Tuesday, October 5, 1999
9:35 AM, in biology class
I was never able to write again until now, sorry. Back to mom, she's gonna stay at home now and Dad's giving himself a raise to compensate for the loss of funds. It sounds nice, I hope it works.
I'm going to start playing the sax for my church. I'm looking forward to it, but I'm a little worried about how little I'll be able to do it because of work.
The youth retreat went fine, I made a lot of friends and the band was great! I learned a lot about myself this weekend , and I learned that we as creations of God are all unique and priceless, yes we do have a special price that He paid for us. Basically I learned a Christian concept of self-worth. I definitely felt a lot better about myself. Oh yeah, I jumped in the lake for a free T-shirt. ;)
I'm even more attracted to Adora than before. I looked at her once today and I ran into a tree. I've missed her, I maven't been able to see her because I've been going to physical therapy so much. I have a job now, so I can actually afford to take her out... when I find the time though. I wonder how Meredith is...
10:56 AM, in English class
Well, I found time to talk to Adora... for like five minutes. She was "busy" talking to a teacher, when in reality she was just in the classroom talking to a girl. I know, I watched her. So I hade myself bust until she came out, and I amusingly confronted her. She apologized and hugged me. She hugs sooooooooo good. I still feel a little rejected though. Anyway...
I think I'm gonna ask to leave class early to go work on my research paper. Ciao!
10:51 PM, sitting on top of the car
Right now I'm sitting on top of my car, in the parking lot at Books-a-Million. I'm waiting on the girl that works at the coffee counter because she needs help studying for French and well, you know me I'm just a nice guy.
Work tonight was ROUGH. Today was a shipment day, and I was the only male part-time there so lucky me I got to stock. I know it doesn't sound like much, but I also had to take care of sales, watch out for shoplifting, and run boxes to and fro, all while keeping the store clean.
I think it's time for me to move out. I need a car badly though (I know, you're thinking "but aren't you sitting on a car?" It's not mine, it's mom's car...). I can move in with my friend Gary if I can crank out $200 a month, but I still need that car. If I can balance school, band, work, and church I think I'll be fine. I'll definitely need some help from the Almighty on this one though.
It just dawned on me that I'm still single. But do I really have time now for a girlfriend? I mean yeesh... school, work, band, church... I HAVE NO FREAKIN TIME!!! Yet it's streang, I'm overleaded but I love it! It gives me a huge rush workking, being around people, having lightsaber duels in the isles, and the girls... don't EVEN get me started! I really wish I knew why my parents had to be so strict about me working. I mean I have tome to do schoolwork. Maybe they're afraid of me being burned out... nah, I doubt it. I severely doubt it. Well, Julie's coming (she's the girl), I think I'd better be getting ready to leave. I hope Mom and Dad don't freak out that I'm bringing a girl home at 11:30... yeah, they're gonna greak. Crap. Think, John, think. Oh well, when in doubt, pray!
11:17 PM, same place
Okay I doubt she was coming. So sue me already. I can see her in there buzzing around like a chicked with her head cut off, she's pretty busy...
There's a cockroach the size of my thumb on the ground. Groovy. Hey, I wonder what Adora's up to... I wonder if she even thinks about me. Hmm, and what about Meredith? You know, I bet if I dwell on it too much I'm gonna jinx it. I wonder if she responded to my e-mail, I really hope she doees. I wonder if she thinks about me as well. C'mon Julie, hurry up... oh lovely she's mopping. April, you can quit laughing now... I know you're reading this... shush girl, shush.
Man, I hope Dad's not waiting up on me. It's going to be SO embarassing if he's up and I show up with a strange girl. I know while I'm waiting I could be doing some studying! I'll write back saying what happens tonight!