Solitudes

It looked quite like rain this morning
and I was wishing for a hurricane
just so the people would go away
and I could be alone in my pain

smiling, you see, is almost impossible
when you are hurting inside
when the time drags on so slowly
and you have nowhere to hide

when you can't sit still long enough
to make any kind of substantial decision
being pulled apart from the delicate
complex thought that requires split precision

that cannot be mastered with everyone around
looking at you, expecting you to smile
I pray, only for a storm today
so I can sit alone just for awhile.

We are all so far off from home
instead of sitting, I mingle and roam
and the sunshine only depresses me so,
all these folks with nowhere to go.