LAST TRAIN OUT

last train out
like short-winded dust
fail love
exit trust

this is where I leave
my heart for you
my mind in check
body fallen through

this is what happens
when love gets here
when it gets to me
to put me in fear

like a broken dream
promise or chain
last train out
exit pain

CROSSING

I saw you last night
on the drive homeward bound
but was it really you I ask
spinning from the ground
like a little whirlwind tornado
that made the pain behind my eyes
made the unsettling in my stomach
an hour later waking, it dies

my love, I guess it could've been
but today I must go on through with things
that I never did begin
things that call me into life
and not ask why again.


MONOTONE

stay right there
I'm on a roll
monotone
don't analyze
I can't speak in stereo
and I don't want you to be confused

so don't try to think it out
but I think I'm falling to pieces
in monotone clay houses
with no grass
no modern fixtures

just take it from me
I don't live in stereo


STILL

Just be still now
I've got something to say to you
and I want you to stay
as if you had all the time to do
what it is you need to do today.

Don't be so primitive like this
there's nothing that's important here
in your creations of me and my life
you can't lick the salt from a tear
it's like the edge of the knife.

There are things I can't handle
God says it'll be okay though
certain things I don't wanna see
everything that I really should know
you still can't be still for me.


ASLEEP

falling flat on my face with this
on my shoulders, heavy, splat
right in the back of the truck
I couldn't tell you anything like that
because you wouldn't understand
forming an opinion of cause and effect
what causes love and how it affects life
what makes the heart and mind reject
the falling, the heaviness, the cage
in the back of the moving vehicle of time
when you look me up and down
and we fall sleep within the sublime

THE PAIN

pull over on the side to the road
and sit to think why it all begins
with someone else and ends with me
bored in paradise, missing friends
like you how you are to me
but days gone past leave
voids in my eyes and my face
is falling in while I grieve

why do you believe in the things you do
have you been set in your ways long
I can't say anything to you without it being
out of context and sent to make you strong
let the past go on and collect you
I've got gasoline on my brain
so light the match and stand back
let it end with me, the pain.


DON'T ASK WHY

Maybe I could see you out of your element
giving way to affliction
sent from the marriage of time
no longer the addiction
it was once at a time
when it was shiny and new
but it's cold tonight
and you're all dressed up without a clue

there's nothing left here for you
and I'm waiting for you to realize
it's not important anymore
look here, here deep in my eyes
you've had your wings clipped
and we no longer fly
only one look at you out of your element
enough to know it's goodbye
and you want to stand there and ask why


TOO COLD

climbing up the corporate ladder
to the top of nowhere
so what do you think of me now
why do you sit and stare
into me
could you see
what it was I was
back then, life does
that
sometimes

but I'm not afraid
of you or what I've made
follow in my footsteps tight
or leave off into the light
of the sky at the bottom
of the world, throw a kiss

it's just too cold to go on like this.


SECRETS

You don't understand my secrets
everybody has them but can't explain
what in life is hidden there
beyond the sunshine in the rain

I know you'll never understand
please take your question and pause it
have faith that I'm not a bad person
just have a few skeletons in my closet

Maybe one day I'll open up
and let them out for you to see
till then you must understand
the secrets I keep keep me free.


EXIT STAGE RIGHT

propped up against time
but late
how does it feel in your mind
to wait?
the moving of it all
from behind you
letting you fall
into a nevermind you

God I have to get to bed
the hour rolls along
under my fingers, past my head
with the next I'm not as strong
as I've been in the past
when I was brand new
but that's life, the play's cast
over the stage for a rickity you.