What Could've been (but wasn't)

What has happened to me?
Why do I feel like this?
My heart would have started aching
after the first kiss

But I know I can't explain
my emotions to you
because I'm so afraid
Of what you may not do

You may not say
That you love me as well
You may really love me
But you may not tell
You may not understand
That my emotions are real
You may be thinking the same thing as me
But may not express how you feel

How could I keep on living
after such a mistake?
My life would still go on
but my heart would break

So I kept the words hidden
deep inside my head
The words that could've changed our lives
The words I never said

I didn't say
You were the one I was thinking of
I said that I "liked" you
But I didn't say "love"
I didn't say
How wonderful you really were
I told you that I loved someone
But I didn't say you were her