Tired

Thank you for reaching
yes, these are my emotions
I only write what I'm feeling
I have all these notions
too many black holes
too many dark oceans
death sounds neat now
among betrayed devotions.

Pain is not tolerable
why should I have to tolerate
the angers I have inside
deep penetrating hate
for the system and it's bullshit
death is a mere fate.
I don't know, do you relate?

And it's not fair that those
who want life are dying
and those who want to stop crying
are forced to continue
going through
the wetting and drying
the complexities of the lying
trying to figure out the truth
and all along denying

thinking it will get better soon
and going on and on
in pain day after day
trying to fix what's wrong
but it takes so long
and no one understands
I'm not that strong.

I'm tired, weary, can't fight anymore
floating, passing
inner core, tore, sore-
it's harassing
just tired of it all
tired.
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