This is a brief rendering of the most important event of my life.

All of my life I have known that I am a sinner, condemned to hell and deserving it. As long as I could remember, I had wanted to be saved. The problem, I found, was that I didn't want it with 'all my heart'. It wasn't the most important priority in my life. My priorities changed in less than a day in March of 1998.

"And ye shall seek me, and find me, when ye shall search for me with all your heart." Jeremiah 29:13

As many, if not all, children who grow up in a home where they hear the Gospel constantly, I tried and tried to believe. I tried saying these words, tried saying those. "Prayed" to God to save me. But, I was always looking within myself. Did I believe enough? Was I feeling the right feelings? Was I trying right? The questions kept on coming. I thought that there was something I had to say or feel at the right moment, then God would say, "Yes, you did it right. You're saved." That isn't how it's done! The work was all done almost 2000 years ago, when Jesus Christ, the Son of God, died on the cross. Not until March 16, 1998, did I realize that though.

"For by grace are ye saved through faith; and that not of yourselves: it is the gift of God:
Not of works, lest any man should boast." Ephesians 2:8-9

When Michael (my brother) was saved, it really spoke to me. I couldn't understand why God would save him, but not me. I didn't think it was fair. I'd always wanted to be saved, but Michael had never really shown an interest before (at least to my knowledge)--yet he was saved. Why? That just didn't make any sense to my 'logical' way of thinking. So many people that I knew were getting saved! Family and friends. Cousins. Brother. Two girls that go to the same gospel hall as I do... Baptisms, funerals, weddings. Needless to say, God was weaving an intricate plan. My story: my life.

"[Jesus answered and said], Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden,
and I will give you rest." Matthew 11:28

On March 15, it was the second to last Gospel meeting before a series was scheduled to start. I did not want to go through them unsaved! I knew how much I'd be burdened! (You see, I'd been seriously concerned for over a year now about my soul and where I'd spent Eternity. I dreaded Gospel meetings. They made me feel awful!) It started out just like any other night. I went to Gospel meeting, not knowing that my life was about to change. I remember part of what was said by Mr. (Harry) Vissia and Mr. (John) Fairfield, but not a whole lot. I remember Mr. Fairfield speaking from the verse Jeremiah 2:13, "For my people have committed two evils; they have forsaken me the fountain of living waters, and hewed them out cisterns, broken cisterns, that can hold no water." He spoke about satisfaction, or the lack thereof, in our lives. The ending hymn really brought the message home:

I tried the broken cisterns, Lord,
But, ah! the waters failed.
Even as I stooped to drink they fled,
And mocked me as I wailed.

Now none but Christ can satisfy,
None other name for me!
There's love and life and lasting joy,
Lord Jesus found in Thee.

I wasn't going to put it off any longer. I stayed behind that night... I wasn't saved then, though.

"Behold, now is the accepted time; behold, now is the day of salvation." 2 Corinthians 6:2

I was still searching in the morning. I read Isaiah 53, a very well-known chapter to me. I knew it off by heart. But at that moment, verse 11 took on a new meaning. "He [God] shall see of the travail of his [the Lord Jesus Christ's] soul and shall be satisfied." I saw for the very first time in my life that God was satisfied with His Son's work. Not with me... Nothing I'd ever do would be satisfactory. But if God Himself was satisfied with what Christ had done, then so was I! And in that second, I was saved. Nothing fancy, nothing vastly obvious. I just believed. I stopped looking within, and looked to God. For the very first time in my life, I trusted Him.

"[Jesus saith unto them], Him that cometh to me I will in no wise cast out." John 6:37

Because of one decision I made, I'm going to spend Eternity in heaven with my Lord and Saviour. If you've already made the same decision, thank God! I'll see you in heaven one day soon! If you haven't, I ask that you seriously consider this for a moment: Where will you spend Eternity?

"He that believeth on the Son hath everlasting life: and he that believeth not the Son shall not see life;
but the wrath of God abideth on him." John 3:36

O Christ in Thee my soul hath found,
And found in Thee alone,
The peace, the joy, I sought so long,
The bliss till now unknown.

Now none but Christ can satisfy,
None other name for me!
There's love and life and lasting joy,
Lord Jesus found in Thee.

I sighed for rest and happiness,
I yearned for them not Thee;
But while I passed my Saviour by,
His love laid hold on me.

I tried the broken cisterns, Lord,
But, ah! the waters failed.
Even as I stooped to drink they fled,
And mocked me as I wailed.

The pleasures lost I sadly mourned,
But never wept for Thee,
Till grace the sightless eyes received,
Thy loveliness to see.

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Last Updated on February 24, 2004 by Jennifer Nixon