anger or sadness. hm, i've had more then one of these kinda days. but today was probably one of the worst, cause the pissed part was strong. i wanted to beat someone up or something like that. "im a highschool lover... and your my favorite flavor... love is all.. all my song.. youre my playground love.." cool song. :) listen to AIR they is da coolest. hee hee. i should go take my shower now.. "yet my hands are shaking... i feel my body reeling.. times no matter.. im on fire.. on the playground love.."

>>march 8 thursday 5:40pm * Thursday I'm in Love *
spring break starts in about 2 days i think. im sure i wont go out looking for a job, even though i'd like to, and i know i should. on the 15th, [that's a thursday] im probably going to be going to Austin with my buddy Hayley and my brother alan. the band bonfire madigan is playing, its suppose to be some killer rock stars kinda performance i heard. so that should be neat. road trips are tons of fun!!!! and i've never really taken a long one without my parents around. hee hee. there are some real assholes out in this world. lemme tell you that.. im a nice person. and when i consider someone to be an asshole, or even just a lil bit of an asshole, that means im telling ya the truth. i wouldnt really lie to you people. lying always leads to more problems and delays in things. urk. i durno what else to write about.. the end.
7:43pm * slowing down *
right now im probably not living up to my duty as a good girlfriend or something. i havent called up my boyfriend today to say hello or anything. but i talk to him everyday anyhoo. he'll understand. right now im just being lazy and thinking and listening to music. im sure i can be entitled to that at least. im sure he is doing the same, seeing as he hasnt tried to call me either. my friend diana and sarah both have a livejournal thing. so i thought i'd get one. aside rom writing on here in full depth about things, im just going to put that lil livejournal thing. here it goes if ya wanna see it. im sure muna will read it, cause she always reads my ramblings ;)
9:11pm * ouchie *
my tummy hurts. i think im dying.. i've been tired for weeks lately. do i have mono? or maybe i've been impregnanted by an alien and its going to come out soon. thats a good possibility, i think its still raining outside.
9:58pm * theres something wrong *
yeah. im tired now. i want to go to bed.

>>march 9 friday 4:55pm * assholes & their wanting to censor me *
i like my opinions. sometimes i dont even give a crap if i know they are completely wrong, cause hell! at least im sticking up for something right?
8:06pm * missing things *
urk, i never put anything under here. anyhoo. i took off that people dislike thing from my page..or at least the contents that were underneath it. sorry people, i know a few of you [me as well] saw the humor in it. but of course i suppose it was a "mean" thing to do, because i didnt fully take into consideration how thomas felt. then again.. there are millions of websites where women, and men bash people they hate, and give away their address, phone numbers, or sometimes even credit card numbers. blah blah blah.. i durno what else to say. just that it upset me as much as it probably upset the other person.
11:22pm * is it late? *
i was doodling online, and then bam!! rachel comes online, our buddy that was staying with us for a week or something. im glad she got to her destination in one piece. :) most people started their spring break vacations early today... i wonder what neat places they'll be going to.. im going to mostly be stuck here at home doing nothing. just clean clean clean, and i should be working on my economics project.. usually i leave projects undone till the night before they are due. hmm.. would i make a good wife? i mean.. i probably am a good companion in the sense that i'll have great conversations with you, and have fun with you too if we go places.. but im not a great cook, i can bake a lot. [ha ha] i hate washing the dishes, but i do enjoy cleaning up. especially if its someone elses home. heehee. i cant really fix anything ... but i can sing pretty and do cute little dances. so maybe i would make a good spouse... neat-o. im going to miss some of the people that are away on spring break :'(