PoemCollection: Lyrics Author: Lisa Loeb # THE WAY IT REALLY IS I kept talking to myself, I had to get the words out of my head. (so I did) You barely said a thing, you kind of heard me out and then you said, (you said) You're crazy, why do you keep doing this? Everything is fine. Then I think I'm crazy I do this all the time. Until I start to think that nothing's even wrong Maybe I am hiding in my own confusion. Maybe we're just a picture in my head. Maybe what if it could be the way I wish it really was. Maybe I don't want to see it the way it really is. Sometimes your intentions are totally impossible to read. (What does that mean?) Sometimes even I have no idea what I need. (I wish I did.) I'm crazy Why do I keep doing this? Everything is fine then you think I'm crazy I do this all the time Until I start to think that something's really wrong. Maybe I am hiding in my own confusion. Maybe we're just a picture in my head. Maybe what if it could be the way I wish it really was. Maybe I don't want to see it the way it really is. Looking through my window at the big, blue sky The lazy sun is shining, so I run outside To look for you, I look for you and then it starts to rain. Is that the way it really is? Maybe I am hiding in my own confusion. Maybe we're just a picture in my head. Maybe what if it could be the way I wish it really was. Maybe I don't want to see it the way it really is. Maybe I am hiding in my own confusion. Maybe we're just a picture in my head. Maybe what if it could be the way I wish it really was. Maybe I don't want to see it the way it really is. The way it really is. the way it really is. the way it really is. # BRING ME UP I was quiet I was tired and I wanted you to bring me up. (I wanted you to make it stop, I wanted you to bring me up.) You were wrong and I was right and I wanted you to bring me up. (Mmm, you know me well, this is something that I shouldn't have to tell you.) We shared humidity, and orange roses, and poking fun at all our friends. They have their barbecues, and we have our arguments; we never can agree. You said, When you don't talk you take it out on me. I was quiet I was tired and I wanted you to bring me up. You were wrong and I was right and I wanted you to bring me up. We took a ride on our motorbike. I couldn't talk to you, but my arms were wrapped around you tight. We stopped at Smokey's, parked the bike outside. So scared to be sad, to keep the tears in I looked up at the sky and took another ride. But I was quiet and I was tired and I wanted you to bring me up. You were wrong and I was right and I wanted you to bring me up. We have us. Is that enough? What is it worth to you? We have us. Is it enough? and what is it worth to you? You said, It's worth everything, hey baby, take a look. It's worth all the pennies in my pocketbook. But I was quiet and I was tired and I wanted you to bring me up. Yeah I was quiet and I was tired and I wanted you to bring me up. So I was wrong and you were right. Bring me home. # UNDERDOG I like things that are so good. You are so, so good. I like you. But I am the underdog, I am the last in line. Don't be the enemy, don't stand in back of me. Freezing, boring, wondering where I'll be on my birthday. You kissed me in a dream last night. How could I? I wouldn't know. Cause I am the underdog, I am the last in line. Don't be the enemy, don't stand in back of me. Will you be my friend? Now I understand that I more than like you. But I am the underdog, I am the last in line. Don't be the enemy, don't stand in back of me. I like things that are so good. You are so, so good. # EVERYDAY Goodbye my love I am going I am slowing you down. I can feel you stop breathing when I come around, I'm slowing you down. Everyday Everyday Everyday Everyday Love turns its back just to stand in my way. Goodbye my love You don't get me, You don't let me inside. You once held me close when you wanted to hide. You pulled me in close just to push me aside. Goodbye. Everyday Everyday Everyday Everyday Love turns its back just to stand in my way. Goodbye my love I'm going away, I know you won't follow me far. Once I went out just to look at the stars. I asked you to join me, but you were too tired. I wanted you to see them too. How could I let myself need you? Everyday Everyday Everyday Everyday Goodbye my love I am going I am slowing you down I can feel you stop breathing when I come around. I'm slowing you down. Everyday Everyday Everyday Everyday love turns its back just to stand in my way. # SOMEONE YOU SHOULD KNOW Who do you think you are? You're talking so loud, you bury the sound of your heart that's singing out. And where do you wanna be? On the top of your world, where you're just a girl who forgot what it's like to dream. You leave everything behind, But you're so tired, one day you might open up your eyes to find What you got isn't what you wanted. What you need just happens to be what you got, what you've always wanted. What you need just happens to be Someone you should know. But you tried to hide between the lines of a story never told. I've seen you run away- You're afraid of the fall, the weight of it all is too much. But you might change your mind. If you'd stand up one day you might open up your eyes to find What you got isn't what you wanted. What you need just happens to be what you got, what you've always wanted. What you need just happens to be someone you should know How do you keep it up? It's all just a front, a dangerous stunt, you're gonna come down soon enough. Open up your eyes. Don't be scared, you might find you had it all the time. What you got is what you wanted. What you need just happened to be what you tried so hard to hide, it was there between the lines of a story never told about someone you should know. What you got is what you wanted What you need just happens to be someone you should know. #DROPS ME DOWN I walked away to get wisdom, but in the end I just walked home, and it drops me, drops me down, and I'm not feeling so good again. It was the same song, and it's making me sad, cause I think that it's happened, and it hasn't been had, and it drops me, drops me down, and I'm not feeling so good again. And I'm injured again, and it's sick and I'm sucked in. Yeah, I'm at it again, it's sick and I'm sucked in, it's sick and I'm sucked in. Cause I had something so dear slip away and leave me here, and it drops me, drops me down, and I'm not feeling so good again. Yeah, it drops me, drops me down, and I'm not feeling so good again. # WE COULD STILL BELONG TOGETHER If I hold my breath If I shut my eyes If I disappear just for the afternoon. If I can't help shouting If I lock you out If it's not important, completely unimportant to anyone else but me, We could still belong together and together is much better. We're okay, so hey don't worry now. Oh wow. If I interrupt and if I cut you off and if I like attention and other worse things I could mention. We could still belong together and together is much better. We're okay, so hey don't worry now. Oh wow. We could still belong together and together is so much better. We're okay, so hey don't worry now. Oh wow. But, if you make a mistake we're through. We could still belong together and together is much better. We're okay, so hey don't worry now. Oh wow. Yes, I complicate I know, it's just my way, but if? is a question that I ask and nothing more. # KICK START We need a kick start, We need a quick solution. We need a next step if we're really going, if we're really going. We sit on our couch while we watch our TV, and the phone doesn't ring and it's perfect. To be here playing house is no comfort to me, it's just more of the same again and again and again. We need a kick start. We need a quick solution. We need a next step if we're really going, if we're really going. Trying so hard to dig ourselves out cause we're stuck and we're scared and we're thinking. Things have to change- it's the thoughts that don't count can't something be done? Don't let this decision drag on. We need a kick start. We need a quick solution. We need a next step if we're really going, if we're really going. We need a big push to reach the right conclusion so we can get there, if we're really going. If we're really going, let's go. We need a quick solution. We need a next step to reach the right conclusion We need a kick start. # YOU DON'T KNOW ME She's got a boyfriend all of a sudden. She's never had one before. She's looking for the thumbs up when they're walking through the door. She's showing him off by making him talk. She's putting her hand in his pocket. It shows on her face, what she doesn't say, what she doesn't say. You don't know me. You don't know me at all. You don't know me. You don't know me at all. You don't know me. You don't know me at all. She doesn't know that we know, that we've been there before. We always pay attention when she walks through the door; it's the clothes that she chooses, it's the words that she uses. She says, You don't know me. You don't know me at all. You don't know me. You don't know me at all. You don't know me. You don't know me at all. She's trying hard to pretend that it's not really happening, but we can see her smiling from afar, we don't see her much anymore, but we can hear her whistling as she walks to her car. You don't know me. You don't know me at all. You don't know me. You don't know me at all. You don't know me. You don't know me at all. # PAYBACK Is this how it ends? Lying in bed, talking to a cheap tape recorder instead of my friends. In bed with a low grade fever. They wanted to know, how could I leave you? I can't tell them that, It might sound like revenge. But some things don't need a payback. Some things are sure, some things you can feel safe about. Is this how it starts? I was waiting for my head to clear up- I thought I was smart, I'd find the answers in time. But the answers I find aren't what you want to hear. They're not even close. But some things don't need a payback. Some things are sure, some things you can feel safe about. Some things don't need a clear up. I remember good things, like the van breaking down. I sat on your lap in the auto repair, and you touched my hair while the heavy drops rain on the pavement outside. Don't take revenge, just let it lie. The easiest thing is if you just let it die. Don't give me a chance, you don't owe me that. Don't follow me out, unless you're coming for some payback. But some things don't need a payback. Some things are sure, some things you can feel safe about. Some things don't need a clear up. Why did I leave? How long did it take? It could take forever. But some things don't need a payback. You got that? # TOO FAST DRIVING Driving, I was thinking, you're my flat tire: too late at night, in the pitch black, out of sight, and too fast driving, and too fast driving. Driving, I was thinking, You're my flat tire. not a blow out, but a screetching halt, lots of ice, no salt, and too fast driving, and too fast driving. Don't want to think about how much and what's the limit. Don't want to think about the limit and am I in it. Am I in it? Am I in it? Driving, I was thinking, you're my flat tire. You're gonna crash, you're stupid loud, you're reckless, you're spinning out, and too fast driving, and too fast driving, and too fast driving. # SHE'S FALLING APART They pull up our chairs to the table. She stares at the food on her plate At the toast and the butter, her father and mother, she pushes away. And they rise in the morning, and they sleep in the dark. And even though nobody's looking, she's falling apart. She gets home from school too early and closes the door to her room There's nothing inside her, she's weak and she's tired of feeling like this. And they rise in the morning, and they sleep in the dark. And even though nobody's looking, she's falling apart. They call her for dinner, she makes up a reason she looks at her arms and she rolls down her sleeves and her mother is starting to see through her lies and last night her father had tears in his eyes. And they rise in the morning, and they sleep in the dark. And even though nobody's looking, she's falling apart. And we rise in the morning and we sleep in the dark and even though nobody's looking, she's falling apart. # I DO When I'm done with thinking, then I'm done with you When I'm done with crying, then I'm done with you When I feel so tired, I'm done with you Everybody feels this way sometimes, everybody feels this way And I do. You can't hear it, but I do. You can't hear it, but I do. You're trying to convince me that what I've done is not right. I get so frustrated, I stay up every night. You ask me for an answer, and I'm so tired that I'm up in the air. Everybody feels this way sometimes, everybody feels this way And I do. You can't hear it, but I do. You can't hear it, but I'm feeling this way just because you say I will be ignored. I will be denied. I could be erased. I could be brushed aside. I will get scared, I will get shoved down. But I feel like I do because you push me around. I'm starting to ignore you, I've doubted you so long. I'm tired of over-thinking, I know you don't belong. Now I'm asking questions - no one pushes me around. Everybody feels this way sometimes, everybody feels this way And I do. You can't hear it but I do. You don't seem angry but I do. I do. I do. I do. You don't seem angry but I do. You don't hear it, but I do. I do. You can't hear it, but I do. You don't seem angry but I do. # FALLING IN LOVE She wanted to be a cowboy, She was shootin' 'em down, She was tramping around. He walked in crooked with the clear blue eyes. There's a nice pool in my motel - you want to go for a swim? That night he moved in. The time between meeting and finally leaving is sometimes called falling in love. The time between meeting and finally leaving is sometimes called falling in love. At night she'd wait for the sound of his feet on the doormat, the sound of his hand on the doorknob, the sound of her heart beating in her head. He'd go out playing nickel slots, cause he knew he'd lose - She didn't know, so she couldn't choose. One night while sleeping alone in her bed, the phone rang, she woke up, and sat up and said, What time is it?, What time is it? Well it's 5:30 here and it's 2:30 there, and I won't be home tonight, he said. The time between meeting and finally leaving is sometimes called falling in love. The time between meeting and finally leaving is sometimes called falling in love. Now she sits in a booth in a diner, waiting for someone to take her order, waiting for someone to come and sit down. She rubs the smudge off the photograph, puts it back into her purse. The grey sky was romantic cause he was holding her hand, he was her man. The time between meeting and finally leaving is sometimes called falling in love. The time between meeting and finally leaving is sometimes called falling in love. Sometimes called falling in love. She wanted to be a cowboy, She was shootin' em down, She was tramping around. # TRUTHFULLY This isn't what I like to call flattery, but I know that I believe that I've found what's true, that I've found what's you. Truthfully I I'm finding finally. Truthfully you you helped me find at last. Truthfully we are finding out what's true. And truthfully I am finding out what's you. Surprise, cause I was flying the plane. Surprise, cause now I'm smiling again. Surprise, cause you showed up with your parachute. Surprise, I'm kind of happy you showed up. Truthfully I I'm finding finally. Truthfully you you helped me find at last. Truthfully we are finding out what's true. And truthfully I am finding out what's you. Truthfully, I really can't explain, I'm floating, I'm smiling again. Truthfully, I can't ignore you, cause I've been waiting for you. Truthfully, I'm not desperate, I haven't changed my mind since we first met, but the last thing that I want to do is to tell you that I'm right for you. Truthfully I I'm finding finally. Truthfully you you helped me find at last. Truthfully we are finding out what's true. And truthfully I am finding out what's you. I'm finding finally. Truthfully, I'm finding out what's you. I'm smiling again. Truthfully Let's Forget About It I told you I was sorry, I told you I was wrong, I said it was an accident and don't tell anyone. But you love to circle round and round, you're so misunderstood. Yeah, you love to circle round and round & you know that we should Forget about it # LET'S FORGET ABOUT IT You lied about how much you knew, I thought you were my friend. You lied upon the mattress, c'mon tell me where you've been. You lied about this night apart, you lied about the room. If you're gonna have to lie to me then Let's forget about it Let's forget about it I'll stop crying on the mountain that we made from a molehill where we spilt the milk. So you say this never happened, perhaps not the way I thought. Did I throw this out of focus - or was it just the way we fought? That is seemed to me you this girl, but you swear to God it's not. Let's forget about it Let's forget about it I'll stop crying, if you'll stop. I'll stop crying, if you'll stop. I'll stop crying, if you'll stop lying to me How I didn't come this far for you to make this hard for me. and now you want to ask me how? It's like - how does your heart beat, and why do you breathe? How does your heart beat, and why do you breathe? Why did you come here? You weren't invited. You were on the outside - Stay on the outside. And now you want to ask me why? It's like - why does your heart beat, and how do you cry? How does your heart beat? And there are some things that I like to figure out. There are some things that I can do without - like you, and your letters that go on forever, And you, and the people that were never friends. With all the things that you could be, you never could learn how to be me. And now you want to ask me how?. It's like - how does your heart beat, and why do you breathe? How does your heart beat, and why do you breathe? # FURIOUS ROSE It's not really poetry, but it's pretty, he said. As he raises his voice, she lowers her head. It makes my heart heavy, you're lonely, I think. Oh Rose, you're sad, I suppose. Look in her bed and she's bound to be sleeping. She is lying there dead. - No, she's breathing. Furious Rose, with your opiate eyes. And your languorous hum, that tone of surprise. I've heard energy and adversity. Your smile: the soul of witchery. You're not running away, you're not running - are you? Lyrically longing, she's tearing the words from the page. She's fearfully seething. Bring me you blessings, a prayer, or a new pen. - You don't know what I need. Look in my bed and I'm bound to be sleeping, I'm lying there dead, but I'm breathing. And I'm barely balancing as it is, and I don't want to drown in my dreams. Bring me wild plums and agrimony I bet you don't even know what that means. Furious Rose with your opiate eye. And your languorous hum, that tone of surprise. I've heard energy in adversity your smile: the soul of witchery. You're not running away. Your not running - are you? Gingerly peering, over his shoulder, removed herself from the room. She is terribly freezing, she always knows when to go. # WISHING HEART No teacher to follow, no prophet to tell me how, But I know what I want, I know what I want now. Like water, it rushes, it's the last thing you see when you close your eyes, it's the one place you want to be. But if it doesn't brush my shoulder, and it doesn't beat my heart, that's not what I want, that's not where I will start. I never kissed somebody so that they would break my heart, that's not what I want. If you don't know what you're missing cause you don't know where to start, follow your wishing heart. I was restless, I was restless, I was restless, I was restless. I just want this to be good, I just want this to be good. but you don't understand, you don't understand me, and I want to be understood. But if it doesn't brush my shoulder, and it doesn't beat my heart, that's not what I want - no, that's not where I will start. I never kissed somebody so that they would break my heart, that's not what I want. If we all leap before we crawl, we might fall, and it's not always candy spun from head to heart, and it's not always meant to be, and it's not always up to me. But if it doesn't brush my shoulders, and it doesn't beat my heart. that's not what I want, that's not where I will start. I never kissed somebody so that they would break my heart, that's not what I want. If you don't know what you're missing, cause you don't know where to start, you don't know what you're missing follow your wishing heart. # DANCE WITH THE ANGELS You want to dance with the angels? Then embroider me with gold, and I will fly with the angels, and you can dance with me. Sing with the angels? Then show me a song, and I will strum with the angels, and you can sing with me. But you want to fall fashionably in love with a woman, in love with a life you'll adore, in love with a woman you'll adore. Under my wings, you'll start to ask yourself, Under my wings, you'll learn to fly. Under my wings, you'll come to understand how to hold on - if you want to. Or you can dream of the frog legs sitting in the church in the glass, in the sand where your foot steps. Or you can dream of the angels in the air- don't you see me? I float in skies, in your eyes, in your eyes. You want to dance with the angels? Then embroider me with gold, and I will fly with the angels, and you can dance with me. Under my wings, you'll start to look for me. Under my wings, you'll want to cry sometimes. Under my wings, you'll find someone to hold onto - if you want to. You want to dance with the angels? Then embroider me with gold, and I will fly with the angels, and you can dance with me. # JAKE I'm going as far as I can go, away from here, away from you, Jake, and the hole you've sunk me into. I wish that I could belong here, with you, and just be, but that's not all that I'm about. Your life is built on accidents, like meeting me. You write everything down in your grocery list - people do this. Even insects buzz like airplanes, why can't we fly away? I'm going as far as I can go. Your dad died, cause his heart hurt, arking away his forty-five years, dragging your mom along. I don't want that, neither do you. Neither do you. If I am not fun, and I am not interesting, perhaps I am not interested in you, neither are you. You can't stand in front of an oven, cause it's warm, and the fumes are dangerous. I'm going as far as I can go. Away from here, away from you, Jake, and the hole you've sunk me into. I wish that I could belong here, with you, and just be, but that's not all that I'm about to do. # THIS In an open room that echoes well, this is where I can tell you everything. This is where I meet my muse, and it feeds me. This is how I buy the sun, and it feeds me. This is why I burn this candle, I light it so that I can handle this. You're so still, you're so safe appear severe, you are so nonchalant. I'm so still I'm so safe appear severe I am not. This is where I meet my muse, and it feeds me. This is how I buy the sun, and it feeds me. I told David I won't die, and this is how I watch the sky, this is why I burn this candle, I light so that I can handle this. You're so still you save face try to erase all you feel inside. Stand still I save face I misplace all the feelings I can't hide. Of all the rooms I've loved before it's you I love inside this room. They test me, can I train my evil eyes to see like they do Sometimes, sometimes, sometimes. Of all the rooms I've loved before, it's you I love. This is how I meet my muse. # SPLIT SECOND I did not want to be stuck one second longer than I had to be there, stuck inside the door. I'm always scared I'll slam my fingers in the door because the last time that I left I slammed my fingers in the door. When you want to get out, you get up, and walk straight to the door. Not stop and think about it, thinking that one second longer that a car could hit me in it if I thought more than I did. Firecracker You want to suffer and show me you're angry. Fight with your fists up or call for your mommy. You want to suffer and show me you're angry. Spend time alone, find a stick in the basement. Drink water and gold dust and live on impatience. Slaughtered for weakness, electric like static. Slaughtered, you're weak - there's no need to speak. You change your shoelaces. I light firecrackers. You step on the sparks. You change your shoelaces, I light firecrackers. I shouldn't be any great inspiration, I never got in your way. I should never have to chase you. I was the one who ran away. If you could feel the pain your confusion has caused me you would have stopped before you spoke. Listening to lies, the pain doesn't suit me. The gift that you gave me, I put it away. I couldn't look at it, it made me think of you. You get in the way. You change your shoelaces. I light firecrackers. You step on the sparks. You change your shoelaces. I light firecrackers. Spend time alone, find a stick in the basement. Drink water and gold dust and die of impatience. Electric like static, and no need to speak. It's not right, but it's not wrong. So I wrote this song. I wrote this song - is that what you want. You got what you want - does it make you feel better? With a smirk on your face and a gun at my head, you come to my place and ask to be fed. You change your shoelaces. I light firecrackers. You step on the sparks. You change your shoelaces, I light firecrackers. You get in the way You get in the way You want to suffer and show me you're angry. Fight with your fists up or call for your mommy. You want to suffer and show me you're angry. # IT'S OVER Sorry sir, I stole your money. Sorry sir, I feel, but it's so, so twisted, so unreal. It was what I'd heard of and what I didn't have, but I cannot give what I do not have, and I cannot take what I do not have. I can't take it. Don't stultify. Don't hold me high. Don't stultify. Don't hold me high. Too many things held precious, too many things held dear; that's what I hate, that's what I fear. Too much to ask for may leave me feeling lonely. Too little leaves me nothing, nothing. The drone in your voice, and the fly on the wall said, It's over, it's over, it's over, it is. What do I wish for you, what do I wish? It's over, it's over, it is. Are we still solemn and bleeding? Are we still swimming to water that was wet? You can't give away certain things that you get. From the outside to the inside I couldn't tell you how it really was. There has to be more on one hand, keep your head above water on the other, the other. The drone in your voice, and the fly on the wall said, It's over, it's over, it's over, it is What do I wish for you, what do I wish? It's over, it's over, it is. Are we still solemn and bleeding? Are we still swimming to water that was already wet? I can forgive, but I can't forget. I'll wish for you, I'll plead and I'll steal. Hold me precious, hold me dear. I'll wish for you, I'll sing and I'll feel. Don't stultify, don't hold me high. Like a Gothic staple, a last good-bye, one way to float is if you die. And it's over, it's over, it's over. It's over, it's over, it's over It's over, it's over. # SNOW DAY It's a bad day. It's a train ride. It's a bad day. You're my medicine It's a snow day. It's a full moon. It's a snow day. When'd you get down to my bones? Where'll I find that wishing stone? The beads, the records, all the calls, and the drinks alone. First by mind, then by music you'll make this all less confusing. It's a slow dive down, a fast distraction, a strange fall forward my lame reaction. It's a bad day. It's a long ride. It s a bad day. You're my medicine It's a sinking feeling, pulls me through the seat of chairs. When will you come rescue me, find solace, and then take me there? You'll say, You re not too tired for this life, and it's not gonna matter if you fall down twice. You're not too tired for this life, and it's not gonna matter if you fall down twice. When' d you get down to my bones? Where' ll I find that wishing stone? The beads, the records, all the calls, and the drinks alone. It's a bad day. 2 miles to go. It's a bad day. You're my medicine. You'll say, You're not too tired for this life, and it's not gonna matter if you fall down twice. You're not too tired for this life, and it's not gonna matter if you fall down twice. You're not too tired for this life, and it's not gonna matter if you fall down twice. You're my medicine. You're my medicine. You're my medicine. You're my medicine. It's a long ride. # TAFFY My friend's got a bruise on his leg, a bruise on his leg every time you speak. My friend's got a bruise on his leg, where I press my knee every time you speak. Actually, bottom line, you tell the truth sometimes. Sometimes you tell the truth like you're pulling taffy. My friend's got a bruise on his arm, a bruise on his arm every time you speak. My friend's got a bruise on his arm, where I shove my elbow every time you speak. Actually, bottom line, you tell the truth sometimes, and sometimes you tell the truth like you're pulling taffy. My friend's got a bruise on his ribs where I poke my finger every time you speak. My friend's got a bruise on his ribs, his rib cage is now numb every time you speak. Actually, bottom line, you tell the truth sometimes, and sometimes you tell the truth like you're pulling taffy. # WHEN ALL THE STARS WERE FALLING When all the stars were falling, I reached up like you said. All the stars were falling, one hit me in the head, and I fell down, down, down. I fell down, down. When all the stars were falling, they fell from above, and I thought of hate, and I thought of hate, and then I thought of love. and I fell down, down, down, I fell down, down. And I've learned how to dance from a Vincent Van Gogh, and the nights were wrapped in a white sheet, and now no one even says hello, 'cause I couldn't stand on my two feet I fell down I fell down. Now the peace you will find, in your own you have found, the lights of the city are the stars on the ground. I may not be a Quaalude living in a speed zone, But I could be restful, I could be someone's home, if I fell down, and I fell down, down. Now all the stars have fallen. # DO YOU SLEEP? Do you eat, sleep, do you breathe me anymore? Do you sleep, do you count sheep anymore? Do you sleep anymore? Do you take plight on my tongue like lead? Do you fall gracefully into bed anymore? I saw you as you walked across my room. You looked out the window, you looked at the moon. And you sat on the corner of my bed, and you smoked with the ghost in the back of my head. And I don't know, and I don't care if I ever will see you again. I don't know, and I don't care if I ever will be there. Do you eat, sleep, do you breathe me anymore? Do you sleep, do you keep me anymore? You kick my foot under the table, I kick you back; I can't say I'm able to stand for you or fall for you ever again. Wish for a perfect setting? Wishing that I am letting you take me where you want me all over again? You can't give yourself absolutely to someone else. And I don't know, and I don't care if I ever will see you again. I don't know, and I don't care if I ever will be there. I saw you as you walked across my room. You looked out the window, you looked at the moon. And you sat on the corner of my bed, and you smoked with the ghost in the back of my head. Do you eat, sleep, do you breathe me anymore? Do you sleep, do you count sheep anymore? Do you sleep anymore? I don't know, and I don't care if I ever will be there. # HURRICANE Skeleton boy by the side of the road. He warned me, he told me; he said, There's this woman, she's a hurricane, He will heal your heart up, and she is hurrying. She said, Don't look for holidays. Don't look, just run away. Go suffocate, and choke your own cry. Go where the water, where the water, seeps from the pink sky. But behead this woman, she's a hurricane, she will heal your heart up, and she is hurrying. Remember your reflection in a pool, in a puddle. And the leaves sped top-speed towards me, and my image was muddled. I'm a lightheaded wonder, she said Don't you see my mind slow down? I'm a lightheaded wonder don't you see my mind slow down? slow down I've compassion for strangers, an affinity for danger won't you be my sacrifice? I'm a lightheaded wonder don't you see my mind slow down for you? And for you? No You're a headless woman, you're a hurricane. You will heal my heart up? No, I will heal my own heart up, you are hurting. I'm a sunburn slap upon your arm, I'll twist you 'til you break, and you're a hurricane. # ROSE-COLORED TIMES Those were rose-colored times on rides with your eyes closed. Those were rose-colored times on rides with your eyes open wide. Shabby tried to comb her hair with the gift from her grandma, her blood. Tangled, she got halfway. Sticky and powdered with dirt from the ground where her mamma had left her. had left her. left her. Those were rose-colored times on rides with your eyes closed. Those were rose-colored times on rides with your eyes open wide, Rusty the screen door, she opened it. Raised from the ground. Mamma left me her ring, mamma left me no family, just barstools, and boyfriends, and whiskey at nighttime, and bedtime, bedtime. I'll go with the man who looks like my father, the neighbors all tell me to go with him. He better take caution, he better take care of me, 'cause if he don't he, better beware of me. Those were rose-colored times on rides with your eyes closed. Those were rose-colored times on rides with your eyes open wide. # SANDALWOOD She can't tell me that all of the love songs have been written, 'cause she's never been in love with you before. Your skin smells lovely like sandalwood. Your hair falls soft like animals. I'm tryin' to keep cool, but everyone likes you. I want to kiss the back of your neck, the top of your spine where your hair hits, and gnaw on your fingertips and fall asleep, I'll talk you to sleep. But I'll be the one, I will have chosen. I'm tryin' to keep cool, but everyone here likes you I'm not the only one. Your skin smells lovely like sandalwood. Your hair falls soft like animals, and nothing else matters to me. She can't tell me that all of the love songs have been written, 'cause she's never been in love with you before, Your hand, so hot, burns a hole in my hand. I wanted to show you. # ALONE I want to be by myself, sometimes I do. I don't want to be left behind, but sometimes I'm left by you. I press my tongue to the top of my mouth, 'cause my jaw, was tired from the thinking. I stretched my toes to the end of the couch, 'cause my back, it was aching from sleeping. So what is this weather, and what is this darkness, and why do I feel so alone? When will it snow, it's been raining for hours, and why do I feel so alone? And when I'm left at home, when you're with someone else I'm all alone. You do not cheat me of my childhood. You bring me blankets for the walls of my forts. There is no anger with the eyebrow raised. When you do the fantastic I am amazed. So what is this weather, and what is this darkness, and why do I feel so alone? When will it snow, it's been raining for hours, and why do I feel so alone? You were leaving some bar, and you're coming downtown, You're not ripping out stitches, but you want me around. Just to call you my love, just to call you my love. You are the treasure custodian cleaning the moon for me. Scouring the sky so the stars would shine bright. You stand straight-faced, and tip-toed on top of a ladder, and I wait. And when I'm left at home, I'm all alone, but I'd rather be alone with you. So what is this weather, and what is this darkness, and why do I feel so alone? When will it snow, it's been raining for hours, and why do I feel so alone? Why do I feel so alone? # WAITING FOR WEDNESDAY Waiting for Wednesday, my stomach doesn't hurt enough, pain always is the sign. Waiting for Wednesday, no proof of mine exists, so l don't have to take it back. Don't want to show you good-bye, show you good-bye. show you good-bye. show you good-bye. But you're waiting for Wednesday. Waiting for Wednesday. Waiting for Wednesday, I pray you'll put me on the spot. I do believe you, that you'll love me that you'll leave me. What will I do when you come near to me? you'll put me on the spot. You've been doing this a long, long time, not that you're better than me, but that you do it a lot. Now I'm waiting for Wednesday, waiting for Wednesday, waiting for Wednesday, waiting for Wednesday. I'm gonna show you good-bye, show you good-bye, show you good-bye, show you good-bye. Now I'm waiting for Wednesday, you're back from out of town, the West is dry, your mind is clear, and I don't want to be here, I don't want to be here, I don't want to be here, to show you good-bye. and I'm waiting for Wednesday, waiting for Wednesday, to show you good-bye. # LISA LISTEN Who would steal on Sunday? Who'd made them believe make believe? Who'd buy a prayer when you can pray for free? If the way you drank your coffee was the way you looked at me, then I could take both my hands off the TV. I've been sleeping on half of my bed lately, and thinking about what you said to me, You're tipsy, you're turning, you are alive, you are burning. Lisa, won't you listen? The moon shines for you. You're tipsy, you're turning, you are alive, you are burning. A sweet man will sing a seafaring song, and a dear, strong woman coos gently along. Good guys at the Cozy are servin' folks for free. Did you ever notice there are so many people in bands in the city? I've been sleeping on half of my bed lately, and thinking about what you said to me, You're tipsy, you're turning, you are alive, you are burning. I will not judge you by the way you play your instrument. No, that's true as fiction, sometimes I do, but the moon shines halfway sometimes too. Lisa, won't you listen? The moon shines for you: You're tipsy and turning, you've got one foot on the floor. You're alive, you are burning. You always wanted more. # GARDEN OF DELIGHTS I see the lights move on the ceiling. I see the stars up in the lights. I see the moonbeams on your forehead there, and I think about the Garden of Delights. You see the curtains draped in front of me. And you see the sun come up alone. You want to show me just what you can see , and I, I turn away You see my face, you hate my words, I hate you too. You see my heart, it likes the feeling that it gets when I'm with you. I look right at your eyes I look right through your eyes. I change conversation thought for you. I throw a look that you can't catch from far behind, and you, you turn away. You are my Jesus boy, you're laying on a bedly cross, I've got you taped up to the wall. But really don't feel bad 'cause you do to me all the things I do to you. I do to you. I see the lights move on the ceiling, I see the stars up in the lights. I see the moonbeams on your forehead there and I think about the Garden of Delights. # STAY You say I only hear what I want to. You say I talk so all the time so. And I thought what I felt was simple, and I thought that I don't belong, and now that I am leaving, now I know that I did something wrong 'cause I missed you. Yeah, I missed you. And you say I only hear what I want to: I don't listen hard, I don't pay attention to the distance that you're running to anyone, anywhere, I don't understand if you really care, I'm only hearing negative: no, no, no. So I turned the radio on, I turned the radio up, and this woman was singing my song: the lover's in love, and the other's run away, lover is crying 'cause the other won't stay. Some of us hover when we weep for the other who was dying since the day they were born. Well, this is not that: I think that I'm throwing, but I'm thrown. And I thought I'd live forever, but now I'm not so sure. You try to tell me that I'm clever, but that won't take me anyhow, or anywhere with you. You said that I was naive, and I thought that I was strong. I thought, hey, I can leave, I can leave. But now I know that I was wrong, 'cause I missed you. You said, I caught you 'cause I want you and one day I'll let you go. You try to give away a keeper, or keep me 'cause you know you're just scared to lose. And you say, Stay. You say I only hear what I want to.