Sitting On E
(just a shell)

I now believe that there comes a time
when you've had so much happen to you
that you become immune and numb
life is only motion you go through
when some days are certainly motionless
because you've run all out of fuel
out of ammunition to fight forces
of acceptance that has become the rule.

I now believe that nothing really matters
if nothing I do or say is of worth
and it's not going to mean anything anyhow
where we're going when we leave this earth

I now believe if you deal with too many people
for too long, they all become the same
and if you love too much too fast in time
love somehow evolves into a silly game
and the more you hurt, the more you see
that it lies on you, the responsibility
of stopping pain at the periphery
and you have to shut down eventually

and then you die, become like me
believing that you're fit to be
a body whose heart is sitting on E.