Frequently Asked Questionsismene 6/98
Soon you’ll be back and maybe you’ll stand right here. Perhaps you’ll say "I’ve missed you" but maybe ‘you’ will have disappeared. What if the person who stands here is nothing like the one I knew before? Change - this I expect, but someone new would leave me torn. I saw a glimpse of you tonight. A you easier, a bit more perfect, less complicated. But it wasn’t good enough, wasn’t you . . . Yikes, you say "what plans have you slated?" Friendship! I say boldly, easiest, most comfortable, least risk of loss. But how should I know if you even want that, and if you do, how much will it cost? What should I have thought when you called on Valentine’s day? at 4 AM from a pay phone after a long walk, and what did you expect I would say? What happens if I get the better of me, and I say what I thought when I wasn’t really thinking. Where would that leave a friendship, except ‘not.’ But what if you just don’t care? Then why should I? Except that I do.
"Hate is not the opposite of love, apathy is."
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