Tuesday, October 12, 1999 9:40 AM, in biology class

Ugh... life just flat-out SUCKS right now. I'll try and cover as many details as possible, but I don't have much time.

Julie stayed over until 3:30 AM studying, and yes we actually studied... see I forgot to mention she's a lesbian, and yes I knew that before I brought her over. Well, it turns out that Dad knew she was there and he knew what time she had left. Yes, he chewed me out because he thought we were having sex. I almost said "Dad, don't worry... she's a lesbian" but then I thought that'd be like opening Pandora's Box. At least he's wasn't questioning my manhood, so I let it slide.

Work is great, I really like it. It's fun going around and talking (flirting) to all the people (girls), and I can't describe how it feels to make a large sale. I've learned to cherish days off, but I don't like having too many at a time. I'm getting to wear an Obi-Wan costume at work, it's kinda cool but I do get some people that think it looks stupid.

My research paper is not going well. I can't think of a blasted topic! The teacher had thankfully given me an extension, but I don't need to take it for granted.

Adora... well, she's got a boyfriend now... I blew it because I waited too long. I had a backup but no one bothered to tell me she had a boyfriend until far after I had gotten close to her.

I'm failing French III, which really ticks me off. I'm going to drop that clas. I've been dropped in Biology, and I really need to go get readmitted.

I've been put back on the sax line. I really pisses me off too. I like being on pit, and I keep hearing that I'm getting good at it. I really don't want to march again. I almost quit band because of detesting marching so much.

Right now,... I'm very lonely, and I have a chip on my shoulder the size of Texas. I'm mostly lonely though. I woke up the other night crying because I realized that I had no one to look forward to seeing when I got out of bed.