Dreaming of Tricia

BY Sandi DeMars

I had a dream while sleeping one night
shortly after Tricia took flight
I saw Tricia, happy as could be
walking home, home to me.

with her usual bounce and a grin ear to ear
my darling daughter said, Hi, mom, I'm here.
I tried to hold her, as I often had done
but she was not solid, and my tears had begun.

I asked her of heaven, she smiled as she said
"there IS a heaven, just not as we've read.
there IS a God, it's wonderful too
but there was something I needed to do"

I told her "I'm sorry for yelling that day"
she said, "I know, mom, don't cry, it's ok."
she stayed for a day, always by my side
but she seemed unhappy, deep down inside.

Finally, I asked her, why had she come?
when her journey to heaven had just begun?
She told me she felt that I needed her there
and I longed to hug her, to stroke her hair.

and with all my heart, I told her "no."
that I understood it was her time to go.
That I would be fine, I loved her so much you see
I couldn't keep her from peace just to be with me.

and I told her to go, back to her eternal reward
and that I'd see her in heaven, God, it was so hard.
and she smiled, and said, I love you so much
and I yearned, so badly for one little touch.

and she hugged me, and I felt her love
and a light shone down from the sky above
and she walked away, smiling, her soul flying away
and I heard her calling, I'll see you again someday.