like betraying God

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For All It's Worth

For all it's worth
I'm always here
to give you sun
when you fear
the dark nights
of being alone
all you need to do
is just pick up the phone

For all it's worth
I'm in love with you
and I'll never let you down
in all you go through
that's why I'm here
to love till you leave
and keep close
the strength to believe
even when you falter
stumble and trip
I'll be here to help
you regain your grip

For all it's worth
I'm always beside you
when the tears well up
and storm from inside you
I'll be holding you
to warm you dry
and set you back up
never questioning why.

For all it's worth
to you and me
and the world we live
by the moon and the sea
I have my whole life to give.

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Singing In The Rain

Sometimes I look up and you're there
looking at me and I wonder then
what you are thinking, I question
you start singing that song again

and before you can finish it
I must touch your lips with mine
but still you hum the tune
for having to leave the words behind

busy entertaining my tongue
dancing with the tip, twirling
buttons undone with abandon
unzipped, ripped, and bodies swirling

gliding skin on skin
hips in hands, softly bringing
the flesh penetrated, swinging
wet and smooth with your singing

soaked by the time your song is done
looking up at you, I go insane
when I see you are looking at me
thinking about singing in the rain.

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the love from you

I guess you heard what I had
and gave up to stay here
I never wanted you to feel guilty
or to think I was in fear

I wanted to stay
right here beside you
we need each other that way
and I breathe from inside you

I didn't give up much
only things money can buy
and I'll get those eventually
more important things before I die

and one of those is time
spent with love from you
memories that I'll take
six feet under and through
to heaven's gate
where I'll tell the man
that I stayed
though it was against the plan
and got me here sooner
but I came with stride
never regretting what I gave up
or that I never tried

to live without the love from you
wouldn't even if I could
and I won't apologize but should
knowing heaven wouldn't be as good

as the love from you.

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A Soft Place To Fall

I've seen a lot of things in my life
hard, cold, dark realities that I keep
still within a certain circle
you're there, but not really that deep
there's gotta be more to it all
all these people around but I travel through
streets full but empty of understanding
gotta be more, gotta get a clue

gotta be more than alone like this
gotta climb strong, this circular wall
and when I reach top, who will I see
there to lay down, for me,
a soft place to fall?

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The Sun

The sun makes me sleepy
and brings me an urge to rest
to hold you in a darkened room
cool and damp, against my breast.

The sun makes my skin hot
and long for your cool embrace
sliding across, fingers of ice
sweet lips gliding over my face.

The sun makes me hard
releases the need to be soft inside
to be under you and chilly free
within your dark, from the sun, to hide.

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Image People

Stocky man in a business suit
met another on the street
shaking hands, they began
to talk the technology beat

buying and selling and knowing all
"how's the family?", like they care
making deals around the image
"We'll do lunch", but don't say where

smiling with an ear-to-ear grin
yep, there's another one just sucked in
bringing bugs to crawl across my skin
wondering what he really does when

he comes out of the image
when he goes home at night
sitting down unstuffed and still
thinking of days of younger sight

that showed him as a football star
retiring in blessed happiness
but he ignored his life's calling
and listened to society's best

now living at home is worse
than in hell where the soul roasts
being what he's not, what a curse
image people are only walking ghosts.

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Into Day

If I would have known
that going into day
would have robbed you of me
taken me away
I'd have stayed
in the night for you
so we could be and see
and feel and do

the way we used to
used to be before
but I cannot return
to that closed door

Daylight opened itself
and looked my way
grabbed my hand
and took me away
but I figured
you'd still be there too
I thought this would start
a beginning brand new

I thought you saw me
dying, thought you knew
I needed more
but still needed you
I thought I'd be happy
to go into day
but it seems
it hasn't turned out that way

because I feel
I died anyway
you remain where night
passes
into day.

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Friday

Things will be back to normal Monday
that's what he says to me
but hurricane season's coming
and I'm still wild and free

and he still gets me
where it's numb down inside
things will never be the same though
I faded into a spot to hide
from the wind and rain
because I got used to the sun
was there really any meaning there?
He thinks it'll come

when the weekend's done

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I Waited For You

I waited for you
to bring the medicine
and band-aid to heal me
only cut over again
I waited for you
that day in the storm
to bring an umbrella
and coat to warm

I waited for you
to stand by my side
when I fought the wrong
and had to run and hide

I waited for you
when I graduated proud
lessons learned but alone
you, nowhere in the crowd

I waited for you
the priest joined hands
and we promised to love
but alone in my plans

I waited for you
when she came into the world
to dub you a grandma
but only tears unfurled

I waited for you
two decades till now
and you still don't come
I'm still alone somehow

yesterday marked twenty years
it was windy and the sky was gray
I sat there and waited for you
all I could do was pray
realizing finally to my dismay
that waiting for you is dumb
finally facing the truth that is
you're never gonna come.

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