I am sure if I were to recite a few lines from a certain Backstreet Boys
song, some of you fans out there would know exactly which song I was talking
about. Lets try it shall we.
<<< Backstreets Back alright. and you were more than just a pretty face, oh how
you fooled me I'm still amazed!>>>>
Did you guess the song..? well if you did well done, and if you didn't it
was 'Don't Want you back' its on their Millennium album.
I suppose you think I am a fan from the way I am able to recite lines and
tell you album names. Well let me assure you I AM NOT!!!! not anymore
anyway.
As it happens that song was written about me ' Richardson told me>
Sorry!, I think I am getting ahead of myself, let me take you back to the
beginning, back to the first time I ever met those five guys from Florida..

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March 22nd 1997
I'll never forget this day, for this is the first time I ever met the
Backstreet Boys. Back then I was naive and hungry for fame. I had just been
signed up by the people at Trans con, and with Johnny Wright as my manager.
Stardom was but a short distance away.
Johnny had pencilled me in to be the support act for the Backstreet Boys.
And as I was from the UK, he thought it would be great if I toured with them
all across Europe. He said it would get me known all the quicker. I was 25
then, I had been trying to break into the music scene ever since I was 15,
It had taken me ten long years just to get signed. I was ecstatic that I had
finally managed it, I wasn't about to blow the opportunity of a lifetime,
not now.
Tonight's concert was going to be at London's Wembley Arena, I had quite
done a few shows already and thankfully the crowd seemed to like my music,
although I was still to meet the famous BSB. So far they had done a great
job of totally ignoring me and making me feel like a nobody, which at the
time was very upsetting and hurtful, especially since I was quite a big fan
of the guys. Nonetheless, I was honoured to be touring with them.
Anyway, at around 10.30pm the concert ended, and I was still in my dressing
room, I was on my cell phone talking to friends, as we were in England, and
my family and friends were a 30 minute car ride away I was busy making plans
to go visit them in the morning.
Johnny stuck his head round the door and smiled a big toothy grin. It was
obvious he wanted to tell me something. I quickly said goodbye to my friend
and then looked at him.
"yes Johnny..?"
"Jade, the guys have asked me to invite you to tonight's after show party,
they would like to meet you..."
"They want to meet me..? NOW! after 12 weeks of touring with them, they
finally want to meet me..?" I asked with a mixture of excitement and anger.
Why hadn't they wanted to meet up with me before.
Johnny must have caught the look of annoyance that crossed my face, he
quickly rushed over to me and rested his hand on my shoulder.
"Hey come on Jade, you know these pop star types..." he gave a little laugh
as if that explained everything.. "It will be good for you to be seen with
them, there are going to be some journalists at the party, they might give
you some publicity, this could be good for your career.."
I mulled it over for a few moments and then decided that being angry just
because they hadn't said hello to me was childish, so I put on a big smile
and turned to Johnny..
"Okay, your right. So what should I wear..?"
Johnny beamed again.." good girl Jade, one of these days you are going to be
a huge star." he looked over at my stage clothes hanging on a rail and
walked over and picked up a black and silver clingy dress "wear this Jade,
it will certainly turn heads, get you noticed.."
He handed me the dress and kissed my cheek "the party is being held in that
huge area next to the guys changing room, come along as soon as your
ready.."
"Thanks Johnny.." I said. I watched him exit and then quickly made a
transformation sliding into the sexy dress and re-applying my make-up, I
gave myself a quick burst of Tommy girl perfume and then glanced into the
full length mirror.
"Looking hot Jade!!" I smiled pleased with my reflection. "go and knock
their socks off.."
I left the dressing room and then slowly and with slightly shaky legs I made
my way over to where the party was being held. As I approached I could hear
loud music being played it sounded like Boys II men.
As I moved inside the party area my heart was hammering in my chest. I didn'
t know any of these people, what was I going to do, should I just stand
around on my own looking like a total loser or should I go up to someone and
start up some conversation.
I looked around looking for someone, anyone who was also alone, I thought it
would be easier to strike up a conversation. As my eyes surveyed the scene I
suddenly spotted my victim, he was tall, about 6'1" short dark hair and very
stylishly dressed. As I moved nearer, I felt sick as I realised it was one
of the Backstreet Boys, it was Kevin Richardson. I was just about to change
my mind and go and find someone else to bother when he suddenly looked up
and stared right at me.
I felt like a rabbit caught in headlights. Shit what was I to do, should I
carry on and say hello or should I divert and go find someone else.
It didn't matter what I thought anyway, I noticed with a sinking feeling in
my stomach that Kevin was heading over towards me.
"hello, its Jade isn't it..." said Kevin holding a hand out towards me..
"yep, thats me.." I replied shaking his hand firmly with a small smile
"how are you enjoying the tour..?" he asked politely before taking a sip of
what I guessed to be red wine.
My god I thought as I looked into his piercing green eyes, he is so
handsome..
"the tour is great, I owe Johnny so much.."
"yeah I bet you do..." sneered Kevin.
Had I just heard him right..? what the hell was he insinuating...?
"Excuse me..?" I asked slightly put out "what do you mean by that...?"
Kevin just shrugged his shoulders "nothing, I guess some people will do
whatever they can to make it to the top. Taking the easy road to fame
instead of working for it.."
I felt the vein in my neck twitch, was Kevin assuming that I hadn't worked
hard to be where I was today, and what did he mean when he said people will
do whatever they can to make it to the top..?
I gave Kevin an icy look as I spoke " I hope you are not assuming that I
haven't worked hard to achieve this role as your support act, because....."
Kevin interrupted "save it Mz Lacey, I am not in the mood to listen to you
try and defend yourself, excuse me..."
I stood open mouthed as he walked away from me, I couldn't believe how rude
this man was. Well screw him, I thought, what the fuck did he know anyway.
I jumped slightly as I felt an arm rest casually across my shoulders. It was
Johnny
"hey Jade, saw you talking to Kevin, how did it go..?"
I rubbed the bridge of my nose trying to relieve the tension I was suddenly
feeling
"It didn't go Johnny, that man is an ignorant rude pig, if that is the way
they all are then I am glad that they have never bothered to say hello to me
in the past..."
Johnny gave me a little squeeze "I'm sorry, but hey only 12 more weeks and
then you are free of them. I'll get you supporting *N Sync next time okay
Jade..?"
I looked up into Johnny friendly dark eyes and smiled "Johnny you are truly
something else, thank you.." I kissed his cheek "I think I may head back to
the hotel now, I don't think I am welcome here.."
"Nonsense.." said Johnny firmly "AJ invited you here, look there he is over
by the buffet table, why don't you go and say hello.."
I glanced over to the red-haired young man and felt my stomach flip flop.
These guys were too sexy for their own good.
"I'll come with you.." Johnny offered "help you break the ice.."
I was about to decline but Johnny grabbed my hand and marched me right over.
"Hey McLean, good show tonight.." smiled Johnny
AJ grinned showing off his perfect white teeth "thanks John.."
AJ turned his attention to me and I saw him gazing at me over the top of his
shades, he had a slight smirk on his lips, something about it made me feel
uneasy.
"I'd like you to meet Jade Lacey..." ventured Johnny "why don't I leave you
two alone and you can get better aquatinted.."
I was just about to protest and tell Johnny I wanted to go back to the hotel
when he turned and left.
An uncomfortable silence lingered between myself and AJ, I watched him
licking his lips as he undressed me with his eyes. I reached out for a
sausage roll from the buffet table wanting the ground to open up and swallow
me. I busied myself nibbling on my snack whilst glancing around the room
looking for an escape..
"looking for loverboy are we..?" came a raspy voice in my ear..
I glanced back at AJ a puzzled look on my face.. "sorry..?"
"Don't be sorry baby.." he said sardonically "we all do what we can to
further our careers, in fact thats why I invited you here tonight.."
I stood there opened mouth once more, where on earth had these guys gotten
their information from..?, didn't they know that I had spend the last 10
years slogging my guts out only to receive rejection after rejection.
"I was wondering .." he continued on, ignoring my fly catchers stance..
"your a very gorgeous woman, I am a very horny guy. If you were to come to
my room with me and pleasure me, I might be able to help you with your
career. It would look VERY good for you to be seen on my arm. Do you know
what I mean babe..? we could come to a regular arrangement." he finished his
eyes resting on my cleavage.
MY GOD!!! I thought feeling the tears prickling my eyes, what a no good
jerk, who the hell did he think he was..? Jade Lacey would never succumb to
using sex to further her career..NEVER, in fact, I was still a virgin. I had
been so busy trying to get my career into motion, that I had never had time
for a boyfriend. Career first boyfriends later, that had always been my
rule.
Without even thinking I raised my hand and slapped AJ hard across the face,
it sent his sunglasses flying onto the buffet table into some kind of dip..
"You bastard.." I yelled as I turned to leave "you sicken me.."
I was well aware of the flashbulbs going off in the background, the press
were going to have a field day, as I stormed out I saw Kevin and he was
glaring at me, he put his hand out to stop me, obviously wanting to insult
me some more, but instead I flippantly raised my hand, pushing his away from
me, I watched in horror as it knocked his wine glass out of his hand and all
down his white silk shirt leaving a massive red stain.
"You stupid clumsy bitch..whats the matter with you.....?" he yelled making
me feel like the lowest kind of scum
I just kept walking, by the time I made it back to the dressing room I had
collapsed in a heap of tears. What a disaster.