It
can be very lonley to be the only person you know that practices such an
ancient religion. You may feel you have no one to talk to.
Talking to the Goddess is wonderful but you may feel lost in a sea of mainstream
spirituality.
I am not here to tell you what to believe. I feel that my role is to give you the tools and techniques for you to use to find your own spiritual path. Everyone had a different path, some are straight while others wander.
For the solitary practitioner I especially suggest you learn to do shamanic journey work, so you can talk to the Goddess, Herself. You may want to contact the Foundation for Shamanic Studies too.
Book
Suggestions:
The
first one I would sugguest would be The
Mysteries of Isis - Her Worship and Magickby
DeTraci Regula (published by Llewellyn Publications). It gives a
Universal view of the worship of Isis. She gives lots of pracital
things, prayers, rituals, tools and how to make them, recipes and a whole
host of things.
The second book would be Awakening Osirisby Normandie Ellis because it's the most beautifully written version of the Ancient Egyptian Book of the Dead . And it makes the most sense in a spiritual way. You may also want to pick up Budges version to compare it to.
If you feel you need more ritual examples try Feasts of Light - Celebrations for the Seasons of Life by Normandie Ellis, which specialize on the Goddess Mysteries, and An Ancient Egyptian Book of Shadows by Jocelyn Almond and Keith Seddon. They give Ancient Egyptian rituals for the eight pagan Sabats. These rituals were compiled from sources like the Pyramid Texts, Coffin Texts, and The Papyrus of Ani.
When doing any research, try and keep in mind who your source is. Most archeologists do not look at their findings in a spiritual manner, merely a scholarly one. They are also probably coming at it from a Christian perspective, which the farther you go back in time is increasingly belittling and callous. Don't get me wrong, we depend on these Archeologists to bring us the facts, but make your own conclusions as to what those facts mean. Interpret them from a spiritual perspective.
After those things it all depends on what you're interested in. On the Books page you'll find many books to choose from.
If you're very serious and committed to the priest/esshood, I suggest any and all books by RA and Isha Schwaller de Lubicz. Particularly the Her-Bak books by Isha. Those books take you through the process that an Ancient Egyptian adept would go through. R.A.'s books are just as good but they're more philosophical. These two lived for 15 years at the Temple at Karnak, studying it's architecture and heiroglyphics.
You should keep your own Book of Shadows, write down what you did during each ritual, as well as comments on how it went, what you liked and what didn't work. All of your rituals should have the intent of becoming closer to the divine: Isis, Herself! It's less important that you worship Her just like the Ancients did. If you felt the connection, it was just great!
My last suggestion is to read everything you can get your hands on. There is an awful lot, and if it seems to overwhelm you, as to what to read and when, let Isis decide. Go to the library or bookstore. I have found 2 sections especially helpful: Metaphysics and History. Sometimes you can find things under Speculation and Art. Open your mind to Isis, try to make a firm connection with Her. Let her lead you to the appropriate section, or try them all - which ever you prefer. Take your right hand and move it along the spines of the books, about a centimeter away. You will feel a slight electric pull toward one book. Let your fingers touch that book. Pick it up in your left hand. Put your right hand out again. If you got the right book, you won't feel the pull in that area anymore. The more you practice, the better you'll get.
Feel
free to email me if you have questions, or if you disagree with anything
written here. Crystal.