Misery By Choice

Why do I hear indifference in your voice
Why do I get the impression you don't care
About who I am or what I stand for
My individuality is just a burden you bear

When did we stop becoming you and I
How could you take advantage so quick
Your careful words you practice late at night
Your feelings nothing but a clever trick

Maybe I'm to blame for being who I am
Or is that the message you've driven into my head
To hate myself when I disapprove
Of the things you've done and said

In all my anger I ask myself
Why do I fight my temptation to leave
How can my guilty conscience prohibit me
From saving myself from grief

This doubt and misery has left me to believe
This cant be what love is all about
To lie and deceive one so innocent
To steal their heart right out

Looking back on all the lies
It saddens me to think about us
All our hopes and dreams are just a sham
Because of a relationship that wasn't built on trust

But fill me up with all the words
You've used so many times before
Butcher me with my own emotions
And I'll be your loyal slave once more